Wilds
HAPPY AND DISAPPOINTED, SAME THING
From last night my mind was not
stop worrying about what happened to my mother, now I walk
tracing the office towards my room, I sat back leisurely pensive, silent and
think. God, is this all gonna be okay, I'm worried about
what happened to my mom and my family, what really happened there?
I kept wondering in my heart.
Suddenly the door of my room
it reads, and it must be a Goddess.
“Masuk”
“Gimana his lunch yesterday
Boss?” Ask her
I
not answering and putting on a lazy expression.
“Kok limp so, there is
what?”
“Nothing Wi.”
“Gua can't you lie,
aja mumpung senggang gini.”
I can't avoid not telling
to him, but I'd better not tell him about Mom's bottom first,
so I told him about my incident with Zulfa who wanted to
accept me in front of Mom, and that's just to keep Mom feeling.
“Gua don't know you have to
how Gy, but the words of the girl there really is, as a rich child you must
nurutin Mother first, because when this time I must know, if you also
understand that Parents are more important than your own feelings, you know
himself who said the same cave first,” he said as if agreeing with my bidadar actions
yesterday noon.
I was silent to hear it, and did not respond
back, because now my mind is focused on my family.
“Tett tetttt tetttt”
my phone rang suddenly.
I took my phone in my pants pocket, Rojali
called me and of course I picked him up.
“I've got the info,”
said it.
“Cua there now,”
reply then turn off my phone.
I got up to leave my office.
“Why?” ask the Goddess
“Cua no business jerk,”
my answer.
He looked at me in wonder, too.
I left him, I didn't have time
to explain to the Goddess this one.
I drove my car and went to the cafe
the usual place where Rojali is waiting for me.
I
I can't wait to find out what information he's going to give me,
I drove my car quickly, fortunately this wilderness was not very
it's stuck at the moment so I can speed up fast.
Arriving at the cafe, I immediately came to him who
sitting waiting for me at the corner of the cafe, where we used to sit.
“What you got?”
my many.
“I got info about
mother,” replied while giving the brown map to me.
I
open it and take the contents inside, there are some photos of Mom together
a woman I don't know, and I don't seem to know any place either
they visit in this picture, it's not like my house, I'm getting suspicious.
Mom said there was something
waiting for her at home but who is this woman and where is this, I said in my heart.
“Mother not home
go to the house, but instead go to the cafe, and the same girl she is a Doctor, she is,
I made sure of it through my Surat,” he said.
I was speechless in wonder, Rojali couldn't possibly lie
to me, even though he is only my subordinate, but he has some acquaintances who
very influential in this Wilderness, and it must have been very easy for him
to get info on this. Seeing the situation in this photo
I was pretty sure that Mom lied to me but what exactly was hidden
Mom, is she sick? I'm back wondering in my heart.
“Lu got this address
Doctor?” my many.
“My people are looking for me again
you know about that, you calm down, we'll know what happened exactly,”
said reassured me.
“Kabarin cave if you
got the address” my command.
“Why are you?” ask
nya.
“We samperin direct,”
answer me
“You think he'll give
know us all, you'll know for yourself how your mother.”
I hesitated, as if agreeing with what was said
by Rojali, the woman definitely did not easily give any info about Mom,
because I know very well that no one can escape from Mom's trust, she
very good about this. But I'm sure I can definitely cut out the information
that's.
“Lu report as soon as possible,
about it let the cave take care,” I said confidently.
“Sip, Boss.”
Looks like Rojali knows if I'm sure then there's none
what else he needs to worry about. I must've finished it.
Cell phones
I read, the goddess called me.
“Lu where the hell, hard
very on the phone, documents have been email cave, you see first before you acc,”
he said from across there.
“OK,” reply I was last
turning off calls.
“Who?” ask Rojali.
“Ya who else.”
“Eh you don't know
he's about this?” ask again.
“Nggak.”
“Ah dead us, she must be
ramble later.”
“Yauda is business later
aja anyway,” said I convinced him.
“Sukak you are,”
his reply.
I
no more talking and checking documents emailed by Dewi. After that I
and soon to go home to my house. Because today is Saturday, I just
briefly after running out of the field with Dewi and some
employees to see our ongoing projects. And tonight I
planning to meet my bidadar at his house.
…
I've been trying to call my Bidadar since,
but he didn't pick up, so I decided to come to his house, so did I
get ready to take a shower and after Maghrib I immediately leave
he came home in my car.
On the way, I wondered if he would
I'll take a walk with me tonight. All this time he was going with me
because there is a mother for the reason. Don't know, I better make sure
who knew he wanted to.
