The Smile of God for Marissa

Attention Commander

At eleven o'clock in the afternoon, volunteers came from the search area. Heavy rain poured down on the earth of Kemanukan, the victim search coordinator announced to stop the search for the safety of the team. Qomar my commander and other friends from my college joined other volunteers. Pleased heart. I know this can't happen, because my father always said, with or without his knowledge I was forbidden to date, date, or date, two-two with a non-muhrim male or harboring a liking for a male, letting the heart be tainted by love other than love for him.

“Dad, forgive me.” I grumbled and closed my face. “But I don't think I can cover dad.” My welcome in my heart. Once again I covered my face and in a fit of annoyance I threw away all my wish I could get my feet up and walked out but I paled.

“But I am a human, a father, who is destined to have a taste and as a woman, I want to choose a man I can count on. In terms of his faith and persistence to face life. I found him. But I'm afraid. I was afraid to face the fact that there was love in my heart for her. I'm scared.” Once again I murmured.

“ Assalamualaikum, Risa ?”Sasa the BEM secretary broke my daydream. He had just come with the rectorate channeling aid.

“ Wa alaikum greetings, Sa.”

Sasa looked at me and then set his gaze towards the corner of the room.

“ They are still traumatized by the terrible events of yesterday. ” I said with a concerned tone. Sasa breathed heavily

“But at least, we've been trying to extend a helping hand. You don't want to join the search for victims under ? ” tanyanya. My eyes are looking out.

“ No. There's a lot we can do here. In public kitchens still need energy assistance to cook and provide food for refugees and volunteers. As we can. Victim search let them be adam.” Saying slowly. Sasa nodded.

Just as the volunteers entered the village hall, everyone was startled by Syamsya who fell on the floor and everyone panicked. She's fainted. All attention was on him. Both Sasa and I took her to the cots in the headroom of the village device which from day one became a health post. Doctor Wildan checked. Some nurses have started preparing the infusion.

I can only wait for instructions. I held Shamsya's weak arm. Her body temperature is hot. Several times he was delirious about something unclear. His face began to sweat. There was fear and sadness there. I tried to scold him as I prayed in my heart that God might strengthen him. I can't imagine if it happened to me. Maybe I'll experience a condition that's just as weak as her.

I don't know how many minutes I've waited and taken care of it. This afternoon we can change his clothes and clean them. It was me and Sulis who changed her clothes. Moisturize his body and apply eucalyptus oil to reduce his fatigue. Once again I took the warm oil in the kitchen and carefully followed Syamsya's body.

After I followed slowly, I held Shamsya's hand and forehead repeatedly.

“It's getting cold, “ said Sulis slowly. I just nodded.

“She's so pretty huh? “ added. Again I can only nod. It is campus. Her beauty is unparalleled in my college.

“I envy seeing her beauty.”ucap Sulis slowly. This time I shook my head.

“God has given the best shape to us. Do not stain our hearts with lust. If we are grateful, God will add more pleasure that is very much,”

“ You sure don't want to have a face like that ?”

“Swrite ! No” sayku firmly. This time, Sulis smiled.

“Salut for you. “ he said while stepping to leave me.

***

Three days we took turns waiting for Shamsya. But to that extent, we have not been able to make him return his expression. Even though he was conscious, he still did not want to talk. Still do not want to eat and like to daydream and mumble yourself. Hearing our story, Qomar came to see Shamsya at night.

“ Yourself, Ris ?” Qomar looked at me gently.

“ As Mas Qomar saw. “Qomar pulled up a chair and sat down in front of me.

“ How is it now?” tanyanya while looking at the face of Syamsya who is still expressionless.

“ It's good, he's not as pale as yesterday, just still don't want to eat and talk. I felt almost desperate to deal with it.”let me look out watching the back and forth of refugees and volunteers staying at the village hall. Local television reporters seemed to be participating in enlivening this place. Many officials are being interviewed. All the medics come back and forth.

“ Tumben.” Qomar looked at me in wonder.

