This Is Not What I Want

being honest is better

If anyone asks, then what about your personal relationship now? Then the answer flows like water, yes like that...

Arman and I are in a relationship, getting closer? If I tell you everything's not the same, then you're gonna give me some advice?...

I want to hope that whatever happens, Arman will still choose me. But...

The End of the semester also the National School Examination has been completed, during that time, Kak Tiwi remained at home helping run the business of Mama, and keeping Kiki, really become a Mother, really become a mother, and I am grateful, the Son is also good as always.

"Relie! Come here for a second!" Mr. Huda called me. Hmmm what is it?

I went up to him, "Yes, Father, call me?" I said after I got near him.

"How is the test, Riri can do it well, right? Ask Mr. Huda with still busy with his other work. He glanced at me, while finishing his conversation with the other student next to him, gave directions and the student left.

I remember once, the tumben I did not know who Mr. Huda was talking to before I came. In this 3rd grade I was already lazy to pay attention to my underclassmen, even Erdian, somehow he, I would rather sit in the library, spend time resting, studying and going home, he said, yes, such a routine.

Arya's sister? Hmmm he also knows where and is doing what.🤭

Living my life like this right now, in the last days of my High School was a pity. I should have gotten together with my friends and best friends, doing something I would remember later on. Malang is right my fate.

"Puk" Mr. Huda patted me on the shoulder.

"Ri, have you finished daydreaming?" He smiled and I smiled shyly, ah really embarrassed. 🤭

"Yuk We talk in the Father's room, the door is opened so that no one prejudices the strange." Take Mr. Huda, I nodded and followed him, I have absolutely no idea what we are going to talk about, but I would like to spill all my burdens if I could.

"Okay please Riri want to confide what now, you will listen?" Mr. Huda surprised me, I looked at him.

I hesitated but yes need, I need the advice of someone wise.

Before I told you, Mr. Huda showed me a piece of paper from Guru BP.

"This is a certificate from Guru BP Ri, who is watching you, and he asks you to communicate with you, because you wrote in the question column, so you can, who is the teacher you will talk to if there is a problem, well it turns out the name of the Father is written there. Strange enough, because most students will write the name of a female teacher, but never mind, I'm honored Riri believes the same Father, so Riri has a problem what? At school or at home, almost all teachers also say since you went up to 3rd grade something has changed, and you become more alone." Stop for a while, sip tea in his big glass, then continue the conversation.

"Let's just relax you asked the other Wakasek not to enter this room as long as Riri hasn't finished her counseling session, and that's also why the door was opened, so that Riri is also comfortable, okay?" Mr. Huda and the other teachers realized I was changing, but not with the house. Only Arman knows Grandma too, if I'm disappointed in my family.

"Father, really Riri did not expect, if Guru BP would really ask you for counseling sessions and I am happy at the same time apologizing Mr, I interrupted Mr. time, Father, and I didn't expect that the other teachers would feel the change in me."

Mr. Huda listened carefully, have you told me everything. I didn't expect that Mr. Huda would listen to all my stories and explanations. I'm so relieved now so relieved.

"Father has heard all of Riri's stories, including Riri's worries, now can Riri open her heart, to listen to the advice and advice of the Father, Riri said, don't interrupt what you're going to say listen to it until it's done, just give your opinion if you ask, can you?" I nodded and changed now I started listening to Mr. Huda.

"Riri, at your age now it's natural that Riri has a male friend, I'm grateful that Riri's male friend can also take care of and respect Riri by not doing things too far in the relationship. You are also proud that Riri can still maintain Riri's achievements. But if Riri thinks staying away from friends is the best choice, yes it is legitimate, but if you may suggest keep playing and having fun with your friends, you should, they also have a problem try you open your heart to them also Ri, maybe you will find something unexpected."

As I promised not to comment, I still listened carefully. And it's true that Mr. Huda is still continuing our counseling sessions.

"Well most important now, the family problem, Riri, the life and death soul mate of a person has been arranged by Allah SWT as the God we trust, good and bad of each person will determine, respectively, Riri couldn't blame and antagonize Riri's older brother and family, even if she had more options for sure she didn't want to be like that. Nor can we say that our parents are unjust, for the Most Just is only God, no human being can be just as fair, you can only try to provide it according to the needs of the person. So we must return it to ourselves first, do nothing envious but do not look to the beginning first. The cause of something happening must be there."

"When angry, disappointed and dissatisfied we often make mistakes both big and small. And unfortunately usually the mistake is not realized, the worst if the mistake ends up being a habit because it is left, the person who made the mistake is considered guilty and does not get the right attention, the impact could get worse Ri."

"Dee from that side, we as a family actually become more wrong, different if it is already a character that cannot be repaired at all, he said, even something like that should not give up. Riri must be grateful not to have to experience bad events in order to get life experience, all Riri has to do is take the wisdom of everything, whatever will happen in the future, whatever will happen later, all will certainly be faced with the clarity of the heart. Do not be angry because Riri was not necessarily that strong, and Kak Tiwi, also did not want to be like this, any family wants to be able to get along well and happy, enough, but this is life, he said, it all goes back to how you're grateful."

"So can you ask me to come back to be a cheerful Riri, enjoy everything Ri, hard to be happy, all is a journey of life, it does not always go as we want, it does not always go as we want, the important thing is to take care and love yourself first, if something bad happens beyond your expectations don't kill your good thoughts, God exists, you have to believe that." Mr. Huda wrote something on counseling paper, and handed it to me.

"Please leave this to BP room, give it to Pak Adi huh? You may read the contents, think of the advice of the Father yes, I believe Riri can." Mr. Huda escorted me out of the room, He immediately rushed away because he had to teach in class. I also rushed away, I read the contents of the counseling paper, and I did not realize my tears were dripping, "Siswi Riri is fine, the problem is resolved, God willing she will become more mature and wise, he said, no association is wrong, all is under control, the person in charge is marked Drs. Huda...."

Ah don't cry Ri, see others willing to bear your burden, I smile, hand over the counseling paper to Master BP, and go back to class. That day I smiled as if everything was back to normal.

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