Wilds
WHOEVER I'M GONNA BREAK #1
“Ah shit!!! me
kayasangan” said as if talking to himself.
I went to the bathroom to clean my body, too
will definitely be scolded by the Goddess this time, last night I couldn't sleep fast, I'm sure,
because all of Zulfa's confessions swirling around haunted my mind. I didn't
expecting a plain, small woman like her to have a tough mentality and soul
within him.
He could have hidden all the events
I think it could endanger him, I don't think about everything either
the pressures that occur in her life, I think for the woman who
aged like him, it's not appropriate that he experienced that.
You are a tough woman
Zulfa, I said in my heart.
From every confession he made last night, there was one thing that
it keeps me from thinking, which is how we didn't meet when he did
looking for me at the stop like he told me, and I did too
looking for him many times at the same stop. It is truly unique to God
meet me again with him. But the most important thing now is me
already know everything and will not waste the opportunity to get it
this time.
After I got out of the bathroom, I immediately
hurrying to put on my clothes and then moving straight to my office, there
there are already monsters waiting to scold me.
“I went mbok,” I said to
Mops.
“Aden ga breakfast first?”
tanyakanya.
“Ga Mbok, I
must be fast,” I replied.
“Yaudah, be careful den.”
I just nodded while giving her a smile then I
go with my car. I have to think of a good reason to say
to the Goddess, otherwise she could scold me later, even if she just
my secretary but I have no objection if he scolds me for my carelessness,
because it was his mother who helped me to maintain my integrity so that
being a little respected person in this Wilderness.
“Ah shit, it's stuck
again,” umpatku.
The wilderness today is so jammed, that it makes me
a little hampered to be able to dart quickly into my office. Why is it so much
once people made this city a destination in their lives. Though
this city was extremely ferocious for a human to be able to survive.
Nothing distinguishes haram and halal in this town, and
it is very difficult to know which ones are friends and opponents. That's why I don't
too maintain close relationships with many people, because for me a friend who
quality is more important than quantity.
When the green light has appeared Slowly the car
it's starting to advance, of course I'm not wasting this opportunity, I'm straight away
slowly moving my car forward and when I saw there was an empty gap
also directly drove my car quickly, until I managed to arrive
my office.
I immediately entered my office leisurely and unhurriedly,
I can't see my panic in the employees who work
in my office, it's not good for a leader.
“Ohhh came too, cave
thought you forgot your work,” said someone who was ready would scold me.
I didn't return his words and just smiled at him
then walk in my room.
“What's your reason today
gy?” tanyakanya.
“Macet,” my answer is short.
“Hah!!”
I just kept quiet and didn't respond.
“Lu thinks the cave will
understand your reason?” resounding
asked me.
“Yaudah therefore do not
much tanya.”
“Lu what the hell is Gy.”
“Lu what's wrong, just try it
lu ngasih cave ride ojek. Cave ain't gonna be late for this office.”
“Ooh now you are instead
salahin cave.”
“Ya your wrong..”.
“If the cave ride ojek
here earlier, the cave will certainly not face the same traffic jams that make the cave late
here,” I'm upset with him.
“Kok so you're angry,”
his reply.
I didn't answer and just looked at him annoyed.
“Yauda deh cave apologize,”
said slowly.
Times
I feel guilty for scolding him.
“Nothing,” reply me
relaxed.
We looked at it a little longer, too.
“Nih,” he said while
give me a report.
“Ntar aja cave check,”
my reply.
“Oke.”
Then he went out of my room.
Now I'm just sitting on my shoulder in my chair, my job,
this has happened so often, I am very often angry with the goddess, and every
my anger that came out he always understood me, this thing that made me not
I could see it which I was angry with.
Maybe it'll be noon
will treat him, I said in my heart.
I
even opening the report given by the goddess, I was actually very lazy
checking these reports, but because it's my job, so I did
just.
This is how my daily life in the office, boring and not
it was fun at all. I just had to sit in this big room myself
with the files that made my head feel like it wanted to break looking at him.
At times like this, I remember what happened yesterday
with Zulfa and Mother, it was a very pleasant day for us
threes. The day that two women I love meet each other and throw
stories and laughs at each other, two women who have been saving
the ironies of their own lives, I have learned the truth from Zulfa,
but I don't know yet the truth that Mother is hiding about
my family.
Slewed
in my mind to find out about it, I decided to ask
someone to find out what's hidden from me. And I know very well who the people are worth
to help me.
I
pulled out my phone and called Rojali. He must have someone who can
relied on about this.
