Wilds
SECONDS
Today I decided
for home alone, I have also contacted Dewi not to be able to enter the day
this, because my body feels very sick, my head also still feels dizzy, too,
as a result of last night. Even in my bed I didn't realize between fainting or
sleeps.
I walked to the dinner table, I was so hungry because of the clock
it's been shown at 11:00, and this morning I didn't eat breakfast because it was so
lazy to rise.
“Yeah, why can
bonyok like this,” squealed the Mbok panicked when he saw me.
“It's okay Mbok, I
just fall” reply.
“Yaudah here Mbok download.”
“Let's go mbok, I
want to eat first.”
“Have let us get ready
used to be Den.”
I just nodded and sat at the dining table
waiting for the Mbok put all the food he had cooked.
After he had prepared everything, I ate right away
voraciously, maybe because I didn't eat from last night, because after the shower
I went straight to my Bidadar's house and didn't have time to eat.
Ah very good, I said
in heart.
After I finished my meal, I decided to
sitting on my couch watching my home TV, with a cup of coffee already made
by the Mbok, even though it was cold but I still drank it. I'm taking out
a cigarette and then I sucked.
I took my phone and opened the camera to look
the current state of my face, the bruise is not as much as it was when I
they're being yanked by them at my Bidadiku's boutique.
I remember what happened last night, where I vaped
all my emotions and destroying the man with his entourage, desire
my fight already feels so loose over last night's events.
“What are the circumstances of lu” said Dewi
which suddenly came.
I saw him behind me, and he sat down
beside me.
“Udah Enjoying,”
my reply.
He took a breath looking at me and shook his head.
“Lu equals who?” my many.
“Self, discharged from
the cave office is here,” he replied.
I nodded in understanding.
“Gua knows the story,”
said me.
“Good, so gau ga
need to bother again.”
“Yee elu mah,” ketus
while pinching my arm.
“Hahaha, both of you why
can come semalem?” my many.
“Gua was in the cafe earlier
the same night as the Monkey, we keep seeing you ride a motorcycle very fast. Yes
we both immediately follow you, even though it was a trace but we
managed to meet you,” he replied.
I also nodded in understanding.
“Why don't you tell me about us
Gy?” tanyanya slow.
“Gpp, cave think ga
need to engage both of you,” I replied casually.
“Lu don't trust us?”
“Cave believes it, but
gua ngerasa has no time to explain everything ama you both,”
He just kept quiet and didn't answer. I feel bad
because he felt I didn't trust them both.
“Sorry cave yes,”
slow down.
“Yes gpp Gy, which is important
in the future you can not hide again from us.”
“OK, until the affair of dispose
hajat cave, also will cave tau amau you both.”
“Yee fight lu.”
“Hahahaha.”
The goddess got up from her seat and walked
kitcheniness. I sat on the sofa in front of the TV. He returned with
bring warm water and cloth to compress the bruise on my face.
“This let the cave compress.”
I just nodded too.
He slowly compressed my wound, and I
staring at himself. I'm very lucky to have a goddess as my best friend. Him
very sincere to watch me. I smiled at him, and he realized
that's.
“Appaan lu smile-smile,”
resounding.
“Yee aja.”
He took out a painkiller ointment from
her bag, and then she smeared it on my face, and in the moment
he smeared my wounds with pain-relieving cream, Suddenly Rojali came
with Zulfa my bidadar.
“Woi!!, even friendly
anyway you guys,” pekik Rojali.
Contact me and the Goddess were shocked, and moved away from each other
from our seats. I saw my bidadar staring at the two of us
a look I can't explain.
“Asaan si lu, ngolesin cave
this too,” reply Dewi annoyed to Rojali.
I was still staring at my bidadar who was standing stiff.
“Zulfa, here sit,” says
The goddess told him to sit next to me.
I just shut up and saw him who was obedient to sit down
beside me. And he looked at me embarrassed.
“How can you
come here?” ask him.
He did not answer, it seemed like he was being awkward and
embarrassed. Rojali was aware of that.
“He came to the cafe
nanyain you, yes I told you to stay home again rest, so he invited me to come
go to your house,” Rojali replied.
I stared at my bidadar, I was flattered by
he was looking for me, until he came to the cafe again.
“How are you hurt?” ask
zulfa.
“I'm good, Dewi's already
treating it..”<TAG1>.
“You don't have to come
meet me fa, and you don't have to feel sorry for me,”.
He just kept quiet hearing my words. I do feel
his presence came just to see my condition that was injured by the incident
last night, and I didn't like him coming just for that.