“ Tumben ? Why ?” manya curious.

“ As long as I know you, I've never heard such a desperate tone tonight.” He said with a seductive smile.

“ She's stubborn.” I said while scratching my non-itchy head covering my weakness.

“ In my opinion, you are more stubborn than him.” Qomar stood away from me while smiling seductively. Although I still admit my heart is happy because of it.

Astarghfirullaahis.

“ Why silent ?” goda.

“ Thank you” I said while looking down. I don't want to let flowers bloom in my heart for a non-muhrim man who is now one room with me. I know my heart is indeed feeling the fragrance and fragrance of flowers. But I also have to know that right now I have to replace the scent by returning to my consciousness.

“ Why thank you ? Instead of angry cake, before how to thank you, even though I have made fun of you, you know.” Qomar looked at Shamsya. Strange he said ? I was weird. But I think he's a lot stranger.

“Cock silent ?”

“ Males only serve people.” I deliberately stood up and left him alone, but I paled. At a crucial moment like this, Lina came in. Without greeting he sat looking at us who had been at odds since.

“ Eh if males serve people then who will you serve ? Monkey ?” goda Qomar once again.

“ Better as monkey perhaps.” Ketus. Lina who just entered the room just smiled looking at us.

“ Uh, sorry yes, I will try to get him to talk.”plek Qomar slowly.

“ Please ! Perhaps with Mas Qomar he wants.”kataku ketus. I know there is a real dislike when I see Qomar making Shamsya as a material to make fun of me, but I also know how to hide it deep in my heart.

“ If he wants to talk what's the bet?” again he looked at me. Curious about her reaction, I tried to look at her. But, God, only this time I can see his face clearly. He's very dashing. His simple face seemed very dignified and this I only know today. I have known him for more than three years.

“ Just take him for Mas Qomar.”ucapku accordingly.

“ Right now ?” tanya Qomar was deliberately teasing. He seems very enthusiastic. In my heart I cursed all my words that he responded with a happy smile.

“ Yes, right. If Mas Qomar wants.” Sewot. I almost cried seeing that he was really excited. There is a wounded heart.

“ Uh, how silent ? Jealousy yes ?” Ledek Lina who has not spoken since.

“ jealous ?”

“ yes, jealous of Mbak Syamsya.” replied Lina sambal squinted his eyes at Qomar. I'm silent. I'm jealous but dong's prestige if I say yes. Actually I know Qomar never harbored a sense of Shamsya, but somehow the pain always appeared when hearing Qomar tease me to have Shamsya.

“ Syamsya ?” call Qomar to hold his shoulder. Justjust wonderful. This time he saw Qomar for a while.

“ Still remember what happened yesterday ?”Still with his gaze, Syamsya was silent.“ People say, your father, mother and brother are missing ?”connect Qomar with a slightly taut voice. Shamsya's face changed. A good start. The amazing Qomar or just a coincidence that Syamsya is tired of silence. It is clear to me that this is progress. Or is this a sign that something is going to separate us?I don't give a shit.

If indeed he took Shamsya as a bet, it means that I can make sure Lina's words about him who said he loved me are just fake. But if from his success he still loves me, this is just the name of true love.

“ You must be very sad huh ? Must lose them, and live alone at this time?”Puddles of tears began to flow down her tender cheeks. That's success. He provoked Shamsya's emotions and maybe after this he will know which direction he will go to heal him as before. I would like to applaud his success for arousing Shamsya's emotions, if only I had not seen the deriding sight of Qomar directed at me.

“ Ma'am Syamsya, if you want to cry, just cry, do not need to be held. Spill all your grievances, sadness and possibly hatred on anyone. Come” said Lina excitedly. I saw Shamsya start to react.

“ I hate on God.”He said that phrase.

“ Why ? How do you hate God? Not on him ?”Qomar pointed at me, which of course was followed by Shamsya's gaze for me.

“ Why should hate him ?”tanyanya.

“You remember him?. He's the one who helped you when you passed out. You remember yesterday you fainted ?”She shook her head.

