The Smile of God for Marissa

I'm Sigit

Sisy was silent, she did not think that once again Rosa blamed her actions. He closed his eyes, regretting that he had been too careless to divulge all his secrets to his two best friends who had now begun to close his eyes.

“Do you guys sleep?’ sisy rocked Sulis and Rosa's body alternately. He failed to get his two friends to open their eyes. They are too tired to go through the day, follow the guidance of the thesis and help prepare for the wedding that will be carried out tomorrow.

“Ok alright then. I'll go to sleep too. My son was also exhausted from preparing for my own marriage without the help of his father.”

Sisy laid her tired body next to Sulis. Moments later, she wandered back to imagine how wrong she had done to Seno, her future husband.

“I'm sorry, Mas. I was too selfish. I won't blame you when you won't answer my message at all because I'm sure you must be very hurt this time.”

Sisy sighed. A drop of her tears escaped from her eye patch.

“How are you doing now? Why don't you care about me missing you all the time?”

“That's because she was really hit, Sisy. You never know what it's like to be Seno, do you? Just imagine it. You know, Sutrono loves you. When your heart doesn't accept Sutriono, then he comes with a drink, what do you do? Will you accept and drink it with

happy?”

Sisy shakes.

“Of course not. I will definitely go leave it and join whoever is around me.”

“Smart.“

“What do you mean, Ros?”

“You already know why Mas Seno ignored you even until now right? Your answer to the parable I gave you earlier is Seno's current position.he won't be able to take you for granted even though there is already a fetus in your womb.”

“No, Rosa. He is fully responsible.’

“Did he say like that?’

“Iya.”

“If I think it's not the real thing, Sy.”

“What?

“I'll ask you one more time.”

“Hem”

“When Sutrono loves you, you refuse right?”

“Iya.”

“Why?”

“Because I don't love him.he doesn't get into my criteria.”

“Only that?”

“Mmm, maybe because I already love other men, like Mas Seno.”

“If you haven't loved Mas Seno, are you sure you will accept Sutrono?” Sisy

looking at Rosa and then shaking.

“Maybe not, Ros. It's hard to force a feeling that doesn't like being liked in a short time is impossible, Rosa. Because the taste can not be forced to accept something that we do not like.”

“Good if you know.”

“But I still didn't get it when he knew there was a fetus in my womb, he ignored me, Ros. That's bad for Seno, right? Though pregnant people need support and affection.His child also needs education right, Rosa?”

“One more parable, Sisy. Sutrono. He knows you turned him down, then he took you for a walk, forced you to because you didn't have any friends back then. In the middle of the road, she ordered a drink, it turned out that she gave her stimulant, you drank and you had to serve her, one month later, you were declared pregnant. The question is how you feel when you know there is

the fetus in your womb? Do you sincerely accept?” Sisy shakes.

“Even I want to abort it as soon as possible.”

“I will take away my baby until he will no longer be able to look at us, even from a great distance.”

“Are you sure?”

“Iya.”

“But why are you still demanding that Mas Seno do something he doesn't like? Why do you still expect Mas Seno to come spoil you when you don't want to have a child from your relationship with Sutrono?”

“Rosa, this is a different problem. Please understand.”

“Where is it?”

“You and he are both victims, there is no way you guys will take a different path. You're keeping your son now because he's the aunt of the man you love. If this seedling in your womb is Sutrono's seed, will you also defend it with pleasure and expect Sutriono to come spoil you?

“No, Rosa, Hiks. No. gabe. I won't do it on Sutriono.”

“That feeling is what Mas Seno is now experiencing, Sisy. If she could abort your fetus, she would have done it or if she could have taken your baby away, she would have taken it without you. She won't involve you in parenting, won't share in babysitting with you. Please understand his condition. You can't demand too much for the sins you committed yourself.”

“Hiks, you evil Rosa. You're evil. All this time I misjudged you. I've always been proud of you because you were wise to address my arguments with Marissa, but as I know you're more selfish than Marissa. You evil’

“I'm sorry, because for whatever reason I can't accept what you've done and what you expected.” Rosa wakes up from her sleep, arranges her bag and steps out of Sisy's room, leaving Sisy still crying alone while Sulis is still asleep.

“Wah, Where is Miss Rosa going? It's late afternoon, Ma'am. We will eat together after this.” Meli said looking at Rosa who was carrying her bag.

“Sorry mom, I have to go home soon. Let Sulis accompany Sisy inside.”

“Go home? He said he'd stay the night. Later you in your own kos you know do you dare?”

“At kos there is a new child, Mom. This one week they rented a used room Sisy and Marissa.”

“O yes? Yes, already then. I can only hope you stay the night. If I can't stay, I won't stop you and tell you to. But do I not want to wait for a meal first?”

“Thank you, Mom. Assalamualaikum.”

“Waalaikum greetings.”

Rosa stepped out of Syaiful's official house, heading for the highway because she didn't take her motorcycle there. He quickly stepped up as the day grew darker. As he was walking, a motorcycle appeared behind him following in his footsteps.

“Is this Mbak Rosa?”

Rosa stopped her steps, then looked at the source of the sound. A smiling man looked at him.

“Who is it?”

“Sigit.”

which “Sigit is it? I don't think I know you.”

“We met in Kemanukan. You were in the soup kitchen with Marissa.”

“o yes, Sorry Mas, I don't remember having met there. Where is Sigit going?”

“Jlan-road. All daily needs are exhausted. I saw Sister Rosa come out of Captain Syaiful's house.”

“Iya. I just helped with my friend's wedding preparations, Sisy.”

“One cost with Mbak Sisy?”

Rosa nodded.

“Wah means tomorrow can meet at Ganesha.” building

“Hopefully so, Mas. O yes, please Mas first. I will stop by the Great Mosque for Magrib.” prayers

“I'll also be there first. How about we be together?”