The Smile of God for Marissa

Irawan Adityawarman

“There are guests in the living room waiting for you” said Santi.

I got up and put on my hood. I looked at my face in the mirror for a moment. Still pale but not as pale as two days ago when dizziness struck me. I set my foot in the living room. I opened the key and I turned the door handle slowly in the hope that the guest was shocked and shocked.

“Assalamualaikum”Two men who have sat in front of me with a smile look at me carefully and again they say hello.

“Wa aleikum greetings, sorry I can help you ?” I looked at the two men in front of me carefully and I finally turned my face inside. Maybe they're friends of Rosa or Sisy or friends of Maulida. Their faces had never been seen before.

“Truely this is the home of Mbak Marissa ?” asked the man in brown clothes back. One man turned his eyes to the street.

“Be . .truly. Sorry who are you looking for Marissa?”manya curious. My chest was pounding, but I tried to calm down. I feel like I have no faults or make mistakes with someone so there is nothing to be afraid of. If anyone feels hurt because of my attitude all this time, I will all face bravely. I'll take responsibility.

“Sorry, Ma'am. Can we meet with Ms Marissa ?” tanyakanya.

“I myself. Sorry any interest did you find me ?” the two people in front of me looked at each other. For a moment one of them took a deep breath, finally speaking.

“Live on, my name is Muhammad Ridwan and this is my friend Maulana Akmal. We came in order to carry out the trust. “ Muhamad Ridwan sighs. He looked at me to make sure I was watching his words.

“sorry, trust from whom ?”

“we mentioned our arrival intent. We are friends and friends and relatives of Irawan Adityawarman. “soil Maulana Akmal.

“Sorry, Irawan Adityawarman who is it ?” I really don't know what they're talking about. Come, bring the trust from Irawan Adityawarman. Let alone the man, his name I just heard.

“He's our best friend, friend and brother. He is located on the right side of the great mosque. We used to have one class from elementary school to college. “One man was silent and the other, looked and finally he spoke.

“Sorry once again, Brother. Who is Irawan Adityawarman ? I really don't know who he is. Even if you both say that he is a friend, brother, or apapin. Sorry I don't know him.”

“Kau sure don't know Irawan ?”ask Muhamad Ridwan full investigation. He may think that I'm lying, but I don't care. I really don't know him.

“Please excuse me, Ma'am. We came to convey trust. We intend to apply Mbak Marissa to Irawan Adityawarman.”

“Sorry, which Irawan Adityawarman is it ? I don't know him. Maybe you're wrong, Brother.”

“No. Irawan Adityawarman says he's seen Marissa. “

“Ta . .but I don't know him, Sister. I .. .could not.”I feel there is no reason for me to answer this proposal, because I did not feel Irawan Adityawarman before. I don't want to misunderstand.

“Adityavarman does not invite dating. If Ms. Marissa wants to, she invites you to get married next month.” I'm silent. There was no reason I could give them, until they decided to go home. It's so heavy I feel. There is nothing more frightening and stressful to a woman than the sacred events of a proposal. And this I face precisely when my heart is really not thinking about this at all. How could I be married, my studies are not finished. How could I get married, while the person who proposed to me had never seen me at all. It's only a matter of waiting two or three months for my script to be realized, and my existence here is indeed in order to wait to finish the thesis and the coming of time where I found a friend to take with me the exam.

“Sorry, Ma'am.he said, Ma'am Marissa does not have to answer today.There is a month for Mbak Marissa to think and ask for parental permission and while waiting for him Irawan Adityawarman said, ma'am Marissa should carry out Istiharah, asking for His guidance to be given the best. We beg you to pay. Assalamualaikum”

“Wa aleikum salam warahmatullah.” My feet I couldn't get up and drive my guests, all I could do was sit down, and walk them with my eyes.

When their vehicle I saw leaving the yard, I still could not move. I don't want to confuse myself with people who aren't important to me at all. Finally I stood up and left the living room to carry out my work.

After praying, I sat down. Contemplating all that I have passed, considering that there may have been a man named Irawan Adityawarman but it seems nil. Maybe my friends knew, but I was reluctant to tell them about what I had just experienced.

“you're sitting there, Ris ? Don't you want to sleep?” ask Sisy. I immediately took off my face and folded and placed it on my study table. I rushed towards my couch. I stretched out my tired body and closed my eyes. I knew Sisy was following me with her curious eyes.