“Oh yasudah, I'm home
just,” he said in a disappointed tone.
He got up from his seat and left
us three. Dewi and Rojali looked at me annoyed.
“Stupid time you did,”
ketus Rojali to me.
I just kept quiet not responding to it. The goddess rose and
go after Zulfa who left first.
“I just don't like him
coming here just to feel sorry for me.”
“He's your girl
get to the cafe. And no intention of pitying you, he's just worried the same
you.”
“It's the same.”
“This prestige you made
I don't think of you.”
I just kept quiet and didn't answer.
“Salah did he come
make your look?” askinya.
I was silent not answering.
“Woi you answer me,”
I still did not answer and looked at him sharply.
“What? Will you hit me?”
tanyakanya.
“Be quiet,” answered me
getting upset.
“Who are you asking
shut up,” said a woman who suddenly came closer to us.
She embraces Zulfa with him and is followed by the Goddess who
walk after them from behind. She was the Mom Suddenly
coming to my house. With my condition now that is full of bruises and already
making Zulfa disappointed at my attitude, I will definitely be scolded by Mother.
“Your head is this
never lost.”
I just looked down not daring to look at the middle Mother
ready to scold me again this time, he sat beside me and Zulfa beside him.
“You till when you
so?” ask ibuk.
“I just don't like him
pity me.”
“He's just worried
to you, anyways with your condition like this you deserve to be pitied,”
say Mother.
I just fell silent.
“Look at you, this,
like a loser,”.
“Quite buk,” says Zulfa mengegahi
Mother.
I just saw him holding my mother's hand like
don't want to see me getting scolded for more than this.
“You see him?” ask Mother.
“Even after what
you did he still defended you”.
“Iya, forgive me,”
my spoken.
I do feel guilty for my attitude towards my Bidadar, though,
and the people around me have nothing to justify my attitude, so I have to
admitting mistakes.
“Yes already, take a shower, I
want to take the two of you away,” said Mother said me and Zulfa.
“Where are you buk?”
my many.
“Mandi only” replied ibuk.
I took a deep breath and I exhaled, then I
get up and go to my room to take a shower and get ready to leave
with them both, where I don't know.
When I finished I went down to meet
they, I saw the Goddess and Rojali no longer exist. They must have come back
to work again.
“I'm ready,” I said.
“Already, let's go,”
reply mother.
The three of us went in my car, I sat down
beside Sam, Mother and Zulfa were in the back sitting side by side.
On the street, Mom and Zulfa are cool in telling both stories, while
I just kept quiet without making a sound. Then I turned on the car audio and grew up
the volume.
“Switch nak,” says Mom.
“I haven't been a long time
listen to music Mom,” reply me.
“Ya tapikan Ibuk
talk.”
“We want to
where?” my many.
“I want to invite
you guys have lunch,” replied Mother.
“Jeez, I've eaten a Buk
and still very full.”
“Ya I didn't tell you
eat, I just invite you to come.”
“For what I should come.”
“Yes you think who
will pay for our lunch later.”
I stared at Kseal's mother, in my fisky condition
like this, I was only invited to pay for their lunch, Mother indeed
just-there's.
“You mind?”
tanyakanya.
“I don't mind buk, though,
I can just give you the money, and there's no need to come.”
“Already, you have already
follow now.”
I just kept quiet and didn't talk anymore.
I turned down the volume of the music, and let them
both speak fully. Sometimes I find my naked eyes
with me when I saw it from the windshield.
You are so beautiful
my bidadar, I said in my heart.
After a long journey, we finally arrived
the restaurant we stopped at the first time when I was with Ibuk
stop by Zulfa's boutique.
I will definitely meet
with that Romi again, I said in my heart.
We went inside, and as I expected, Romi
came to us, but I didn't care about it and went straight
we walked to our dining place at that time. Mom and Zulfa followed me. And
the Romi shucks are also coming back.
“Lu why the hell ngikutin
keep going,” I said annoyed him.
“Lah lu why sensian
mulu ama cave?” tanyakanya.
“Cause here to eat,
don't want to talk to you,” I replied.
“Trial menu yesterday
aja Rom, for two people yes,” Zulfa said to him as if understanding my frustration.
“Oh okay,” reply romi and
go straight away to leave us.
I just looked at Mother who was shaking her head
seeing my attitude.
“Can't you get along
with?” ask Mother.
“I don't like getting along with
“That's been a long time nak.”
“Although, I guess it is
already ingrained in him.”
Mom was just quietly trying to understand me.
