The Smile of God for Marissa

Refugee Camp 4

When I saw Shamsa being rebuked, I actually wanted to persuade him not to be hurt by all of Qomar's actions. I know he's not seriously treating her rudely. All I know is that Qomar can be very gentle in the presence of Shamsa. But all I paled because Lina refused my wish.

“Do not interfere in the affairs of the hearts of others. Take care of your heart!” the door while pulling my hand. I followed Lina who kept taking me away from Syamsa. I didn't know where Lina was taking me. What I want to go to today is a health post to accompany Nina there. Not yet had my foot in the infirmary, I saw Firman standing under a large manga tree. He was looking at a man who was continuously punching his punch into the wall.

“What's up Brother?” my question as I approached the Word of my elevator brother on the sun campus.

“Qomar.” That's all he said. My eyes were still on the man who was cursing himself.

The Word brought me closer to Qomar, just to make the man not hurt himself.

“Kau is indeed really shameless, Risa. “

I was surprised to hear his words. I saw the Word looking at me. I just shrugged my shoulders, saying that I didn't understand all his behavior.

“ KAu doesn't even know how I feel when I see you joking with her? Hhhh, how stupid.” Once again Qomar punched the wall before him. The few people who passed before him only caught a glimpse, without daring to reprimand him. Me and the Word are still in place. We are also really incapable of doing anything. The focus of the conversation was on me and I wanted to hear all of his words so I could understand what I was supposed to do.

“You're either really stupid or you're pretending to be stupid. I loved you a long time ago and you don't want to know at all.”

Deg !

My heart seemed to be escaping from its place. There was happiness in my heart when I heard it but the little pinch in my heart still hurt a lot. How could she still be in love with me if she's always been making out with Syamsa?

“You don't even care about me. You don't want to know how my race is watching you be admired by those doctors. Haaaah, how bodied are you.” Once again Qomar's fist landed on the wall. There was a slight vibration every time Qomar landed a punch, yet I knew, the school shelter building was a very powerful building. It was impossible to collapse easily with just a punch from a burly hand of a human child.

“You better go, Ris. I'm afraid that if Qomar sees your presence, his anger is not added to even more burning” pinta Firman and immediately I say. I entrusted all Qomar affairs to Firman and immediately I sent a step towards the health post to meet Nina.

***

“You know sweet girl ? Ever since I saw your Ma'am, my heart told me that she should be mine.” Doctor Irawan said fiery. She is not only beautiful even very attractive.” Reciprocity.

“I . . Yes, Doctor.” That was all Nina could say. Her face was not as bright as when I entered this room recently. Before he saw me, I still had time to catch how cheerful he was, and fieryly said “ I will help you Doctor.”

“Ah Nina's. You're still too small for an offer of help dealing with my heart, my inner”.

“Remember yes, you promised to make me able to unite with Mbak Risa. Ok?” doctor Irawan was not aware of my presence. He continued to persuade Nina to remain on his side.

“ehem”

Doctor Wildan, who has been watching me since, mendehem. He might have wished his friend could have noticed my presence and stopped all of his speech, but he failed. Doctor Irawan continued to talk until Nina finally kicked her stomach.

“You . . You kicked my belly sweet boy ?” he said with his soft words.

“I . Yes, doctor sir, forgive Ni . . .na” said Nina stammered.

“Hey . . . You're fine right ?” he said while holding Nina's hand. Nina who was already scared of me immediately extended her hand.

“Mbak Risaaaa, forgive Nina!”

Doctor Irawan. He did not dwell in the slightest when he saw me sitting in the back seat.

“K . You've been there a long time?” tanyanya trembling.

I just nodded in agreement.

“Ma . .I'm sorry I didn't mean . . .”

“Nothing. “ sahutku sekhenya.

“Ja . . So you accepted me ?”

“ What ?”

I don't know what to say but that word

“Ah, no-no. Everything you listen to is not true.” He turned his face towards Doctor Wildan. Doctor Wildan, who had been frowning, immediately fell down to see how cute his best friend's face was.

Doctor Irawan was about to get up from his seat, but suddenly

“Risaaaa hiks hiks” Syamsa ran towards me and directly hit me. I don't know why he did that

“Risa, Mas Qomar.” That's all he can say. Next he looked around. He was stunned to see the doctor Irawan who had previously paused his intention to stay away from me.

“K . . .You ?” Syamsa looked at the doctor Irawan in disbelief. “ Why are you here ?”

“ You have no right to ban me wherever I want to go. Who are you ?” doctor Irawan's face looks red withstanding anger. I don't know what happened to the two people in front of me.

“Nina !” Nina looked at me. Then hand her hand to me. I scooped up my little girl and stepped out to avoid the two human beings who seemed to be about to spill emotions in this health room.

“We go out first yes?” I said while carrying her. I slowly set foot into the back garden. I didn't want Nina to be contaminated with parental affairs early on. His age is only nine years, must be clean from any problems because the problems he is facing are much heavier.

“We sit here only yes dear ?” my offer was immediately answered with a nod of her tiny head.

“Mbak.” Nina looked at my face full of questions.

“What's up ? You hungry ?” my many. He just shook his head slowly. His gaze glared far into space, looking at the clouds that were marching in the air, as if scrambling for a place to sail our hemisphere.

“What's wrong with Mbak Risa and Mbak Lina ? How long was the exit?” tanyanya. He seemed to want to know all my problems. I wanted to tell Nina everything, but I paled.

“So the doctor said that the doctor sir would like to come to the house of Mbak Risa.” Added Nina slowly. He Seems scared. His gaze he circulated perhaps the figure he was talking about would appear before him suddenly. Unintentionally, I followed him, spreading my gaze to make sure that doctor Irawan was really not around us.

