The Smile of God for Marissa

Cold Hot Ice Tea

Thirteen and thirty the event is over. Although there are still many guests who come, but I still want to rest to establish the prayer sublime. I don't want to faint today, especially in front of my husband. Even if she has a doctor's cousin, that doesn't mean I can be spoiled for her. I'm shy.

“ Sorry, Brother we pray Duhur first, Yuk ! I also want to rest. My head is dizzy once.” My husband smiled at my words.

“Adik want to kugendong ? “ bargain. He can be romantic. Not like me who despite being a psychologist, in front of him I was stiff.

I blushed.

“ Of course I'm shy.”

I preceded my husband. The dizziness in my head, must have gone when I laid my body on my soft bed. Understandably, I have always not been strong to linger, facing the event.

In my room, I immediately picked up my new change of clothes. I went to the bathroom and I changed it there. I cleaned my face from my make up and took ablution. Aditya did the same thing, It's just that he shamelessly changes his clothes in front of me.

After changing my clothes, we prayed together. It's the first time I'm both-two with the opposite sex. I shook my husband's hand and kissed the back of his hand slowly. My husband then kissed my forehead. He put his palm on my forehead and prayed. After praying, I could just sit down. I wanted to give up my body, but again, I was embarrassed. I can't sleep when there are men around me.

“ He said to rest. How to just sit? Same dong here with outside.” Aditya looked at me and I just shook my head.

“ Why ?”

“ Malu”

“ Yes, geez, dik. Dik Risa is already my wife and I am your husband.”

“ yes, anyway, but .” I coughed my head that didn't itch

“ Okay, I'm out. Rest !”

“ But . .”He turned his body.

“ What's up again ?”

“ I'm sorry, Kak” He nodded. Then get out and close the door. I was finally free to lie down.

I didn't know how long I was asleep before I woke up to realize someone was looking at me.

“ You are so good. To the point that you don't mind Lina's voice waking you up.” My husband tried to sit on the bed and still humorously looked at me.

“ Lina ? O yes, where is he ?”

“ has come home, and maybe soon he called” And right, my phone rings and I hear Lina's voice mocking me.

“ Ouch the newlywed, until forgot his best friend in the living room. “ I smiled hearing Lina's laughter.

“ sorry Lin, I'm so dizzy that I don't care about you, sorry I don't mean, .. but I see you are also fun with Mas Irsyad, a friend of Adit Kan's sister?.” My rebut.

“ Yes, insha Allah I soon overtake you, earlier Mas Irsyad said his parents will come, propose and God willing we marry.”

“ Amien, glad I heard it, Lin.”

“ Yes Yes, fear of disturbing newlyweds, assalamualaikum”

“ Wa aleikum salam warahmatullah.”

We both answered his greetings. I'm silent. Baffled. What topics will I use to start the conversation. I can actually talk about Lina and Irsyad, Adit's friends, but I'm afraid it's ruining the atmosphere.

“ Sorry Aditya Brother yes, Dik !”There was regret on his face.

“ Sorry ? For what problem ?”

“ Me, do not kiss my wife in front of guests.”O, so that's what made him apologize to me ?

“ No problem.”

Husband quiet.

“ Brother can do or do nothing in front of guests. “ I said slowly.

“ O . . Yes,? “ I nodded.

“ Does my wife not have the initiative to make her husband drink?”slowly continue. Although I slowly felt his words like lightning in broad daylight. Like a scorpion sting and being slapped on my face hearing his words. I'm shocked. Banget. I felt how stupid I was that there was not the slightest thought to it. I still feel how her presence in my room is so taboo. This was my first two-and-a-half experiences with a man, let alone in the room.

In the past, and until the time I was not married, this kind of thing was forbidden, both with non-muhrim men, and it carried over to this day. Isn't he officially a husband ? A new family, it was formed a few hours ago and it was us. I am halal to him and vice versa. God, is this husband and wife ?

“ Ma . . Sorry, Adit sister would like to drink what ?”Iwait answers.

“Mm, what good to drink so hot? He tried to tease me. “Tea only how ?”

“ Good. I made tea. “ I tried to stand up to my husband's request.

“ Can ?” Husband teasing me. Maybe he thinks a kid like me can't do anything. Spoiled and everything is just served every day.

“ God willing can. Time to make tea alone can not.”ucapku while looking down.

“But mixed ice yes .”

“ Mean Sister Adit iced tea ?“He's nodding. His eyes lit up to see me move out of my bed. In a hurry, my legs involuntarily dragged the blanket that was still covering my body. And he, he caught me sparingly. What is Risa with you? Aren't you a psychologist who's about to finish college? Aren't you a prospective permanent lecturer who used to face students, who often tease ? You have also been tempted by men several times when you are on campus, on the street and anywhere when you meet a creature whose name is male you can overcome.Unlike the current Risa, you can meet the, why ?’ my inner.

