The Single Parent

Rinda's Cry

I felt my head dizzy, and as I swirled around I heard the sound of the heart-detecting monitor ringing, I moved my legs but it felt so weak, I am where I am now, my head is still dizzy to remember, O God, what happened to me, in my heart I said the wirid continues, a few moments later, a few moments later, the dizziness in my head was good but I did not dare to open my eyes, after my legs could I move even though weak, now my hands can I move, I feel there is a needle infusion in my hand, O God... my son.why do you take again, O God, is it too bad for me that You do not give me the confidence to take care of my inner child.

When I was raped and I was pregnant I did not want but You gave me the child of the rape of that man, but now that I find my love, I am legally married and religiously martyred, she said, why did you take it again, now that my tears have soaked my cheeks but I have not dared to open my eyes, I heard a woman calling my name

"Mother Arinda"

"Yes" I answered

"Mother Arinda was aware, Alhamdulillah, it was after the operation there was an hour more Arinda was not aware" said the woman

"Bu.. if dizziness is not forced to open your eyes, slowly" said the woman, then heard the footsteps of the shoes away

Vano... where? mas Arif..pardon my inner Rinda, I no longer feel pain in my stomach, my son.my inner then I shed tears, slowly I open my eyes, because it is not so dizzy, my inner, I looked around me, where I thought I was, and there was a white-painted room in front of me with tables and chairs, in this room there was only me and I saw a man sitting at the table waiting for this room, my body was hard to move.

A while later, I felt better, I called the man

"Mas.. mas.." call me, I see the man coming at me. I

"What's wrong, mbak?" tannya

"Where am I in this room, my son and my mother where?" ask me slowly

"The mother in the recovery room, the parents and the mother's child are in the hospital room, after this there are those who bring the mother to the inpatient room" the man explained

"Thank you" I said, then the man returned to his seat.

I waited in this recovery room by myself, very quiet, mas Arif? how did Vano lose his sister? o Allah. strengthen this servant to accept Your trials, my inner Arif.

these tears are shed again, O God

the door is open

"Mother Arinda" said the nurse calling me

"Yes" I answered, the nurse pushed the gurney, I was moved to the cage and pushed out of the recovery room,

"Mbak.mau taken where I am" I asked.

"To the inpatient room ma'am" said the nurse

I entered the hospital hallway, shortly after I entered the hospital room, I saw my parents, Vano and my mother-in-law, I moved from the cage to the patient's bed, Vano was already sleeping on the sofa, my parents and my mother-in-law came up to me

"Mom." I said and cried again

"Rin.

"Mom.." I said I couldn't go on with my words, I cried again.

"Rinda... crying does not solve your problems, Arif has been sincere you also have to be sincere" said my mother comforted me.

"Mom..why did God quickly take my son" I said still sobbing.

"Rinda.hust don't say that, God must have other plans that would be best for you" my mother-in-law also comforted me.

"Mas Arif.." I said.

"You want to call Arif?" ask my mother-in-law

"Mas Arif isn't angry with Rinda ma'am?" much

"Rinda..com speaking of what you are, Arif's mother's son, there's no way he's angry with you, he's already sincerely lost his son" said the mother.

"Mom... Rinda doesn't want to call Arif" I said

and back sobbing

"Rest Rin" said my mother-in-law

When it was eight o'clock at night, I asked my mother

"Mom... Where is the fetus?" much

Mom opened the desk drawer and pulled out the plastic wrap

"It's Rin" said mother slowly

I hold the plastic package with teary eyes, son.so tiny your shape has formed your head and arms, there is also a black spot will be your eyes later, son, why did you leave my mother so soon, my inner child and keep these tears flowing from my eyelids making my eyes rub, I silently looked at the plastic package and then gave it to my mother

"Mom... Vano and mom where" I asked slowly

"Your mother-in-law and Vano went home to Rin" said the mother

"So you slept, so didn't wake you up" said the mother later

"Rin. since you haven't eaten yet, let's eat" said the mother, then the mother took the food on the hospital table to feed me slowly, slowly, at that moment I remembered Arif mas who always bribed me when I was sick, I cried again, mother looked at me with a sad look

"Rinda.. Don't keep this up, don't beat yourself up" said the mother.

"All this is God's predestined, there are still many opportunities to have more children" said the mother again and let out a long sigh

"Your age is still twenty-nine this year, there are still many opportunities, many prayers" said the mother then stroked my hair, so deep my mother felt for me, her only daughter

"You must be strong Rin, pity Arif if you are like this, pity also Vano saw his mother grieving like this continues" said mother, I let out a long sigh

"Mom..why does God love to see Rinda sad?" much

"Rinda..no God likes to see you sad, but God will prepare you to be a stronger person, you can go through all the hard problems yourself time with his father Vano, he said, you also have to be able to go through it at this time" advised the mother

"Rin. there are couples who have not been blessed with children but they still continue to be romantic to live their home life" said the mother.

"But ma'am, there are also many couples who are not blessed with children and eventually divorced" I said and again sobbed in tears.

"Rin. You're still messing with your mind, get some rest, mom's waiting for you here" said mom.

And stepped back the food container on the table and walked towards the sofa and laid her body on the sofa.

Seeing my mother asleep on the couch I felt sorry, but my inner upheaval and sadness continued to permeate my mind becoming very sensitive, I looked around the room, deserted... there was hardly any sound, not even the footsteps of the nurse could be heard, although it was still nine o'clock in the evening, the infusion was still in my hand, and it was almost gone, I pressed the button on top of my head that was fused with the hospital wall, before long the door was knocked and opened, a nurse came in my direction,

"Mom, there's something I can help you with" said the nurse, "yes, the infusion is running out" I said.

"How's mom, still dizzy? or sick, what blood is coming out?" ask the mbak

"It's not dizzy, just limp this body, the blood is not so much coming out" I said telling my condition while still lying on the patient's bed.

"Oh yes. the information is off mbak, tomorrow it can go home" said the nurse

"Yes, thank you" I said

"Sir... Can I get pregnant again?" much

"Tomorrow there is a doctor visit, can be asked yes ma'am" said the nurse while removing the infusion needle and then out of the nursery .

The next day after I had breakfast, Lisa's doctor visited me

"Mom...how is he now, is anyone still sick?" doctor Lisa said as she held my stomach

"No doc, doc... Can I get pregnant again?" much

"Oh yes, yesterday there was a wound in the cervix, maybe that caused a miscarriage, but already I couter really, it's clean, so can get pregnant again" said doctor Lisa explained, I smiled

"Dok... roughly how long can I get pregnant again?" much

"Three more months ma'am, I can get pregnant" Lisa's doctor said, then walked away from me