Arriving
I'm at his house the security guard opened the gate for me, it looks like he's
knowing me, he gladly told me to come in. Subsequent to
parked the car, I got out of my car to get in the house, and then
I knocked on the door of his closed house while saying my greetings, sounding
the sound of footsteps from within was definitely that of the occupants of this house.
“Nugy,” greet her mother while
smile at.
“Aunty Night,” reply
say hello.
“Come in.”
I nodded, followed him in
back, and sitting in the guest seat of this house.
“Zulfanya is not
at home son,” said Mother as if worried I was disappointed.
Guess what, he didn't even pick up my phone
from earlier.
“Ouhh, my pantesan
phone not picked up, I just go home Auntie,” reply.
“No need to wait?”
tanyakanya.
“Engg—”
“Where are you in a hurry
once,” said his papa who walked up to us.
“Night Om,” I said while
ingratiate itself.
“Begin first, overnight
just Sunday with me, I want to tell stories with you,” he asked.
She must have known I came to her house to take her
his son spent the night Sunday. Even if Zulfa doesn't exist, it seems like I'm better
here used to tell her father.
I
also according to him, then he invited me to come with him, while his wife
go straight to the kitchen. I was amazed at him who was like doing
all alone for her husband and son, no maid I saw at home
this, even so he still did not forget to take care of himself.
“You are not tonight
lucky to bring my son to Nugy road,” he said as he walked towards
behind the house that I think is very comfortable to relax and tell stories.
“Sit here we are,”
bring him.
I
sitting next to him, this place is very clean and soothing, there is a pool
swimming and flower garden though not as spacious and beautiful as my family home.
When I was busy looking around the place, he asked
to me.
“Are you and my son
dating?” he asked warmly.
Certainly
this question made me fall silent, because I didn't know I had to answer
what, I haven't said love to Zulfa at all, but I
have invited him to walk several times even with Mom, even I have
kissing son.
“I don't know Om,”
reply resigned.
“She has told
everything to us, about you, about your family, and your very mother
admired by my son,” he said.
“You are approaching my son
because you love her, or just to make your mom happy?”
tanyakanya.
I was a little silent while convincing myself to be able to
to be honest with his father, for at that moment in front of his mother, Zulfa
willing to accept me if I say love to her, but until now I have
never said it, 'cause I don't want him to get me wrong
doing it for Mom when I want her to know that I'm right
loved her.
“Actually Zulfa the
wanting this for my mother Om, I'm not sure she loves me, but I am sure
I love him so much,” I replied honestly.
I saw papa
smiling seeing me.
“I like you so much Nugy,
you're an honest and brave man, no wonder we feel so comfortable around you,
you have a positive aura that I find hard to explain, but very direct
we felt when we first saw you,” he said honestly.
“But about the heart
my son is hanging on to him, even though you managed to take my heart and my wife,
but not necessarily for my son,” gently.
I
not answering, I just pensively listened to his words, because of what he said
there's a point too.
Then
I asked Tanya in my heart, does Zulfa really have no taste
anything to me other than wanting to make Mom happy. I don't think he needs to
doing that, because it is my duty as his son. Better after
this I must tell Zulfa the truth immediately, and I am ready
accept anything from him, if he accepts me out of love then I will
have it, and if he doesn't have that taste then I should
leave him. Mother's question is I can make her happy in my own way.
Looking at me who was silent, I think he knew that I was
he thought about what he said just now, and he understood it.
“Let's eat,”
bring him.
I
he nodded because I had not had dinner yet, so I planned to eat
night with his son tonight but he's not home. It's nothing
at least I tried.
Our
also eat together three, while telling stories, they seem to want to know
about me more, seeming to be from the questions of those who are mutually
and asked me, except for my family, and
my job. I think they know about my family from Zulfa, and I don't
objection at all to Zulfa telling everything to his family.
Subsequent to
finished eating. I talked for a while with the two of them, until I
I decided to go home because it was 10 p.m.
I've been here a long time, too,
my mind.
I also want to go home
with both of them.
“Om-Tante, I say goodbye
home,” my word soft.
“Can you call
we're like my son calling your mother?” ask her father to me.
I
just look at them, then nod.
“Then I say goodbye
pa-ma,” I told them.
“That's how it should be”
reply Papa.
I touched them, and went to my car, but
suddenly Papa called me.
“Nugy” call him.
I also looked at him.
“I'd really like to see
you managed to take his heart your own way,”.
