Wilds
THE DASHING MAN LEFT (PART 6)
“You brought Peciku?”
ask zulfa
He took it from the closet and gave it to him
to me.
I put my peck on neatly, and after that I
see Zulfa who is complete with his Muslim clothes wrapped
hijabs. I was really stunned by the beauty of her who became many times
with clothes like that. He hasn't worn a hijab all this time, he just
wear only when praying.
“You are so beautiful with
your hijab,” my praise is honest with her.
She's staring.
“We haven't had time
to tease each other, guests must have been crowded who came, we better hurry
down,” replied with a timid expression.
I just laughed, and then I held her hand and we
walk downstairs.
There were many guests present, me too
looking at my Cousins, Andre who was with my brother Rudy, and Adrian who
I was with my mom sitting on the couch. We both joined them.
Adrian who saw us immediately shook hands with me and Zulfa.
“So she's your wife Nugy?”
he asked with a smile to Zulfa.
“Why? You're a surprise to me
can you have a beautiful wife? Even though I'm not as experienced as you are about
woman?” I replied cynically with a smile.
“Hahahaha, shucks you,”
reply
And we both laughed.
I
not close to my other cousins, but with Adrian I was very
close, 'cause we were one-in-a-fight when we were in college, it's just me
graduated first while he graduated one year later, after which he went straight
take the S2 in Australia, and soon he'll be done too.
Adrian is actually a smart kid, but not like me,
he was always busy with some of his women when he was in college. He has
habits of living while in college. But that changed when his father
he died in an accident while on his way to his home in Jakarta
to meet him. It was because of this that he was devastated and began to change
bad habits, so it can be a better child like now.
“You know Zulfa, your husband
this is a very lame person when it comes to women when we
college first,” show off as if nostalgic.
Zulfa just smiled listening to Adrian speaking.
“I've brought him to
one of the elite bars in Jakarta, but he was cold sweat when
see a lot of women in sexy clothes. And he just slammed a glass
contains the beer I gave him..”.
“Then he pulled me
coming home and beating me up all over, I didn't feel it at all,
but when I realized the next morning my whole body was very sick and my face was blue-blue
as a result of this badass.”
I just smiled as if I had seen it
familiar with Zulfa who is busy listening to his story.
“Then I was not happy and
challenging him to fight, but still I lost,” he said with a laugh afterwards.
Zulfa laughed when he heard it.
I
so remembering that incident, I was angry with him because he lied to me, he
telling me just wanted to take me to a cool, relaxing place, but
he just took me to a place like that. For him, that place is
nice and relaxing place but for me it's not. That's why I pulled it
go home and beat him at home, than I beat him up at the bar can
gravely.
“You want to feel it
again?” I said I offered my fist to him with a cynical smile.
“Ya is not lacking
hajar,” answered annoyed.
“Hahaha then
shut up,” reply.
Then we who were there also laughed no exception Mother
and Aunt Ida saw our meeting after a long time without seeing each other.
“Come son, you have to give
a word of welcome to welcome all who are already present.” tell Mom to me.
As soon as this surprised me, I didn't tell
to me that I should give a welcome word, I did not prepare it.
“Why should I Bu?”
Mom looked at me in wonder.
“Rudy only, so good
he has not been to anything,” my connection is upset.
“Apaan si lu bang, whichever
maybe the cave can, besides you have often spoken, too, pesantren child,”
his reply was more upset
“Yaudah, this is why you
learn, and this has nothing to do with pesantren or not,” I reply
any more.
We argued with each other in front of our family
seeing us like children because no one wants to give up.
“Already,” said Mother while staring
angry with both of us.
We both fell silent and scared.
“I did it
if you don't want to, what else do you need to prepare, all this time you too
often make speeches without preparation.” continued Mother who has begun to be upset.
I also felt guilty.
“Iya yes Ma'am, let me
just,” I replied slowly
“That dong,” reply my sister
while showing his annoying face.
“Rudyyyyy,” Mother
rebuking.
“Iya Ma'am,” she replied scared.
“Hahaha rasain lu,” says
to Rudi feeling victorious.
“Nugyyy,” Mom so
reproving me.
“Iyaa sorry buk,” answered me
slow down.