“ Careful, no need to rush, I am patient kok.”God is so ashamed of me today. How stupid of me, in front of my husband. My husband smiled as I walked away.

***

In the kitchen, when I made my first special iced tea for my husband. With a little thumping, groggy with results that I myself do not yet know. Making iced tea is not difficult. I even make it almost every day for myself or for my friends because my mom and dad hardly ever enjoy ice. Why should I lose confidence today that the results of my work are unsatisfactory?

“Mbak Risa, her husband is invited to eat first. Food is ready, no one eats.”Marni's mom approached me.

“ Thank you, Ms. Marni. Brother Aditya asks for tea.”

“ O, this one, Ma'am, already so if that one, white water.” He thrust a white teapot at me.

“ Thank you, Mbak.”She smiles.

“ After this was invited to eat, Ma'am her husband.”

“God willing, Ma'am.”

I poured the tea water into the cup after I gave the sugar. I stirred and gave him some ice. I carefully brought a tray of iced tea to the room.

“ Thank you. Dik Risa don't drink ? o, yes Brother knows Dik Risa wants us to drink a glass both right ?”

What ? A glass of both ? At all. I don't even have thirst today.

“ Mm, but wait. It's iced tea, right ? “ asked Aditya while looking at me. The thump in my chest grew stronger. Could there be something wrong with my iced tea today ?

“ I . .iya, “ I nodded doubtfully. In my heart I pray that there is nothing wrong with my work.

“ Try me drink ya?’

“ Please!” Aditya brought the cup closer to the lips. And stopped for a moment after enjoying a few sips. She's staring. I doubt myself.

“ Mm, this may be a reflection of Little Sister's feelings today.”

“ Ma . . . .means Kak Adit?” It must be my face today. I stammered.

“ Hot bottom, but weird,”

“ Weird ? Not good, huh ? Less sweet ?” my chest is getting pounding. She looked at my face gently but still I was scared. His eyes are like monsters to me.

“ Not. “He shook his head.

“ Then ?”Why is he making me curious ?

”Manis fitting. And when I drink it cold, but it's amazing, my wife makes me iced cold hot tea. “God, is this really my work today ? Cold hot tea? As I feel ? Not likely.

“ Time Yes ? “ want me to snatch the cup in his hand. Take him running and replace him with a new one if he doesn't hold my hand.

“ Try you hold ! warm right ? “

“ Yes. “

“ And you drink !”I sipped a little water and it turned out to be true. My God, is this my special tea ? That might show my feelings just like Adit said. Cold hot tea. I was cold facing him.

“ How ?”Despite smiling, I felt like he was stripping me. Struggling with my soul and believing in myself.

“ True. “

I took a deep breath.

“My first special tea was hot cold as I was facing my husband. Sorry”

I'm bowed.

Embarrassed.

Strange but real, a psychologist is unable to control her feelings, precisely in the presence of her husband. The theories of my confidence were wiped out, and all that remained was the folly before him.

Embarrassing !

I should have been able to do anything as I said while advising my patients. Or at least be able to apply all the knowledge as I have transferred to my junior students.

“Are you okay ? “

He touched my hand. The touch in my hand broke my daydream. The puddles that had gathered in my eyes, now began to flow, soaking my cheeks.

“ Dik Risa crying ? “

I slowly turned my face away, hiding the cries that had actually been detected by her. Kuseka slowly tears that began to run down the river with the back of my hand. This was the first time I felt my confidence breaking.

God help me !

He held my hand, kissed it for a long time and put it on his chest.

“ Dear !!! it's not just my wife who's hot cold facing her husband. Try to feel my heart beating ! Not much different from you. Your husband is also hot cold facing his wife. “

“Not” I tried to pull my hand out of his grasp but failed. He managed to hold onto my hand and still lay it on his chest.

“Not mean ? You feel my chest shakes now ? This is a sign that your husband is helpless, groggy facing his beautiful wife is amazing.”

We both smiled. Look at each other and finally . . I raised my courage to embrace her.

“ Little sister knows why dad gave you to me ? Even when I don't know you?”

I'm nodding.

“ Because I'm afraid Adit's sister hurt me.”

He stroked my head.

“ You are too beautiful to be hurt. “

“ But I am sure the obvious is not because of the property that Kak Adit has, Insha Allah.”

“ Dik Risa want to know the answer ?”

I'm shaking.

“ Because God knows I need a woman like you.”

His embrace is getting tighter.

“ Brother, we have lunch yuk !” He let go of his embrace and smiled.

“ It's night not day anymore. “

“ Yes, we eat in the afternoon yuk !”

“ It feels with you, my stomach does not feel hungry at all today.”

I'm shaking. I pulled his hand out of the room towards the dining room.

***