This Is Not What I Want
how short is that sad and happy distance
Ever since Arman's presence in my life, I've been happier, able to smile and face things more calmly.
But for some of my friends and even my best friend, they say I'm like two different people, because I can't just tell you that I'm engaged to someone.
Not felt, it's the end of the semester in 2nd grade, my relationship with Arman is fine, Arya was still with Sasha. After I was with Arman, my relationship with Arya improved, Arya and I both realized our mistakes, and respected each other's relationship. But for the problem of school lessons still learning together, indeed the most fun, we also formed a study group, which even Sasha was involved in.
The relationship of Mama, me and the rest of my family is also normal, there is no commotion or significant problems. .
After visiting grandma with Arman, in our spare time. Grandma seemed happy, and was incessantly teasing me about Arman.
He also said, "The matter of your brother how it used to be, now or what will happen in the future, it is the choice of his own life Ri!"
"You already have Arman now, there's already a place to lean, don't disappoint Arman who has chosen you.
Do not be a person who loses because of wasting your school, not being an office person, no problem, the important thing is to be an educated person, your life may be better than those who are not knowledgeable. Be a person who benefits all in good and positive ways. Yea?" Grandma explained so at length.
Arman is getting better, and loving me in his way, he no longer touches me without permission. And he also asked his employees, to make me a Muslim school uniform, I'm veiled now. All the uniform materials that I couldn't afford, were bought by Arman himself. Even when choosing, Arman asked Mama to accompany him. After I left, I felt a lot of change in me. Now I value myself more, making me more positive about everything.
Today the announcement of the division of students for the 3rd grade, I hope, me and my best friend can be classmates again, but not 😅
Arya qualified at IPA 3, Sasha IPA 2, Rumi at IPS 2, Lina at IPS 5, Tina was the only one in language class, and I was alone in IPS 3.
My achievements were not too bad, both at school and at home, all went quite well, until.in the second semester of my third year at this High School.
Big brother Tiwi, suddenly came home. No longer working, everything started to turn awkward, for some reason. After knowing her past I was not angry either, had already accepted everything, only, what happened was very much different from what I expected, if brother returned home.
When I feel happy, in my last years in 3rd grade, soon, if indeed I have to get married first after graduating from High School, no matter, no, I can still go to college. But now, all the plans have changed completely, and Mama's attitude has changed. I realized, my sister does deserve more attention, she is facing a severe ordeal in her life, my mom is trying to find a job for her, her divorce is paying for everything she asks.
Arman picked me up that afternoon, this Sunday night he wanted to take me away, he said goodbye to his parents, my parents, even now the neighbors already know. My friends and friends already know about my relationship with him, I don't want to hide this happiness anymore, but I hope many people will pray for us.
"Where are we going?" I asked Arman after I finished saying goodbye to Mom. Arman did not answer immediately. Just pull my hand, and walk quickly towards her house. Yeah somehow, this time the bike was parked in front of his house.
My heart is pounding, what is this, but you keep smiling, Mom too.
"Riri, Mr. Mother, has agreed with Arman, Mr. Mother has also approved you, if you later want to marry religiously first also can, ..."
"Wait... Wait, Dad, what do you mean?"
"I mean Mr. Mother, if Riri doesn't mind, after graduation you can get married but haven't held a reception, because Arman still has two unmarried older brothers." The two of them looked at me in hopes of getting the answer they wanted, that's what I thought.
"Father, I thank you for believing in Riri, for agreeing and blessing our relationship, Father and Mother do not have to worry about us, and I will not ask Arman to step over her two brothers. We will wait for a good time for us" I replied, whether this is a good answer or not, I tried to answer their question, because I really did not know, what will happen to our relationship.
Mother suddenly approached, and put a ring on the ring finger of my right hand, "Riri, this is a gift from Mom and Dad that you are our son-in-law, and that you are our choice."
Arman came from inside the house, he immediately shook his head at me, as a code not to refuse his mother's gift.
I nodded and thanked both of Arman's parents. We said goodbye, I didn't realize Mom was in the house and came back to the front chasing me, "Riri, Arman wait, this is also used." Mom handed me a long cloth.
"Thank you Ma'am, Riri and Brother Arman say go first." I kissed them both hands, and got on the bike with Arman.
I didn't know where Arman would take me, until I crossed the city border. "Sister, where are we going? To grandma's house?" I'm so excited.
Arman focused on riding his bike, he just pulled my hand to hug him. "The right handle, on the motor there is no seat belt, if not the handle I go down on the road ya." Arman LEDek.
It feels impatient, want to get to grandma's house immediately, I am grateful in my heart, Arman must know what I feel, know that I am confused how to deal with everything. Amidst the happiness I felt from Arman and his family, I was afraid that the presence of big brother would all change. 😔😔😔
"Grandmother, please Riri....Riri should how's Grandma?" In my heart, may we arrive soon.
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