“Come, replied Mbak. Does Mbak Risa also feel the same ?” sternly once again.

“No.” Answer's short. I don't want to be too confident and don't want to jump to conclusions too soon. Doctor Irawan and Doctor Wildan are new people who, to me, only deserve to be respected, not to be loved.

“Mbak Risa.”

“Ya.”

Nina confused. He scratched his head slowly then looked at me then lowered his head. Because of anxiety, I finally grabbed his body while scrambling his hair.

“You're still a kid. Don't even try to be a matchang.” I said slowly.

“What is miss matchang ?” tanyanya.

“According to Nina what try ?”

“Mbaaaak’

Nina was screaming hysterically.

“Yes, what's the matter dear ? “ my word tease. Nina hit my arm.

***

“Risaaaaa . . hiks . . . hiks . . .hiks”

Syamsa ran towards me while crying. I immediately let go of my embrace on Nina's body and stood up in bewilderment. Syamsa cried hysterically and then hit my body suddenly. He hugged me and took all his sadness out. I try to give you peace, with a hug back. I followed the rhythm of his body that was shaking so that we did not fall.

I longed to ask her why she was crying, but I immediately paused my intention. I let her cry for how long until she calms down. Nina who had been looking at us since then, finally called out to me.

“Mbak Risa.” He said, pointing to Shamsa. I can only nod slowly. I don't know why he's this weak.

“Mbak . .” I tried to start the conversation. Hearing my call, Shamsa let go of his embrace and sat down on a wooden chair near me.

“Please woo Irawan to forgive me.” Sentence vibrates. I still don't understand what he's saying. “Please promise you'll help me, Risa. Promise !” her door shook my hand.

“What's wrong with doctor Irawan ?” manya curious.

“ Tell her I accidentally.”sheet.I wrinkle my forehead

“Okey, Risa, I'll tell you a story. Doctor Irawan is a friend of my brother's. We knew him five years ago. “ Syamsa stops the story. His sight looked far away. Her tears began to melt. “I'm a selfless human being, Risa. I always toyed with men's feelings.” Further.

“Mbak, sorry, I really don't know what happened between you and doctor Irawan. Please don't involve me. Mbak Syamsa can solve the problem of Mbak and doctor Irawan himself.”

“But he's mad at me, Risa. She's upset. He won't forgive me. Please, Risa, please, help me so I can live a quiet life.” Her request.

“But what has Mbak done so he is very angry ?”

“I made his sister commit suicide.”

“Astaghfirullah” I never imagined that Shamsa was that cruel. I can only be silent not knowing how to make Doctor Irawan forgive him.

“You already know all my problems. Now help me to get her sorry, Risa. Please me.” Syamsa held her hands together in front of her chest, signifying that she was actually begging me.

“I will try to talk to doctor Irawan, but I do not promise to be able to succeed.” Sahutku. I actually doubt my abilities. But seeing him grovel like that, my heart really could not keep still.

“Thank you, Risa. You are indeed my best friend. “ he said so. Friends said ? I didn't even feel that he was my best friend at all. I can only imagine why a friend is insensitive to the feelings of his own best friend.

I never thought that Shamsa had made wounds in the hearts of many men. In our college, he always had to change partners. I don't know how many times. Obviously, long ago, before we got close, I always saw him holding men and changing once a month. I'm not really surprised. It's easy for a Syamsa to find men with different models. The man who wants to make her a lover.

In the past, I heard my former regiment commander was heartbroken because he cheated on her behind him. My former commander caught him making out with a soldier in the square and, as I recall, my former commander had been stressed and had a semester off from college.

I don't know what else has happened, what is clear today is that my job is to help him to get an apology from the vulnerable doctor. The young doctor was sent by the P district health service to help deal with landslide victims in sub-district B.

“Risa, please invite him to meet me behind this school later after ashar !” her door. I just nodded, even though I didn't know how to start.

***

Ashar's Adhan roars at the mosque of the school shelter. I asked Nina to fulfill her calling. I took my face and walked with Nina with me.

“Mbak, Nina doesn't bring mukena.’ Said.

“It's okay, later can borrow mucena in mushola.” My answer.

After arriving at the mosque shelter, Nina and I went to the ablution place and washed our body parts with ablution water. We stepped into the princess prayer hall. I took one face for Nina and put it on. I asked her to pray qobliyah ashar and without asking much, Nina followed all my movements.

After the qobliyah ashar, I saw many refugees who were busy in places of ablution and prayer. There are new ones entering and many are carrying out Qobliyah ashar. Ten minutes later, the priest came and led the congregation prayer for volunteers and refugees.

After my ashar, my eyes I tried to find maybe I found a doctor Irawan among male worshipers. In the middle of my search, I saw nurse Susi and her friends looking at me cynically. I was determined to help Syamsa so that whatever and whatever the other person's view of me, I didn't think.

For a moment I was stunned. In the middle of my search, I found the figure I was looking for had just entered the mushola. I can only breathe a sigh of relief.

I waited for the doctor Irawan to finish praying while sitting looking around the mosque. But without losing consciousness that I was waiting for someone. I set the view slowly to enjoy the beautiful garden in the shelter school mosque, eight concrete chairs surround a shady tree. The shady tree was wrapped in a round table painted in light brown. While the round chair is dark brown, maybe it is the work of children scouts. I stood up while holding Nina to walk towards the chair surrounding the shady tree to wait for the person who had just finished his day.

For a moment my heart was pounding watching Doctor Irawan stand up. Before he stepped out, I saw him looking up at the dome of the mosque and then circulating his gaze throughout the room. I don't know what he's thinking. What is clear is that I am prepared to carry out the mission that Shamsa has placed on my shoulders. Even though this heart actually shakes, I keep my promise.