This Is Not What I Want

all this too soon because it's too convenient?

Wishing good is good, expecting good is not yours, it is not good.

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Thanks to the kindness of Arman's parents, I was able to follow his show without any worries. I was asked to help, just keep the buffet table. All his brothers can only chat with me, before the event is over, I have met Arman's parents and please resign. I can't lie, if in my mind, I just keep thinking about my mom.

"Mr, Mother, thank you for the invitation, sorry Riri couldn't help much. Since the core event is over, just stay friendly with the family, I want permission to say goodbye, Mama at home no one helps the problem." I asked permission to go home. "Mother who thanked Ri, sorry can not welcome Riri's arrival well, yes please if Riri wants to go home, wait for Arman who intervened?" His mother tried to arrest me. But I assured her, I was able to go home alone. I said goodbye to her parents, her brothers, and rushed home, at the door was a woman of my age. Only he seemed unhappy with my presence. He looks pretty close to the Arman brothers. Ah whatever, Arman didn't introduce her to me, I didn't try to find Arman. I went straight home.

Apparently, if you want to enter the magrib, the road is quiet as well, I speed up my steps towards the house. "Assalamualaikum Maaah," I hope mama soon open the door, scary also outside herself 😂. "Waalaikumsalam," came the voice of mama from inside, and "Ceklek" the door opened, mama looked left and right, I also looked left and right, "Who's looking mah?" my many. Not yet my mother replied, I have entered the house.

"Mommy's looking for Arman, huh?"

Mama nodded. "Yes, how did you go home alone? Where's arman?"

"Still busy mah, but Riri was not at home, cape also wanted to rest." I went and went to the bathroom, cleaned myself up. I really want a quick break.

"Ri, pray first, just rest," Mama reminded. I hurried to pray, to do the chores, and to the kitchen. Because I went to Arman's house, I couldn't help my mom. Yes, I cooked first. With the rest of my strength. "Aah" I stretched my hand up, like a warm-up, and my body ached.

Open the fridge and find something to cook. "Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh," a voice sounded on the front door. She came out of the room and into the sound source. "Waalaikumsalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, uh Arman, what's wrong?" Mama opened the door and invited Arman to come in and sit down.

"Arman is sorry Mom, I was busy, so not paying attention to Riri might have been cape. I didn't know Riri was going home alone. I'm sorry Mom. Pas wants to follow, already entered magrib. So only now can I come here, this is a little food from the thanksgiving event, Mom. Again, I'm sorry, ma'am." Arman looked really scared.

"Yes son Arman, thank God you have arrived home and survived, it's Riri again in the kitchen, would you like to meet? Oh yes call me mama. I know you can take care of Riri and take responsibility. But Riri, actually does not like the crowd. He doesn't like to attract attention." Mama explained at length. Receiving a box of heavy food, and a few packs of Snack. Then shut the door and take Arman to the kitchen.

Kiki and the son who had not been sleeping came into the kitchen as well, "You want this Brother," while pointing at the package of Snack that was brought by my mother. I took out two packs of Snacks, opened them and handed each one a pack for them.

"Ri, mama wants warm tea. Oh yeah on her tv dong for a second," pinta mama.

I turned on the tv, then went back to the kitchen. If there is food, it is not cooked. I put the vegetables back in the fridge. Arman just sat quietly in the chair, watching me without making a sound. I made tea, served one glass to her, and delivered one big glass to mama.

"Thank you for the food" I said, sitting in front of him.

"You're angry Ri?"

"No, no, no, no, no, I'm sorry, because of the exhaustion, I asked permission to go home without telling you, '" I explained.

"I'm sorry, because many of my brothers can't even find you, you even bother at the buffet table." Arman kept trying to apologize.

I dared to hold her hand, "There's a girl who seems to hate me. Did he ever like you?" I seriously asked Arman.

"I'm coming home, because I'm really tired, brother, not because of him either."

"Ri, you don't think we've just been a few days, but why is it so close for so long, and I'm actually comfortable with you. I don't want my parents to be Ri's wife" I covered her mouth with my index finger.

"I'm only 17, still a long time. My dream was to get married at 22."

"We're engaged if so? How's it?"

" Yes, but next year, if you're graduating from high school," I smiled to see him frown.

"Ri, are you ashamed to be my girlfriend, I am older than you by even ten years," Arman looked at me seriously.

"You look even younger than everyone else after you, brother, and I don't think about it, the important thing is that your heart is only for me, mine!"

"Really?" She smiled so sweetly.

"Will not go home? It's malem loh." I walked towards the window, and looked out. Suddenly Arman hugged me tightly, "Just a minute Ri, I really want to marry you soon. I don't want to go home. But it's true I have to wait for you to graduate. After graduating high school, are you going to Ri's college?" Arman started to let go of his embrace.

"Yes, I want to go to college, so I can get a better job than just a tutor, if I can have a better job, hopefully the salary earned later is also better."

"If I proposed to you after graduation, would you marry me first, just going to college?"

I'm silent, do you think all of these discussions aren't going too fast?

I held her cheeks with both hands. I don't know what prompted me to do that and my "muach" kissed her lips.

Arman, who was still dumb in front of me, was silent as stiff.

"Can for now, we just live as usual, only now that I have you, I am not alone facing all the difficulties in life, you will be my strength right, I'll try to fix myself up so that I'll be worthy of your wife." Arman now smiled happily.

Smack my forehead, "Alright, it's night, I go home first, take good care of yourself." She stroked my hair, and saying goodbye to my mother, I drove her forward, again she clasped my hand. "Not coming home? Want to go through?" Ledek...

"Mauuu can't love?" Now that Arman is hurting me, blushing my cheek.

"Here home, tomorrow morning pick him up don't be bad!" My atonement. Arman laughed, "Ready lady Arman! I'm going home!" Arman left my house. With him I can forget the problems that are in sight. Hmmm, now is the time to ask about Kak Tiwi to mama.