“Where are you?” much
“Dicafe,” the answer
“Cave no duty for you.”
“What else?” tanyakanya.
I told him briefly about the behavior
Mother who seemed to be hiding something about my family against me.
“Terus you want me
how?” tanyakanya.
“Lu tell people to stay
mother's activity, and if there is anything suspicious you immediately reported the cave,”
my orders.
“Oke sip safe, just relax
you,” reply.
I
didn't answer and turned off my phone.
Rojali is the right man for one business
here, he has members he can count on, and I don't know how
he can get those guys.
Wait a minute, ma'am, I'll bring the family back
it's been a fun family like before, I said in my heart.
“Tett tettt tettt”
my phone suddenly sounded.
I took my phone in my pants pocket
wear it, then I look at my phone screen, Zulfa called me. I'm direct
hoisted it.
“Hallo” says
“Hallo Gy,” reply
panicked.
“What's the Fa?” much
little panic.
“Later noon he invited
I had lunch,” he replied.
“Terus?”
“I'm afraid,” he replied
slow down.
I didn't answer, even though I couldn't see it
right now, but I'm sure he's scared and asking for help
against me.
“Now you are
where?” my many.
“I got on campus,” answered.
“Ya I've been there
now,” reply me then turn off my phone.
I got out of my chair and walked out of my room.
“Lu where to go?” ask the Goddess
to me.
“Cua no business.”
“Oh okay.”
And I went straight away to leave him.
better not tell him this first, because I don't have any
a lot of time, so let me face it alone first.
Sorry wi, the cave can't
now, I say in my heart.
…
I have now entered the campus area
college place My Bidadar, I searched where the Faculty he was at, after
I found out I just parked my car.
I walked to find where Zulfa was waiting for me, while I was
there were a lot of students who looked at me, and I didn't
as soon as I care about them, I only care about my Big Brother who is
awaiting arrival.
I'm tired of running around looking for her, but
I didn't find it, so I decided to ask a student
who was glancing at me earlier, I came to him.
“Do you know Zulfa?”
my many.
He did not answer and just looked at me with a smile
to me.
“Hey, are you
know him?” ask again.
“E-eh cave not familiar,”
the answer.
“Oh okay,” my last word
leave him.
I called him a few times but he didn't
lifting him up, I think he's with the guy now. I have to be right away
looking for him but I don't know where.
Where you are, I said
in heart.
I started to panic by not finding him, but suddenly
it just crossed my mind to look for him at this college, but I didn't
I knew where it was, so I decided to ask another student
any more.
“Sorry to interrupt, are you
Him
he did not answer and just looked at me with a smile.
“As if I'm in a hurry,”
my connection.
“B-okay,” answered.
He took me to the canton of this Faculty, and
I just walked behind him, not too far away
where I was standing.
Finally
I got to my hand, and my guess was not wrong, I found my bidadar
here, he's with the guy I beat up yesterday. My bidadar is sitting
silent as a frightened person, while the man was laughing with
his friends who were in one seat with him and my Big Dipper.
I can't stand this sight, I walk
approaching them, until I stood beside my Bidad, and slowly drew his hand
to stand.
“Let's go home,”
to him.
“N-nugy,” surprise reply.
I saw the look on his smiling face towards me, as if
the fear I saw from him was gone with my presence
nearby.
“Enak aja you Bring
girl cave,” said a man I had beaten.
I did not answer him, and just stared at him.
“Lu think cave scared ama
lu,”.
I was still silent, I could understand her courage when
this, first because it's in a campus environment, second because of the many friends
he's around.
“Come on,” my words
to Zulfa.
Everything on that desk was staring at me, no
with the exception of my Bidadar, he looked at me in shock. I called him darling, intentionally,
for this man to be hot to see me.
“I-iya,” reply Zulfa.
I smiled at the man and took Zulfa
gowith me.
I walk by holding his hand, this thing makes
a lot of people looked at us, but I didn't care, until we got there
in the car I parked and got into the car.
I drove my car to drive him
I went home, but I wanted to take him to lunch first, I saw
he didn't eat the least of his food on the canteen, I think he did too
he's hungry now.
“Why do you know me
there?” tanyakanya.
“I'm looking for you.”
“you're looking for me?”
“Iya, if only you
don't bother me, maybe I'll find you more easily, and with that I won't
need to be a spectacle for your friends along the way I've been looking for you
earlier,” said I was angry with him.
I got upset, couldn't he wait for me in that place
easier to find.
“Why are you so
scolding me,” protest.
“You deserve to
I'm angry.”
“I am wrong what.”