Straight away
I was so happy with what he said, he supported me so much. I just
smiling nodded. Then with a feeling of pleasure I went walking in the car
which I park in the yard.
When I was about to get in the car suddenly I saw the car
red who stopped in front of the fence, I saw Zulfa get out of the car
that, I think he was delivered by someone I don't know who, because I
I didn't see him, I just saw his car and left right after Zulfa
getting out of the car, he looked very carefree and walked inside.
Then he was shocked
seeing my presence in his house, he walked up to me.
“Nugy, I didn't say I wanted to
here?” tanyakanya.
“I just want to see your papa,”
I answered trying to avoid my disappointment in him.
He just looked at me flat, then I said goodbye to him and entered
my car then left him.
I decided to go home, I better be
it should be at home, there's no need to try to go see him to the extent
gotta come to his house.
Seems
it's true said Papa, if I've conquered the heart of his parents yet
of course I conquered his son's heart. Proof tonight she's going together
someone else, I was sure that his friend was a man.
When I got home, I decided to
just go to sleep, after waking up I think everything will be fine.
…
Already
I spent all day at home yesterday, but I was disappointed
nor did Zulfa ever disappear from my heart. Today I am back with
my routine, I have to work, and this morning I got to the office faster
than usual, because the Goddess from earlier was busy calling me to
reminding me, you Goddess, I am just like her subordinate. I didn't even get to
breakfast breakfast.
“Well dong,” he said
it's good to see me come early
I
did not answer, and went straight to my room followed by him from behind.
“Lu kesel ama gua?”
tanyakanya.
“From you many nanya,
mending lu pesenin breakfast for the cave, cepetan,” my orders are upset
“Sip Sir,” reply
smiling happily while putting the map on my desk.
He knows I'm very upset with him, he seems to understand,
instead of getting sprayed by my words, he better obey me. Early in the morning
here he's made me ride the apoplexy.
Him
he brought back savory rice with a glass of coffee and a pack of cigarettes,
he seems to know how to get rid of me if he's upset with her.
“Tumben lu bawain cave
this?” I was surprised to pick up a pack of cigarettes.
“Let's not bete’ again
aja,” reply with a smile.
“Apardon you this time,”
I said flat.
“Hahah it dong,”
reply lightly.
I also enjoyed my breakfast, because of the savory rice
in front of my office it's delicious, and I eat it often if I don't
breakfast before the office.
“Meeting hours
how many?” ask me while putting my spoon.
“Lu decreed the Cepet-cepet cave
come for what, if it turns out the meeting is at 10?” I said angry.
“It's 8 Nugy, in town
it's so jammed, and you have a bad habit with time, you love Nunda
the time. It's a big project so you have to be professional,” he said who was angry
to me.
I just fell silent to see him angry, I was used to procrastinating
time, but in my job I know what to do, and I don't
never forget what else delayed it. But I was just trying to get it, though,
maybe it's the Goddess's concern that I remain unconcerned.
“It's you who are angry,” I said
slow down.
“Cua knows you right
how, you are negligent, careless, and reckless. Cave doesn't want you so in the world of work,
enough when students. Right now all the elite are
pay attention to you, because of the potential you have, and the cave does not want to see collapse
your career is only because of your childish behavior so,” reply
counselled me.
The words of Dewi are true, since this company stood me
being one that is taken into account by Elite-elite residents of the Wilderness
this, my work has always been praised and without any failures at all so far, of course
only without my father's interference, but from the potential of myself and the team
which I have.
“Why silence, sober up
you now?” Ask her firmly
“Iya already, whichever cave wants
see the document,” reply me while asking for the documents I have to sign.
After I signed her, Dewi also told Maman (office
boy) to tidy up my food marks, then he went with the Goddess who
left me alone. And I sit down and smoke a cigarette while
lamenting the life I am living, I feel grateful for what I am
I have a Mom who loves me, and friends who love me
never turned away from me. But there is one thing I don't have
the woman I love and love, but I'm sure it's all just
the matter of time that will bring me to meet with what I do not yet have
these.
I also prepared for the meeting room because of the hit
already showed me at 10:00, they must have been waiting for me. After me
entering the room I shook hands with a business associate of my new project.
Then I started a very boring meeting for me but I had to. Well, for me
meetings are formalities, because what determines is how they are proven
fielded.
After the meeting was over, I walked into my room
followed by the Goddess from behind me.
“Lu no lunch?”
tannya
“First time,” reply
“Oke.”
