The Smile of God for Marissa

Phone call from Prasetyo

Forgive me, Brother. Not just jealous of Shamsya. My heart is also upset because there are men who consider me arrogant. “My throat is choked, sore, withstanding the overwhelming shame. I had trouble holding so that the dam in my eyes did not collapse just like that but failed. The pool of water I've been holding is broken. The man I just knew his name was Seno can only look at me.

“Do not be a burden. Brother was just kidding. Big brother was so happy to get the unique girl I met at the scene of the disaster and ignored my message in whatsapp has come. There was no other topic then, so that's what I picked up. Just to cover my happiness” Seno said at length.

“Where did Brother get my number ? I don't think many people keep my number. “

“Lina. She told me a lot about the beautiful Sister in front of the special Brother.” Hearing his words, I was very flattered. But when she told Lina that she gave me my number, I immediately thought about how to make Lina regret the actions she had done.

“Never be angry at Lina. He only gave after I really forced him. When I haven't forced it, she still refuses to give me Dik Risa's number. Again, never doubt the loyalty and loyalness of your friends.”

Only the rain understood how I felt. The more intense it sinks us in worry.

Drrrttt

My phone's vibrating. New number on my phone. I was reluctant to open my phone, but I really didn't want to be stuck with the man in front of me.

“Assalamualaikum”

“Waalaikum hail warahmatullah. Have you arrived home safely? “

The voice of a man who knows who. I can't remember who that voice belonged to.

“Alhamdulillah.”

“O Yes, I'm Prasetya. “

“ Where did you get my number from?” I really don't think with a lot of people that it's easy to get my phone number. Though I have as much as possible not to spread it to anyone I just know.

“Very easy.”

“ Tell !”

Prasetya's laughter made me really upset. He really has a double personality. While on the plane he really pissed me off, but when we were about to part, I was really fascinated by his language. And today, he came back to piss me off for the second time.

“Please don't get mad. I really want to talk to you a lot. I will spend time with you tonight. Please !”

I called and ignored Prasetya's words. Since coming home from Jakarta I have not been able to open his business card because for me I would never want to deal with him.

“Who ?” ask Seno curiously.

“Teman” is all I can say. There is no other name for Prasetya other than the word friend. Even though I felt that we were not yet friends. I saw Seno looking at me in disbelief, but so be it. He is free to choose whether to trust me or not.

Once in a while a drop of two drops of water coming down from the tiling enters. The sound of frogs in the front gutter of the house completes the rhythm.

“Sister should go home. It's been night and I feel sorry for . . . “ I decided my sentence first.

“Adik expels me?”

“Kakak must be tired. I don't want Brother to get sick. Tomorrow still have to work on location right?”

“One week to know Sister, Sister feels that Sister is not an ordinary woman who easily gives up on circumstances. The persistence of the younger brother in helping the affected community reflects how Adik is an adult human who can solve problems easily. Brother is sure sister can solve this problem. Especially if it is only related to feelings. “

“God willing, Brother.”

“Adik can call me Seno, Suseno. “

“Marissa Wardhani”

The clock shows at 20:30 and the rain has started to subside. Seconds later . . . .

“Sister should return to camp, be careful at home. I hope that Dik Risa's lover who is married to someone else can forget. There are still many men who expect the presence of a sister in his life. Do not be shackled to the feelings that will eventually make Adik become languid. Assalamualaikum” without waiting for my answer he woke up and stepped towards his Vario. That was our last meeting. Since that afternoon I have never been to camp again because I had to take part in the Mahadipa student regiment sports week in Semarang.

***

Basarnas has officially stopped the search for victims. There are still buried victims who have not been found, but because the time has passed one month and it is possible that the condition of the victim is not feasible, then the decision must be accepted with sincerity. Most of the volunteers have already left the village, only a small part of which is still there, and that only helps rehabilitate the place for refugees. The government has been thinking about the place of relocation of residents, but until when it will be realized we do not know. because temporary housing can already be functioned. I still suudhon because as usual if it has been built temporary housing, the government suspends the construction of permanent housing. My prayer is that the lives of residents in Kemanukan and surrounding areas can return to normal, residents can be active as before.

We have returned to activities on campus, struggling with college assignments and the task of being assistant lecturers at my campus Universitas Matahari. I will not forget the last landslide. Everything stays stuck. It can never be erased at any time.

This afternoon, before returning to the boarding house, I saw Qomar sitting under a tree in the corner of the campus. I know he's with his wife. I wanted to approach them by joining the conversation but soon I interrupted. I heard them saying words of seduction to each other. I am ashamed and jealous. I know my heart is hurt. I have been waiting for him, but must be willing to swallow bitter saliva and accept the fact that the man I love has married someone else.

God, why can't I contain my anger ? I didn't want Lina to know that my emotions had reached the breaking point and before it exploded I decided to run away. In the gamang, I exited the campus gate. Trying to gather the scattered power. I set my feet in a row away from the hustle and bustle of the sea of humans in my campus. I could only run without caring about others looking at me questioningly.