The whole house laughed at us who were silent
scared because Mom scolded us. After all this time, it's my first time
and my sister fought like a child.
Subsequent to
we also prepared to find our seats. I
see many people who are already present with a neat sitting position to
waiting for this event to start. They are so crowded, they make something
become nervous instantly. But Zulfa calmed me down.
“You can definitely love,”
he said and left me.
I also smiled a little.
Female and male seating are distinguished, the crest
as for the people present, we have to provide a place outside the house
with a chair that has been arranged neatly. I became very honored by the large number
the people who are here tonight, it makes me happy and excited,
although I was nervous at first.
Ustadz who will memipin Ta’ziah is present, and
sit next to the Papa inside. The event opened with a welcome
from me first. It's very hot, so I decided not to
Long-term, so that you can join Rojali, Adrian, Rudy my brother and
some of my relatives I know are like Om Ali.
I opened my speech with greetings.
Asslamualaikum wr
My presence here is none other than
as representatives of our extended family to say thank you
very deep for the willingness of all guests present or who can not
present in Ta’ziah tonight. I apologize for the guests who had to sit down
outside because this house is not too big to accommodate all of us.
For the first, the,
I would like to remind you again, if my beloved father had any
in debt with anyone, I beg you to meet me after this.
I don't want that to be
a charity barrier that my father had done in his lifetime.
For the second, don't forget me
apologizing for all the mistakes made by my father
I told everyone, as his eldest son, I was ready to make up for it all.
I don't know what to say
again, I just ask the whole please give the best prayer for
My father, and I'm sorry if my father's death confuses most people.
My father died of cancer, and I was the only one
people who had no knowledge of my father's illness before. Which I am
knew my father was a man who was always healthy, strong, gallant, and always kept
all the pain behind his smile.
For some people who admire
my father, please forgive me, because as his eldest son, I did not
I can do a lot about his illness. If there are some people who
hate him so much, I plead so much, please do not leave it to him
my father is dead, and not to my helpless mother, and neither
to my brother who is still innocent. But bestow upon me his firstborn
unable to do anything.
Thank you for everything
his attention. There's not much I can say, more or less
beg pardon. Let us continue our event led by Ustadz Zakariah.
Assalamualaikum wr.
I gave the mic to Ustadz, and I left
stand up to get out, because I can't get inside full of ambiance
haru after hearing my speech earlier. Many were crying and the rest
they held their cries. But I myself cannot show
my tears in front of the crowd, just like my dashing father, even him
always smiling when her death comes, I must be stronger than her,
so that he would be proud of me.
I
he walked out and sat down next to Om Ali and Rudy
my right. Om Ali rubbed my back, rubbing his cheek tissue, it seemed
she was crying too. And my brother Rudy must have cried too.
“Large body, don't
crying,” said I smiled at him while rubbing his head.
“Open your yasin,” tell me.
He nodded and then lowered his head. She didn't
she wants to show me her tears.
You're a big boy, apparently,
I said in my heart.
We also started this ta’ziah with prayers and Verses
the sacred led by Ustadz Zakariah to completion.
When they are finished, they all eat the dishes
my extended family provided. Unlike me, I just smoke my cigarettes, and Om
Ali doesn't mind that. I saw my son was busy helping
serving food and drinks to guests, I smiled proudly at him
that's very shrewd.
I'll hold you until
morning after this, dear, I said in my heart.
It seems like the words in my heart are in direct contact
naturally, she looked at me with a frown and then turned her face shyly,
he looks really funny. And Om Ali also realized that.
“You can't stand to see
your wife?” ask her seductively.
“Hahaha Om know it,”
I replied with a small laugh and smoked my cigarette.
“Just you
introduce him to me, uh the night is married,” he said.
“I'm lucky sir,”
my reply.
“He felt so too
to you,” he said reassuring me.
We looked at him with a smile and Papa came
approaching us, my sister Rudy immediately immediately immediately gave her a seat in the open
we are in a position of facing.
“I'm asking for your one cigarette,”
pinta Papa to me.
“It's not free Pa,”
joking around while giving her my cigarette,
“Ah calculation once
you,” reply while burning cigarettes and sucking them.
