This Is Not What I Want

Actually I want to....

"Kreeet" I open the back door, usually the brother if going home through the back door. Just nongol in front of the door. "Happy Birthday, this is Lo!" said my sister Tiwi, while giving me a gift of nightgown, funny, wrinkled model of my favorite. Never wrapped, use doang crackles. "Thank you, no less malem here? Kiki has gone to sleep, pity you know, she is also kangen right with her mother." grumbled me while making milk coffee for her. "Soalnya not buy souvenirs Ri, buy gifts for Lo doang, and yes-iya this time I nginep 3 malems at home." "What a fact, promise? Look Lo I don't admit to being a big brother anymore, if Lo lied just." I'll give her a cup of milk coffee. Continue tidying up all the mess, in my room and hiding 2 magic letters from 2 magical people also🤭.

"Ri, sleep ahead tv yuk, do not in the room dong, stay up late ya ma gw, kangen nih curhatan yuk" 😇🤗😊 "Hayuk deh." I brought my pillow roll, before long we both slept in the living room, just carpeted while watching TV.

"As long as I'm gone, what's Ri?" tanyanya while hugging the bolster.

"What's up, there's no ordinary" I replied.

"Seriously, when there's no new news? that-that's it... Nothing exciting, about Lo's life, or what?" kepo tanyanya.

"There was, in fact, just happened, in addition to the gift from friends Iw, never expected, never thought, there would be a surprise 2 letters."

"Gini day, a letter?"

"Whisper ah Lu. Iri said?.."

"Seriously, keep answering what? Which one did you accept?

"What is true is that love is only one, if the other one is just friend with me."

"Keep on..which one?"

"Now, you read the letter according to Lo, I accept what not?"

"Are you in love? Don't ask me."

"Gw likes it, but if love hasn't been.gw just really chat and meet him this fortnight, this is too soon you know. Is it Ok for you if he is older than you?"

"Riri Riri Lo just wanted to date, not want a wedding. Why are you afraid of the same older, if he loves Lo, you already accept it, Lo is also single right?"

"Hmmm, I thought about it while sleeping. "

"If it's a smart person, then sleep thinking? Sleeping while dreaming Ri. Yes yes I will not maksa Lo, continue to matter what majors?"

"If I choose IPS what do you think?"

"It's okay, who wants to go Lo, not papa mama. Nerusin gw dong trail. Kirain wants to study language."

"But papa's mom is an IPA child, why we both go to IPS, are they not disappointed later."

"Why not the language?"

"Gak ah, ntar met another foreign language beraaat."

"Well, foreign languages are not many, you just love English?"

"Yes, that's just one focus."

"If Lo entered IPS keep Lo want to work what?"

"So English teacher, 😇"

"Yes the job of being an English teacher, while selling online or trading it is the same passion gw."

"If that's what you want to support. Including the matter that was just now.receive dong. I will have a sister-in-law candidate, Gw can also get a transaction, uh mantep nih birthday gift directly from yayang beib nih, cie cie cie🤭🤣"

Brother just keeps teasing me, but I don't know, honestly I actually kinda like it when he comes even just to smile, and tease me keep going, ah Arman...

Without feeling I was asleep, and time passed. The wall clock shows at 04:15 a.m.

Hmmm the sound of the morning prayer sounding, waking me up. It still feels lazy, but it seems to know this voice, ' ''This is the voice of Arman yes, my inner self. "All right let's pray."

That morning, why get excited.

After preparing everything, just prepare to go to school. If there is a Tiwi brother I do not need to cook much, later he will cook the others.

I can leave early this morning hopefully Arman isn't outside, hopefully he won't wait for me.

After the break, same mom. I closed the door on my own, because the others were still sleeping. Departing at this time is okay ya🤔 (my watch shows at 06:15), about at school there are already people what not?

Just walking up to the courtyard, suddenly my head hit something. "Ouch!"

"It hurts, yes" He rubbed my head. "That's why if that road doesn't keep going, it's bumping."

"Eh, it's okay, it doesn't hurt. Brother Arman, what's wrong?" How come he's here, you're so embarrassed.

"And I told you to take you to school" Arman brought his face to my face. Then whisper in my ear. "So where have you read my letter, then what is the reply?" I took a few steps back, I hope my cheeks are not red with embarrassment.

"Oh so, want the letter back."

"So my love is accepted?"

"So nganter no? If I don't go alone." I walked past Arman. How come this, "deg deg deg" what's this in my heart..

Arman walked up to me, and holding my hand, we walked up to his bike and I didn't turn him down to take me to school.

I hope no friends see me, wait, am I ashamed if any of my friends know? But Arman is not a shame, even he already has a decent job, he already has his own home. Why should I be ashamed to ride a motorcycle with him? Why am I comfortable with him...We're not so close yet, but why does he know so much about me.

So many questions in my heart. Ah Arman that you did to me...

Didn't feel like we were at school, still quiet. "Sister, just get here. Thank you very much"

Arman pulled my hand, and didn't let go of the handle. "I'll pick you up?" tanyakanya.

"Don't want to be picked up. Fear there is a group or sudden event, if you go home, let me go home alone yes, at least brother Arya who anter if fit together. If by 2 I'm not home yet, Brother Arman can pick me up."

"Seriously this is Ri" I nodded. "But I'm sorry, I haven't been able to accept your love, but I don't want to return your letter either. It's still too soon for me. After 3 days, I'll give you an answer?"

Arman looked at me, kissed my forehead without permission, and said "Alright, I've been waiting for you all this time, add 3 days yes, ..I'll wait for Ri, good study, heart yes."

"you must be careful." after tasting the back of his right hand, I hurriedly walked away from him. Accuse me of embarrassment..,