“You should have
took the initiative to wait for me in an easier place to find.”
“You turned off the phone before
I told my location.”
I was silent and only looked at him once.
“I'm waiting for you dihalte
ahead, so that you can easily find me, but he has already come first
and take me to kantin..”.
“I'm sorry if that
trouble you, but I'm glad you came,” he said softly while bowed.
I fell silent and stopped my car, I stuck it with
guilt for scolding him.
“I'm sorry, I
just annoyed with holding back my emotions to not hit him earlier,” I said slowly.
She looked at me with her eyes starting to tear up a little
like wanting to cry.
“I'm so panicking about you
Za, sorry I yes, I should have come earlier,” connect me while
smiled at him.
He did not answer and looked at me deeply.
“You won't
crying?” my many.
“I'll cry if
you let me starve,” he replied.
“Take it easy, I do
want to take you to lunch with me,” I said.
“Ya is already running
nugy's car, I'm so hungry.”
I followed his will and drove my car
quickly headed for the usual cafe, so as not too far to deliver him
go home after lunch.
We didn't talk again until we got to the cafe, then
getting out of the car and into it, I saw Rojali's astonished look
we both came, but I ignored him, and took Zulfa to a seat.
“Why did you take me
here?” tanyakanya.
“You want to eat, right,
that's why I brought you here,” I replied flatly.
“Iya I know, but why
must go to this cafe.”
“Let me be able
drive you home after this,” I replied.
“I don't want to go home fast,”
his protest.
“Ya already, then
you can't leave my side until you want me to take you home,” I said.
He just stares at me.
“Hey, do you understand?” much
ensure.
He just nodded while smiling cheerfully. Me too
returning his smile, then turning my face towards the haunted figure staring
we were surprised from that moment.
“Woi, have no intentions
for sales?” I call Rojali.
He came to me with a menu
pissed me.
“You mesan what are you?”
tanyanya was upset with me.
“This is how you serve?”
manya.
“Mau mesan what bang?”
tanyanya gently.
“hahahhaha.” tawaku
broke to see Rojali who was like this.
“Why are you laughing
nugy?” zulfa asked in surprise.
“It's okay, I just
funny look at his innocent pretentious face.”
“Be careful you're the same
this,” Rojali told Zulfa telling me.
“why?” ask Zulfa.
“He's a pervert guy
same innocent girl as you,” Rojali replied.
“Fuck you,” ketusku
rojali.
“hahahahaha,” them
both laughing.
“You feel it,” says
rojali.
I just looked at them both annoyed.
Zulfa ordered his order.
“You messan what?” ask
rojali.
“The ordinary.”
Then he left us both.
I saw my bidadar Smile to myself in front of me.
“You're like crazy”
my spoken.
“Let's just, I intentionally
so that you're not interested in molesting me, his god” is taunting me.
“I'm not a pervert, don't
trust him” reply me annoyed.
“Hahahaha.”
“Don't laugh at me.”
“You're funny Nugy.”
“Stop or I Really
will molest you here,” I said teasing him.
“Now it is you who
look crazy.”
“Hahahaha”
I laughed every time I looked at him with an expression
plainly, while he saw me annoyed.
Then I looked at him deeply, I felt something upheaval
in me to say something to him, which is to say love. However
I don't have enough guts to say it right now. I really didn't
helplessly made this girl younger than me.
“Why do you see me
like that?” tanyakanya.
“H-hah no,” I replied
smiling while teasing him.
“You're not really
will do it right?” tanyanya was afraid.
“Take it easy, I don't
will enjoy your body now.”
“You look like Om-om.”
“Hahahaha.”
After being satisfied I teased him, then Rojali came
with our order, he left us both.
Zulfa and I ate our own food.
After we finished eating each of us, I
taking Zulfa home, he didn't want to go home at first, but I
convince her by saying I have business to finish, and
he finally wants to go home.
On the way home we didn't tell him at all, I was
busy focusing on driving my car, while Zulfa was busy playing his phone.
Until we got to her house, she got out of my car.
“Ga stop by first?”
tanyakanya.
“I Rush.”
“It looks like you're so
do not want to enter my house because of the incident,” he said slowly while looking down.
“No Zulfa, I will
come to your house tonight” reply me.
“Really?”
I just nodded to him.
Then
he went into his house, and I drove
my car to my house, I'm so lazy to the office because I have to go back and forth again, more
well, I'm just going home to rest so I can go home tonight
Zulfa as I promised him.
Arriving
I was at home, I changed my clothes and laid my body in my bed
my room until I fall asleep.