I, Papa, Om Ali, Rojali, Rudi, Adrian and Andre sat down
face each other.
“Hai Rudy,” Papa start
put out that bullying style.
“Iya Pa” answers slowly.
“You're still plain
as your brother said in his speech?” tanyakanya.
“Hahaha. I know Pa, how,
where might I judge myself,” she replied with a small laugh.
“Haa you heard
the answer is that?” ask Om Ali to Papa while taking his own cigarette
suck it.
“Hahaha the two of them
indeed the most expensive legacy, left by the deceased,” Papa praised to
our.
My brother and I smiled at him.
“Where did you learn
making speech?” ask Papa to me.
“He otodaki om,” Rojali replied
cut off
We laughed when we heard it.
“You've cut, wrong
also again, self-taught moron,” reply I said it.
We laughed again.
It made the people around us see us,
then Mama came to us.
“You can't see
atmosphere?” ask him to Papa.
Papa just remained silent.
“It's old just you
who invites them to joke,” said Mama annoyed and left.
Papa again just fell silent without a twist. This
made us laugh while covering our mouths with our hands.
“I'm new first time
seeing you got angry Pa,” I said taunting him.
“You also want me to be angry
Nugy?” Suddenly Zulfa's voice came from behind us.
Then we looked at him who was struggling
dirty dishes to bring in.
“E-no,” I replied while
smiling feels guilty.
“Then, shut up,” he said
be firm and leave us.
And I fell silent. Replace, now I'm the one
ridiculed.
“Your women are very
grumpy Pa,” I said annoyed him.
And we laughed a little.
People started coming home, they came to me
before saying a word of apology and sorry to me
and my sister.
Until the last Ustadz Zakaria came home and came
towards us who were sitting, he seemed to want to go home as well.
“I'm new first look
His children,” he said say me and Rudy.
“And I'm not surprised if his children
as tough as he is,” continued while holding my shoulder and Rudy.
“I say goodbye first,” he said
shaking hands with all of us. And say hello and then go
left us.
Some of my father's other relatives have returned
their inns and we stay in this house.
And we resumed our conversation with laughter without anyone scolding
again, because the people have gone home.
Talking Suddenly two people
came up to us and I didn't know him, one guy was a guy who
looks like you're the same age as Dad, and the other one's the same age as me. Pretentiously
he said hello to Om Ali first, but I saw Om Ali's response
it's cold like not liking this guy.
“Where's your Mom?” tannya
with a proud tone towards me.
“Dalam” I replied with
the same tone.
I
pacing it with a feeling of not putting any respect at all. He also walked into the house with
a man like that was his man.
“He who? So late,”
just pissed.
“You don't know him Nugy?”
reply Andre to me.
I shook my head in wonder.
“Name is Burhan, he
one of your father's relatives back then,” replied Om Ali in a serious tone.
I just kept quiet without being able to remember that person.
“He's the one who cheated your father
first,” continued.
Suddenly I was immediately shocked while wrinkling my forehead.
My blood suddenly boiled, I remembered it again, when all this time I had
trying to forget about him.
Glimmer
the grudge in my heart turned into a rage I could no longer endure.
The hatred came out the instant I remembered the man, the man who had deceived my father,
the man who almost drove my father crazy. The man who made me cry in front
the door to my room, because I had to let Rudy have to live with Om Sapri
because Dad couldn't bear our lives. He made me
had to see my mother and father scorned by others, for not having money
at all.
I really burned the flames of vengeance that consumed me, I
stand with the intention of killing him. I walked quickly into the house, and people
those around me were chasing me from behind.
I went in and threw the door down, I went straight in
pulled the collar of his shirt sitting in front of my mother with his arrogant face
who seemed pretentious to show his sadness in front of Mom.
I
slammed him, and beat him mercilessly, despite several times he
trying to withstand my blow, I continued to beat him with all my might,
until he can't hold it anymore. I beat his face many times,
a face I don't really want to see, a face I hate.
“BEARE YOU HERE
FUCK,” I snapped at him while pulling his collar.
I don't care if he's older than me, which is in my head
right now just want to avenge all for what he has done to my family.
“What are you doing?”
the man who was with her replied while pointing his gun at me.