He left me alone in my room, and then he didn't
how long gone he goes in again with a beautiful woman who
it's holding me in a feeling I can't understand. I can't believe Zulfa
present at my office this afternoon.
“Looks like you should
lunch deh,” said Dewi teasing me while leaving me both
with Zulfa.
“Hey” said while
smile awkwardly.
“Sit down,” me
let him sit in the guest seat in my room.
“This is your office?” tanyakanya.
“Yes, what's the matter you came?”
tanyaku relax.
“I want to apologize
to you,” he said slowly.
“Emang what is it?” Ask me
confusedly.
“You came to my house
utnuk invites me to walk, but I'm not at home.”
“Who said?” my many.
“Mama has said
everyone, and Papa scolded me over it.”
“Not need Repot
come, if you're only here because your father scolded you for not feeling good
good with me,” I replied.
“Not gi—”
“Udah lupain. Sorry
I have to go,” I said standing up.
He stood up and left me with
the sadness I saw from his face, was I wrong? I'm just saying
the truth is, I really don't like it when it comes to being pitied by anyone. As such
all he did, he came to apologize just because his Papa scolded him
because it's not good for me to be disappointed because there's no daughter when I
came to see him.
When I want to get out of the room, I'm on the side with
The goddess who came towards me then pulled me into my room and straight away
sprayed me with his words.
“Lu another child
person?” tanyanya angry.
I
silence did not answer, because I knew if I answered the Goddess would be more
scolding me, I can only wrinkle my forehead.
“Udah cave says prestige
you had to be you ilangin Nugy, you said love is the same girl but why
even you pretentious-sook an act cold with him.”
“Lu why the hell?”
“Lu why, he
come here to apologize samu lu.”
“He apologized only
for fear that his bokap is angry with him, you think the cave will let someone
make pity equal cave.”
“He was scolded no
because of you, but because he came home too late, having gone from day to day with
unknown people with Bokapnya,” he said softly.
I fell silent, I was mistaken for Zulfa, for sure
he is very sad right now because of my cold attitude towards him.
“Where is he now?”
“He cave tell wait in
down, don't know if he's per—”
I left immediately after knowing where he was, I didn't
patiently waiting for the elevator to open, while hoping he has not
go awayl. When I got downstairs I looked for him and I was grateful for him
still there quietly waiting, according to the orders of the Goddess.
“You've eaten?”
tanyaku.
Him
just shake his head without answering.
“You eat with me?”
“Not you want to go?”
tanyanya polo
“Iya I want to go eat
afternoon with you, you go straight away,” I replied casually.
“Really?”
I
just nodding while staring at his innocence.
We also left in my car. This afternoon
Jakarta is very jammed, fortunately I have no business that makes me have to
stay at the office this afternoon, but I don't know about Zulfa.
“It's so jammed, are you
have business?” my many.
“I'm relaxed, um
we want to eat where.”
“You will see later.”
“Ingin playing secrets
with?”
I just smiled while still looking forward to
focus on driving my car, but I know he's looking at me.
“Why?” my many.
“I Really want to
apologise to you,” he said begging.
“I'll forgive you
after lunch, I'm hungry now, so right now
no sense of love.”
“You have the heart, basic
strange,” ketusnya then pout and increasingly make it look adorable.
“Hahahaha,” I laughed to see
that expression
After that we just kept quiet, until we got to the cafe
our place is usually. Zulfa doesn't know that this cafe is mine yet, but it looks like
I don't need to tell him either. Let time make him know
about that little thing.
“Yuk down,” take me.
He got out of the car, and we walked in
cafe, then choose the seat that we had sat at that time. I look
there's Rojali, and I'm coding it by raising my hand, even if it's real
this cafe has a lot of servants working but still I want Rojali
who should serve me.
“Order what?”
“The usual cave, you
want what?” ask me to zulfa.
“Samain aja,” answers
plain.
Sure
this made me and Rojali look at each other, and laugh a little
“Ah correct?” rojali
ensure.
“You have brought it,” I replied,
smiling at Zulfa
Then Rojali left us both.
“You always take me
here,” said.
“You mind?” my many.
“No, you will definitely
drive me straight home after this,” he replied innocently.
I
just smiling
“What was that
your skertaris?” continued.
I just nodded, of course I know that
it means Goddess.
“She's beautiful, and understanding, I think you
lucky to have him,” he said.
I just remembered that I had never introduced the Goddess
with him, so for now I know exactly what he means, I don't
want him to misunderstand me with my best friend Goddess.
“Name as Goddess, she
my best friend from college, for us that friend is more important than us
should the Repots love each other, I appoint him as Secretary
me, because I know he won't make me fail at my job,”
proudly.