“Who came earlier ? “ tanyanya .

“People wrong address,” without opening my eyes I replied.

“One of the old addresses. You might make it long huh.” God ! Why she always can't be good with me. He's always been a bitch and I've only realized that lately.

“Iya maybe your guess this time is right, Sy. I made a troublemaker so they didn't go right away. I don't know why lately a lot of people have misunderstood me.”

“You're not accusing me of misunderstanding you, are you ?”It's good that he knows. It's hard to get other people to agree with me. I tilted my body and then I got up to turn off the lights.

“Do not turn it off first. I still haven't slept. I want to chat with Mas Yoyoku,” I express my intentions and then sleep on my back to Sisy. I tried to close my eyes, forget everything I've been through today but I failed. My mind is still faithful thinking of the two guests who brought Irawan's trust.

“You really don't want to tell me about your problem, Ris?” Sisy's voice surprised me. I guess she'll always giggle giggly laugh with her lover Yoyo. Turns out he was watching me.

***

After setting up my dawn, I set foot into Rosa's room. Rosa, my boarding buddy, has only been in a couple of months filling Maulida's room. While Susi, a fourth semester child filled the back room with Nur, also a new resident who a few weeks ago entered. They deliberately moved to my boarding house because they felt that it suited the father of boarding who did not deal too much with his college and personal interests.

This time I want to take her to the morning market to buy vegetables.

“Do not want to wait for a little bright day, Risa?” Rosa still seems to be in her room. “I feel so tired. Yesterday I was in college, doing chores and today, I want to enjoy my time off. “

“How about going with me only ?” tawar Maulida's. I immediately nodded, confirming it.

Soon Maulida and I were walking down Suprapto Street to the morning market.

“Last night said there was a guest, Ris? “ I just nodded.

“They're your brothers or are you ready?”

“Srother” I answer briefly. I do not intend to lie because all men are brothers because we are from one descendant of the Prophet Adam As.

“But how to go home quickly? “

“I don't know why. What is clear is that when they bring the trust and trust has been conveyed, for me there is no problem if you continue to go home. It's not good either mas Kinkan if at night I still receive guests.”

“Mas Kinkan not angry if there is a male guest. I've had a boy friend until ten, Mas Kinkan just shut up. As long as we do not do anything insha Allah all will be fine.”

“You ever brought a boy friend to kos?” I'm curious and you guys want to switch the conversation so I don't discuss the guest last night.

“You time in Jakarta. That's when Amran came.” Maulida seems surprised to have accidentally exposed her own secret.

“Who is Amran ?”

MAulida. He's probably in shock because he didn't realize that I didn't know who Amran was.

“She's my lover.” His mouth while bowing his head. I just smiled at his behavior. He blushed and threw away another look.

“I didn't know you had a lover.”

“Yes, it turns out I leaked it myself. I really don't want you to know, because if you knew, you'd be unhappy with my actions.

“I will not interfere in the affairs of others, Da. So don't be afraid of me. I just want to take care of myself. “

“But actually I have to thank you if you want to take care of me too. So there's a fortress that can restrict my movements so I don't overdo it.”

“Since when did you date Amran?”

“Half month ago.”

“ Kok new half a month ?”

“At that time Amran was not my lover, Ris.” Maulida chuckled. “ Oh yes, you know who her lover Sisy is?”

“I don't know,’I deliberately kept quiet. Don't want to talk about other people's lovers. If it's not a problem, but if it's wrong, I'll be affected myself.

“Not that he has often asked for help with you huh? MAsa you don't know who her lover is.” Maulida was urging me. I have to be careful of the people around me. For now, the only person I trust is Lina. Not without reason. I've heard Maulida and my boarding friends tell me the secrets of her best friend on campus. Although it was unintentional, I was sure, someday they would also do the same to my secret.

“Already, Da. Although he asked for help several times, but until now I really do not know who the person is. I always fail.” I thought my answer was enough to make her curiosity decrease even if only a little.

“Why ?” Apparently I was wrong. He just continued the question.

“ He never came to see me. I thought he went straight to Sissy. Never mind, please don't continue this theme, I'm not tasty.”

MAulida. We continued shopping until we were satisfied. Vegetables sold in the market this morning are always fresh, so we always feel satisfied when we get vegetables for the next three days of our meal.