“ Absolutely ?”Again he nodded.

“ He who helped you, brought you here, took care of you all day and night and you finally survived. Say thank you to him yes ?”Long time Shamsya looked at me. I tried to smile, even though I knew nothing in return.

“ Shamsya, you know, how did your father, mother and brother when they were alive?”

Syamsya. “ They're all good people right?’This time he nodded. For me, that's far from enough. A remarkable advance came after a few days of Shamsya's closure.

“ You know that good people are dear to God ?”

“ Dear God you said ?”Beyond my expectations, her reaction was incredible. To me, this is a proper word to express his progress “ Amazingly” He spoke in a loud tone, as if he were about to vent all his anger on God.

“ Why ? You're angry at God ?” Qomar looked at Shamsya.

“ Very.”

“ Why ?”

“ Because God has taken all the people I love. Doesn't He know they're good people ? Why should those He took not me?”

“ You are also good right?”resolute Qomar while looking at him sharply.His cry exploded. He hit his head and this was beyond our expectations. I ran over and grabbed him.

“ Sorry Mas, please stop first, do not continue . Pity him.”my pity. Qomar just looked at me. He was probing my face, and it proved my mind was right. For a moment he spoke up.

“ And you'll give him as my betting prize?” goda Qomar once again.

“ If he wants please.” I finally snapped him. It could be in a situation like this still remember the reply to the action taken.

“ You're not jealous ?” god sucks.

“ Jealousy ? “

“ Yes, jealousy . Seeing my whereabouts with him’

“ If Mas Qomar my girlfriend, I must be jealous, but from there I can know that the quality of Mas Qomar's love for me is very low.“ She's quiet. Lured with my words ? Shamsya was still crying in my arms. A nurse comes along with a middle-aged woman and her husband, who turns out to be Syamsya's uncle who lives in Jakarta.

“Syamsya, you survived, son ?” asked the mother and hugged Shamsya. Shamsya who saw his brother coming immediately cried.

“ Bulik, “Only that's what Syamsya said. “Mama, Papa and Sister.” Syamsya continued to hug the middle-aged mother who turned out to be her bulik Syamsya just nodded her head and continued to hug Syamsya. Their hands hugged each other and hugged each other.

“Why should they be taken, Bulik? “ ask Syamsya. His voice sliced through all who heard him.

“Because God loves them, Yes. They're all good people. Irrelatation. May the Lord give them a bright way to return to His lap. “ this time the father replied.

“Om, Syamsya a stick of kara Om,” screams Syamsya. “aku a stick of kara.”

I can't hear his voice.

“There's Om and Bulikmu, Syamsya. There are we who will take care of you. Don't worry,” Om Syamsya entertaining.

“Have they been found Om? “ ask Syamsya curious. My uncle looked at me. I just shook my head. And saw me shake Shamsya immediately holding my hand.

“Please search for them, Please ! I beg you to find them.” immediately Hysterical speech. Hearing Shamsya's cry, doctor Wildan who had been outside the room entered and approached Shamsya.

“Volunteers always try to find parents and brother Mbak. Be patient. We all pray for the success of everything. Victims, we pray that all their sins will be forgiven, and accepted by the Lord and those who are displaced, may they be given patience. Man only tries, after that, all our decisions leave to the Power of God. “ I saw Shamsya just sobbing at the words of Doctor Wildan.

“I should have taken the doctor. I'm the bad guy who deserves this calamity, not my mom, dad and brother. “

“All rights prerogative God. There's no coincidence. Everything is in accordance with the destiny that has been outlined. And we who are still alive today, are waiting for when it is time to return in a way that we ourselves do not know how. " doctor Wildan's voice trembled as if he was angry at how fragile his patient was.

"Yes, Doc, we know my niece must be devastated by her current situation. We as representatives of the family thank you for what you have done to him. May the Lord repay you kindly" said Omnya Shamsya slowly.

After a while, we paid our respects after handing over care responsibilities to the family.