Because it was my mother who taught me not to
it's easy to trust someone who has even lied to me. So then
of course I did that to Romi.
“So how to respond
your family for what you did last night?” ask Zulfa.
“They were disappointed in me
because I kept it to myself all this time, but they didn't scold me,” she replied.
“You are indeed that girl
strong,” said Mother while stroking my bidadar hair.
“Not buk, I'm girl
only saved by your son,” reply Zulfa told me.
I just looked at the two of them who were watching
my direction.
“Why?” askaku to
them both.
“Basic stiff man,” reply
Zulfa.
“Not you,” reply me
to him.
“Hahahaha Already,
even fight,” said Mother mediates us.
The waiter came to deliver our order, Mother and Zulfa
I just saw them both eating, we didn't
talking at all. Even in this place can not smoke anymore.
Sometimes I see my bidadar who is cool with
the food, and he saw me too, and then I smiled mischievously at him. That thing
it made him look wrong.
“Stop that look of yours,”
said me.
I laughed when I heard it, and Mom was surprised
seeing both of us.
“Do not disturb him nugy,
she's eating again,” Mother reminds me.
“Hahahaha, I just
wonder why by eating that much he still does not grow big,”
reply meltedeknya.
“My subject, from the
you're old still bothering girls much younger than you,
aren't you ashamed?” reply meledekku.
I kept quiet and looked at him annoyed. Dare to
he mocked me in that way.
“Hahaha you're speechless Nugy,”
ledek Mother to me.
“Just finish your food
son, don't mind this old man,” Mother told Zulfa.
I was also upset to see my mother.
We were silent, and I did not disturb my bidadar
again, than I would be ashamed of myself, it seems that his nature is not like
at that age, he could always do anything that would make me die
fleas.
After they both finished their meal, we
back to talking, I just heard the two of them. Until there is
something they talked that caught my attention.
“I want to inquire
something to you,” said Mother seriously.
Zulfa just silently looked at my mother seriously.
“What you already have
couple?” Ask Mom.
Zulfa fell silent while looking at Ibuk and me. I'm so
I felt bad for him, so I tried to help him.
“Bu, that's her prep, ga
need to be asked,” I replied to Mom.
“I just asked, though,
sorry if it makes you uncomfortable,” Ibuk told Zulfa.
“It's OK Mom, I
no objection,” reply.
Mom just kept quiet and smiled.
“I don't have
couple,” continued.
The one who knew the answer before was silent
without reacting.
“Really? Pretty girl
and as tough as you don't have a partner?” ask Mom to make sure.
He just nodded.
“No man tries
getting you?” ask Mom again.
He was silent and saw me softly.
“There is a Mom, but no
something interests me,” he replied casually.
“Then how about
my kid? Are you interested in him?” ask Mom again.
It made me who had been silent earlier
reacting in shock, so did Zulfa. My mother always talked, as she wanted,
never cared about the people around him.
“Hahaha, you guys are compact
once, no need to be surprised Mom is just kidding,” continued Mom.
“You know nak?” ask Mom
to Zulfa.
He just looked as if he was ready to listen to my mother
resuming talks.
“I'd really like to see
my son has come to bring his wife to me, but he has not come until now,
I'm so worried he's big without the affection of a woman other than me,”
connect Mother gently.
“I just haven't
finding Mom, we don't have to talk about women,” I reply annoyed
“You know Zulfa, he doesn't
ever known love a long time ago, can you teach her? Mom look at you
suitable to be his teacher” he told zulfa.
Him
just speechless loud to my mother's words, I understand the meaning of
mother said, but I don't like the way Mom looks
begging her to be my lover.
“Mother can't do that, though,
I've grown up, I don't want to take care of my love affairs,” my reply began
annoyed.
“Quiet son, it's just
my only hope, the rest is up to you. I just don't want to look
my son was hurt by a woman, and I saw you were a woman who didn't
able to hurt anyone. Even old women like me.” Say to Zulfa
Moms
saying it with all the feelings flowing in her, I
I felt a sadness I did not know about him. Mom made me
silent and lost in his words.
I
knowing that he was holding pain in his heart. I don't know
what it is, for sure I must immediately know what is behind it all
the sadness my mother has been harboring all this time.
My midwife
still speechless, he must have felt the same way as me. And I'm sure he is
feeling confused because of what Mom said just now. I didn't know I had to respond
likewhat.
“I'll be ready to buk
if Nugy tells me” he told ibuk.
Matters
it shocked me for a moment, I never thought, he's really crazy
until then he appreciated my mother's feelings to be willing to encourage
himself for me to have.