“Oh I thought to you
can wash your eyes, when you are devoted to your work,” reply.
“You're jealous?” my many.
“E-not, good only,”
reply Shamefully.
I
looking at his reddened face, and it seemed like he had gotten the wrong height when
knowing I was staring at him, I was strangely not feeling shy at all
again when he looked at her. When it was good to see her beautiful face, the Monkey instead
come bring our order.
“Ngegangu lu,” protest.
“The fire is you, my man
take your order anyway,” reply annoyed with a smile towards Zulfa.
“Please enjoy,” connect.
I saw Zulfa who was only speechless in shock after
looking at the order provided, I had already guessed that he would be shocked after seeing this, though,
two double cups of expresso and two somai plates are my habit if
thither.
“Malah bengong, ayuk eat,”
take me.
“He's starting to know the habits
bad you,” Rojali told me.
“You only ate this?” ask
Zulfa.
“Yes, I rarely eat
rice if here,” I answer.
“I don't like coffee,”
his protest.
“You ordered it, already,
spend,” I say firmly.
“I want that message
just another,” the door to Rojali.
“Continue menu already
out, so you're lucky to get that,” Rojali replies to him
I
just smiling looking at Zulfa with her innocent face.
“HAH!! For what sake, cafe
this big?”
Rojali nodded while laughing.
“Yang stoic yes,” says Rojali
then leave us.
“Your habits are very
bad,” upset.
“Eat it, it's delicious kok,”
my reply.
Him
also tried to eat his soma with annoyance, but it was exhausted
“Turn,” godaku.
“I often eat somai,
but not at all for coffee.”
“This coffee is delicious, you
just try a little, can not mubazir.”
Him
trying it a little and swallowing it, I laughed at her expression
the funny thing is that it withholds the bitter taste of the coffee, how not, he doesn't like the coffee, he doesn't,
but immediately drink the expresso for the first time, of course it feels bitter
once.
“Pahit once,” is upset
to me.
“With this I have
forgive you,” I said with a big smile.
“Basic,” gets upset while
smacked my hand.
I drank my coffee and took out a stick
my cigarette and then I sucked. It is very good to drink coffee with a cigarette
and accompanied by my bidadar.
Perfect, I said in
hearts.
Then we told a lot today, and there was a sense
I was curious about someone who went with Zulfa that night.who was he?
whether a girl, or a guy, but I prestige asking so I paused
my intention is to ask.
Unknowingly, it was already very late afternoon, I
not even going into my office anymore, but it looks like the Goddess understood that,
we also decided to go home.
I drove my car to drive Zulfa home
his house.
“You have forgiven me
right?” tanyakanya.
“Iya, udah” replied me.
“I'm gone from noon,
and stupidly my phone was left at home, so I didn't know you were calling
ku Many times” details.
“Where are you really going?
Many reflexes.
“I went with my friend,
and I forgot the time, which is why Papa scolded me.”
“Cowok?” ask again.
“Iya guy,” answers
doubtful, he seems to know the meaning of my question.
I just kept quiet, there was a strange feeling in my heart after
knowing that she's gone with another man, even if it's just a friend, but
surely the guy is more able to make it comfortable to leave until he forgets time
like those. I'm so jealous!!
Subsequent to
the conversation I was silent and he was, until we arrived
his home.
“You didn't stop by?”
“I just go home, please,
greetings to your papa and mama,” I replied.
He nodded and went down, and I left immediately
with a feeling of great disappointment in my heart, I thought that destiny was always
wanting to play with my heart, when I feel good about being with her always
along with feeling disappointed in him. Just like that continues, though,
until I die.
I parked my car in my house, I was so
tired today through the days of fun but in the end I
I went home disappointed in my heart. I entered my house walking towards the room,
I lay down for a while before taking a shower.
Tettt tettt tett,
my phone's ringing
“Dad,” my word says
by myself, after seeing who called me is Dad, what's up? Unusually
she contacted.
“Assalamualaikum,”
greeting My Father.
“Dad wants to meet
with you tomorrow.”
“What's up?” askau flat
“Dad wait for you on the spot
usual.” said then turned off the phone
I'm wondering if Dad suddenly called me to
ask me to meet, what will he tell me tomorrow, is there a problem?
Or there was something else very important for him to tell me. I
I can't wait for tomorrow to know the truth.
I also stood up to leave
cleaning my body, and then after that I decided to go to sleep, I didn't want to
adding to my headache over the sudden things that confused me.