***

“You must be sure that this beautiful life will be very beautiful if we are united in a love relationship. It's all true, right? How happy our lives are now. Unite into a new household, help each other and I want to soon have a child “ bestari wise words that Qomar said on Shamsya make my ears red. Syamsya's next answer is “But I still desperately need Mas's guidance. I'm a lucky fool to have a smart husband like Mas Qomar” Syamsya trying to evade. Really Qomar's answer was a very unexpected answer.

“We do not have anything, but rest assured God has everything.“ suddenly Shamsya put his body on the shoulder of the husband without caring about any eyes watching him. I am the dumbest man who has a miserable fate in love. I know I've experienced this. I should have been able to be introspective and not get caught up in dreams and uncertain expectations.

“ Marissa no problem ?”Sisy broke my daydream. I'm shaking. I want to leave him alone soon, but my little heart is not until“ Please, tell me, maybe I can help.” I could only look at him with the emotions I was holding back. In my heart I just cursed. There was a cry in my heart and she didn't know. He is not a sensitive human being.

“ No, Sy. Not now. I want to rest.”Sisy looked at. I would have almost let it go if I hadn't seen a trace of crying in her eyes.

“ You've cried? Why ?” I approached her and gently stroked her hair. Although my heart was very angry, but seeing him cry I could not bear. I don't want his heart to hurt.

“ I'm sorry ya Ris. Earlier I wanted to tell you something about my problem with you”. It was so slow that I could barely hear it.

“ What problem ? Maybe I can help.”

“You sure, Ris? “ Sisy looked at my face in disbelief. He may have begun to doubt my ability to help solve other people's problems. He may have forgotten that I was a psychologist. But let. The most important thing for me is that I want to try to ease the burden on everyone around me.

“All happened so fast, Ris. “ Sisy stopped her sentence.

“ What does it mean ?”I forced myself to return his gaze and I found the face of ayu in front of me with her eyes crying for the second time. I threw my eyes out of the room, saw that maybe another friend was listening to us. There was no sound, only the television in the living room was broadcasting the ball. I got up and closed the door.

“ I'm disappointed. The person I love loves loves someone else. I wasn't. All this time my parents always hoped I could be with him.”

“ O Yes ? Who is he Si? You never told me about him.”

“I've always wanted to hide him from anyone. I don't want my friends to know him because I'm afraid he's interested in one of my friends. Ris, help me. Meet him and tell him that I love him” Sisy hit me, crying as she pleased without caring for me. I let go of her embrace slowly. “Please, Risa. Meet him now in the town square. I promised him to meet him at the Northeast Gasebo.” His welcome is hopeful.

“Now ?”Sisy nodded slowly. “Self or with you ?”

“Go yourself. If you bring good news, let me know soon. I will always remember your services to me. “ I do not know what is in Sisy's mind. All this time despite being in a room with her, I felt so close. He's hard to understand. To me he's just a spoiled kid who can cry and whine. But whatever and whoever he is, I have promised to always help those around me. When I told my mom about Sisy, I always said that I had to be patient with my friends because of them I learned life.

“How about I .. .” I break my sentence.

“What if you fail to convince her, I will accept her decision and try to forget her.” The answer.

“But it's night, Sy. “

Sisy pouts.

“I'm afraid he's disappointed because I'm present. “ that's just the sentence. A word that is very selfish to me. He just wants to think about his own business without wanting to know the interests of others. Ah, I don't know why I got one room with him. When Maulida said yesterday that she had returned to the dormitory and was intending to get out of the boarding house my heart was very relieved. But my legacy did not last long. He came back again and this time teased me with his problem.

“Come, Risa. Please help me.” Again he was fond. I can't do much more than obey what Sisy said. I took the orange veil to blend with the robe I've been wearing since the afternoon. With Sisy's red beat, I drove towards the town square.

***

From afar I watched the gasebo northeast of Purworejo square which was still empty. I opened my phone camera and I took it to the location I was watching and sent it to Sisy.

“He can't attend Risa. Sorry, you go home. I forgot to tell you that he is carrying out duties outside the.” area

I'm silent. Once again I read Sisy's message and I left the square. Red beat I walk around the square slowly. Five minutes later I reached the boarding house and Sisy was shocked to meet me.

“Please forgive me, Risa. When you left, he texted me via whatsapp and said he couldn't see me because he was out of town. Here you go, read it!” Sisy thrust her phone at me. Kulirik.

“You don't want to tell me anything about him ?”

“Do not want does not mean do not want, Ris. Someday you'll know who I'm after. He's a friend of my father's. “

“Te . .man your father ? “ My eyes bulged showing my surprise.

“Eit, don't assume that my father's friends are all old. Still very young and amazing. Dad introduced me to him when he went to my dad's house. Since the beginning of the meeting, I have admired him. Risa, he's a good man. Wherever he goes, he'll bring me souvenirs and that's what flatters me. He's very attentive to me.”

“Ya already yes Si, sorry I have to go in to continue my writing.”

“Thank you for the help Ris. May God always help you.

***