Within
one side I like to hear the answer, but on the other side I feel embarrassed
because as a man I would not accept him if he accepted me
just out of sympathy for my mother, I became angry yet
I can't stand it if it's in front of Mom. I looked at him sharply. And
he also did not turn away from my gaze, he just looked at me casually.
Suddenly
ibuk's phone rang and he went out for a second to call, and I think this
my chance to blow it all out.
“What are you doing
think about it,” I said angry at him.
“You're angry Nugy?
With me, or is it your mother?” reply challenged me.
“I won't
let that happen just because you empathize with my mom.”
“Then, are you able to answer your mother's words?
why are you just silent? As the proud son of him you yourself are not
understand how your mother feels. I'm pretty sure your mom
keeping something secret that you don't want to know, you're very busy with
your business Nugy, without you realizing that you actually belong to your mother,” replied
firmly to me.
Again, I was silent and did not listen to his words. Yang
he says it's true, if only I wasn't busy with my work, and if
I'm not busy with my ambitions, and if only I hadn't left
my house, I must know all the problems that are going on, and this condition
it's definitely not going to happen.
“Although I don't
I love that you do it on that basis. My mother was a strong woman who didn't deserve it
empathy from you.”
“I know your mother very
strong, even met him a few times I have greatly admired your mother,
and I don't feel sorry for him at all. He hoped
a lot of you, and for that whether you can't afford all
aska? or is your pride more important than your mother's feelings?”
calm answer.
“You don't need to
fomenting yourself,” reply me softly.
“Nothing I
sacrifice in me, I just need to stand by your mother, if you
indeed object to me, I will promise not to love you,” he said
emphatically.
Him
it's easy to say whatever you want, this girl has no respect at all
me, and my feelings for him. Where could I want to be with him without getting
love from him. I don't like relationships like that, I don't think I do
I have other ways than to tell her my true feelings.
I decided to tell you how I feel now.
I
he looked at me seriously, and he was waiting for me to say something,
I'm emboldening myself.
“Zulfa actually ak—”
“Nugy we have to go home,
Mom is waiting for by a friend at home,” cut Mom in a panic.
I panicked to see my mother suddenly
panic, but there was a feeling in my heart for not being
say it to my bidadar. But yes, my mother is more important
now it's.
“Good Ma'am,” reply me and direct
go pay the cashier.
After that I immediately caught up with those who had already
walk first in the car. On our way there was silence, my mother was seen
very panicked and rushed, I became worried, but it was useless if I
I asked him, so I kept quiet.
We first decided to deliver Zulfa
first his ketoko, because he said he wanted to get off at his store
just. After we got to the location, she also touched Mom's hand as usual.
“Sorry yes son, I made
the atmosphere is so bad, I promise next time we will connect,” said Mother felt
guilty of Zulfa.
“It's OK Mom, I
understood,” replied
Then
he got out of the car, I saw him from the windshield, and he
looking at me meaningfully, as if to remind you of something. Then he went in
into shop.
We also went straight away. The look in his eyes made me
understand the situation, it's time I move to find out the problem
hidden from me by my mother. So I decided to go down at the cafe.
“Antar me to the cafe yuj”
to Sam.
Sam also nodded.
“You don't rest?” ask
ibus
“Not buk, I'm very
bored if you have to be home,” I replied.
She smiled at me as if she understood.
I had to hurry to meet Rojali, so that she
you can tell your members to follow where you're going. I
a little uneasy from being so curious about all this, I felt that
the truth is getting closer to me knowing.
Our
even at the cafe, I got out of the car and did not forget to touch Mom's hand.
They immediately left me. And I walked right in
into the cafe and immediately sat down, Rojali saw me and came straight to me.
“You why? Rich
that panic?” tanyakanya.
“Now you tell
your members come home to monitor ibuk” I replied.
“What's up?” ask again.
“Udah just follow, Mother
it went very hastily in the middle of the conversation the three of us, I think we
will know if your people can successfully follow Mom,” I replied.
He nodded and immediately took his phone
then call his members. He gave me a warning and then turned off his phone. I
don't know how he could stalk my mother, which is important I have to
get information from him.
“You've calmed down, please,
it's better that you go home to rest, so that tomorrow you can work,” he said
calmed me.
I just kept quiet and didn't answer, I was so nervous.
“What I need to anatr you
home?” tanyakanya.
I also nodded.
He stood up to get his car keys to leave
take me home.
On the way I was silent with my heart and
my mind is very restless. I just pray in my heart.
Help me god, help me to know all this.
I hope God really listens to me.