I ran and immediately threw my kick right in
his chest, until he lay and his gun was thrown away from us. I didn't
do not stay silent to beat him mercilessly. Until Rudy held me back
strong, but I managed to escape and back land every blow and
my kick to the pretentious guy who wants to shoot me.
My movements suddenly stopped when everyone was holding me back
with all my might. I rebelled, but this time I couldn't escape. I
very upset with those who are holding me back.
“LEEP ME!!! GODDAMN BASTARDS
YOU GUYS,” my orders to them.
I don't care who's holding me back, my hatred is dark
my eyes, even though Papa, Om Ali, and Om Zul were holding me back, but I didn't care.
“ALREADY BANG, YOU CAN
KILL THEM,” reply Rudy snapped at me.
“HOW DARE YOU SNAP AT ME?”
I asked while glaring at him.
He was silent as if his body was trembling with anger
aslo.
“AKU REALLY WANT
KILL THEM, SO LET ME GO,” My connection is full of emotion.
“I WON'T LET
MY BROTHER BECAME A MURDERER,” his reply snapped at me again.
I fell silent and stopped struggling, I looked at Rudy with
longtime. For the first time he dared to yell at me like that, and to
the first time he was worried about me.
I
bowing my head with a little holding back my emotions, I started to get back in shape
controlling myself, I can see the people around me again, I
looking at the look on their panicked faces seemed to be unexpected with what I was
do so. I saw my mother crying out of fear for my anger, too
with my wife Zulfa. I saw the expressions of those who were holding me back as if
told me to calm down.
I can think clearly again, and they begin
letting go of me, I looked around me back with a feeling I couldn't
I explained, I felt guilty for making them fear me, me too
feeling so guilty made my mother cry.
“I'm sorry, I just
want to beat him as best I can..”
“I hate it so much
sibangsat ini” said I while pointing my index finger towards Burhan.
“How dare you
show your face in front of me after what you did to me
my family,” connect.
Him
only silence was unable to answer, as he was completely helpless after
I'm fucking with that kid.
“And you dare
point your gun at me.”.
“What you think with
that gun you can scare me?” I said to the other guy.
He also just fell silent unable to answer, and I
staring sharp.
“ANSWER ME ASSHOLE,”
snapped to him.
“Already nakk,” Mother begs
to me.
“I'm not satisfied if I'm not
kill this jerk,”, I said firmly.
“You can't
kill him” beg Mother again to me.
“Why Bu?”
I just shook my head with tears
keep flowing on his cheeks.
“At what he's been
do so. You asked me to forgive him? so Bu?” ask again.
Mom was still silent while crying.
“Can't be Mom, she's the one
it's made Dad suffer and almost crazy in front of me, he's gone too
making Mom cry in front of my door because I had to let Rudy go
the still baby is cared for by others.”
I just kept quiet and couldn't answer, he could only
crying out. Then I went back to Burhan.
“BURHAN,” Pekikku.
“YOU REMEMBER ME?”
connect me while pulling his collar.
He's trying to look at me.
“I AM A CHILD
WHO USED TO BE HELPLESS WHEN I SAW MY FATHER ALMOST GO CRAZY BECAUSE OF YOU.
“AND NOW DARE
YOU CAME WITH YOUR ARROGANCE IN FRONT OF ME AND SOK CRIED IN FRONT OF MY MOTHER.
“TELL ME!!!WHAT
YOUR PLANS AGAIN? HUH?”
He was just scared and unable to do anything.
“YOU HEARD ME!!!”
“AS LONG AS I'M ALIVE,
I WON'T LET A SAVAGE LIKE YOU TOUCH MY FAMILY AGAIN,” I SAID
threatening him was full of emotion.
He could only nod in fear of me.
“GO!!! BEFORE I
REALLY WILL KILL YOU GUYS NOW,” I snaPPED.
They also try
got up and left limped with the pain from my punch earlier. Zulfa yagn
from then on, I could only see the glare approaching and then pull my hand to
sitting on the sofa, my sister took my mother to the room to calm her down,
followed by Aunt Ida, Aunt Yuni, Mama, and Dewi. While I still
trying to calm myself down with Zulfa beside me.
