This Is Not What I Want

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"What are you thinking Ri?You don't think no, do you?" his tanyanya disperse my daydream. "I'm taking you home together, but we're more silent than we're talking" he said. "Sorry Dian, this is too soon for me. And can we just be friends." I wish something like this didn't happen again. I'm single, but I'm happy.

Unknowingly the two of us had walked down Sarbini street, a mosque with a green dome, there is a small alley across from it. That's the way to my house.

"Erdian, sorry to be here. My house is close."

"Oh yeah? Which one's your house?" he looked to the right and to the left. I smiled, it's not time I brought a boy friend home. Mama could faint later, I thought.

We both stopped, and "My house was in that alley, a house with a small fish pond in front of it. But Erdian I'm sorry you had better accompany me here. Sorry yes." Hope you didn't force Erdian.

"Okay, thanks for coming home together. I'll see you tomorrow!" Erdian as if he understood. He wasn't waiting for me to get into the alley. And then ride his bike.

Finally relieved too....

It's strange today that I'm so happy to see my house in front of my eyes. Quickly I "Assalamualaikum Mah," without waiting for an answer, enter the house, wash my feet, wash my hands, wash my face and change clothes and then fall. Delights.....

"Waalaikumsalam loh where's the guy?" my mother was still staring at the open door. "Riri yes, the habit, if you go home from school, just go in just don't wait for mama to open the door, tomorrow don't be so again, if you've entered the door don't leave it open, suddenly someone comes in." Mama nodded while closing the door.

"Dhaup!" myrag. "O Allah Riri!" my mom was surprised. 🤭 "Sorry Mah, besides mama why the hell nagging, Riri laper mah." With a clear face I seduce mama not to sulk again. Usually works. "Yes, let's have lunch first. Mama also laper waiting for you to have a friend to eat." 😄 Successfully right, Mama does not sulk anymore. Mumpung 2 more leaks napping all.

Actually at home, there's still my younger brother, and one nephew, his mother who's automatically my older sister, works in City A. She decides to separate from her husband and work in the Capital in order to send Mama money for the living expenses of her 2-year-old son. Sometimes he came home suddenly, and left again immediately. I don't know, I never asked, it doesn't matter but it's none of my business, right, the household problem is still too heavy for a 2nd grade High School kid like me. So if with a problem, we should not be close, right?

Mama keep away from the book of poetry then 'Nah Ri, if the distance is so close to her writing" 😄 exclaimed Mama excited.

Ah Mama, your attitude can always calm me down. "Well, Riri is weird, don't you think?" Still while seriously reading, "The boy's own time is said to be strange Ri."

"Mama seriously, he said can confide, Riri strange yes until now do not have a boyfriend?" Finally Mama put down my poem book, and held my face with both hands, while smiling "Riri, dating or not that's your choice, Mama and Papa know Riri is already big, if Riri can be responsible, with all of Riri's duties, don't disappoint Mama Papa by deciding to Date, please. But if you haven't been able to choose which one is best for you, before falling in love with someone else, Riri is already in love yet with Riri himself?" Mama looked at me deeply but her gaze was full of coolness.

"Riri, actually comfortable as now Mah, can focus on school, and free to do anything, not tied to dating, not tied to, but also sometimes discouraged when girl friends say they want to be 17 years old and have never dated." I'm downcast shy, confused, will Mama understand how I feel 😔.

"Riri, have you heard everything will be beautiful in time?" I nodded "Trust Ri, no matter how we are, the soul mate has arranged, Mama is proud of Riri has been able to give Mama and Papa the best results, he said, if it's time Riri will definitely get the best." Mama kissed my forehead and left me alone who was still sitting in front of the house.

"Thank you Mah" ...

"I'm sorry, you're Riri, right?" suddenly someone was standing in front of me. Not to mention I answered, he asked again. "Well read what? Can I come see the book?" ask again. "But ....

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