The Single Parent

Make Peace With the Past

After cleaning the house and it was neat, I sat in front of the house reading books from the Arif family library collection.

Now I've become a wife again, but why can't I escape from that incident.

Mas Arif forgive my inner Rinda, before long a gate was heard in the open, maybe Mas Arif.

"Mother.

"Where from, until this hour just got home?" my many.

"This" he said as he showed the toy in his hand.

"Vano has eaten?" my many.

"Already" answered.

"Mas.." I said, greeting Mas Arif.

Kissing her hands and cheeks.

"Where's the gas?" my many.

"Buy food, Vano toys are the same clothes for you and Vano" he replied.

"It's Rin" he said as he gave a package of food, I immediately moved to the containers, then heated the water for a Vano bath.

"Vano shower come on. "I said and I took off Vano's shirt, I picked up some warm water and I put it in the bathtub, Vano got into the bathtub playing water in the bathroom, and I took a bath, I left Vano in the bathroom and went into Mas Arif's room.

"Mas.." I said and hugged my husband from behind, I leaned my head on his back, he turned around, hugged me, kissed you.

"What's wrong, baby" he said

I'm disgusting to whisper in his ear.

"Thank you, I love you" I said.

"I'm sorry Mas." I said again.

Mas Arif was silent then kissed my lips hugging me.

"Later tonight we try again, baby" he whispered.

"But Mas, Vano I changed clothes first" I said, then to the bathroom.

Wrapping Vano's body with a towel carried him to the room and changed his clothes.

In the living room the three of us were accompanying Vano to play, O God, thank you for all the happiness that You gave, before how long Vano began to sleepy and fell asleep on the carpet along with his toy.

"Where's Auntie's mom?" my many.

"Kok still calling Aunty?" ask Mas Arif.

"He he he, where are you?" I said.

"Not yet to tell Rin, maybe his clients are many" he replied.

"On the phone, Mom Mas, Rinda was worried there was nothing with auntie, uh mother hehehe" I said and laughed at the wrong call

"Vano moved to the room?" ask Mas Arif

Then carrying Vano into the room, before long Arif returned to the family room

"Rin." call him.

"What my husband" I said spoiledly leaning my head on his shoulders.

"Cold" whispered.

I smiled at my husband and I kissed his lips, suddenly the sound of the gate opening, it seemed like Mom was coming, immediately we took off the kiss and pretended to look at the tv.

Mom went inside.

"Where's vano?" said

"Have you slept, I'm home at this hour?" ask Arif.

"Rif... You, look at the rape news again rame?" ask Mother.

"Yes why?" ask Mas Arif.

I clasped Mas Arif's hand harder, maybe the woman is like me, my inner self.

"So suicidal want to crash into the train, fortunately there are residents who save, now in the hospital is given tranquilizers" Mother's story.

"I went upstairs first huh." said Mother and stepped up the stairs.

"Rin... What's wrong?" my many.

"Here you are, do not be afraid anymore, there I am beside you to take care of you, learn to make peace with the past even though it hurts" said Mas Arif.

"Let's eat!" take Arif and stand up to the dinner table, I follow him from behind, I take the plate and I get the rice for my husband.

"You eat with my husband" I said smilingly taking a spoon and taking a meal from Arif's plate, smiling Arif saw me

"This two plates is the story?" said Mas Arif, I nodded my head and smiled.

Time showed ten o'clock in the night, and Arif carried me into the room I laid my hands around my husband's neck, laid my body on the bed, kissed my lips, I enjoyed it.

"Darling.i love you" said mas Arif so calmed my soul.

Touch after touch trying to enjoy letting go of all my fears, I have to be able to beat my trauma, this is my husband, I love him not hate him, the shadow continues in my memory I tried to humiliate him but reappeared, he said, I should be able to, I should be able to, my tears running down my cheeks, I should be able to.

"Rinda.... still not ready?" ask Mas Arif and I open my eyes

"Continue mas." I said slowly but

the shadow kept haunting me

"Don't.don't." I said.

"Rin.. open your eyes Rin.." said Mas Arif, I held him crying in his arms.

"Pardon me, I keep trying to beat this trauma, I can't" I said.

"Rin. I'm patiently waiting, you can little by little beat your trauma, definitely it" he said.

"Let's sleep baby, here I hug my wife my bidadar" said Mas Arif and hugged me affectionately.

"Tomorrow you work?" ask Arif.

"Yes, but I'm taking you?" my door.

"Are you really ready to go to work?" tanyakanya.

"God willing" I answered smilingly into my husband's arms and fell asleep.

******

In the morning as usual after the dawn prayer, I helped his mother mas Arif cook and then prepare Vano provisions.

"Rinda... Are you really ready to work?" ask Mother.

"Yes ma'am, Rinda is ready, if Rinda at home is sad again" I said..

"You must be strong Rin, you must be able to defeat your fear" Mother encouraged me.

"Yes, Miss God" I said.

I went to the room, saw that Arif was still lazing, Vano had a neat breakfast.

"Mas..kok still lounging, not so between me work also Vano school?" my many.

"Wait for you to finish" he said.

"Not showered?" I asked, she shook her head, hugged me

"Bau Mas, take a bath there" I said.

"You're bathing, huh?" said.

"So another baby yes" I said while wearing a headscarf.

"Of Mas shower is seven more this time" I said, but did not answer and grabbed me from behind.

"Rin.. Don't work? accompany me at home" he said.

"Mas... Do I take a leave of absence?" I said.

"It's okay Rin" my husband said.

"I keep telling you how Mas, our marriage license hasn't come down" I said.

"Here you bring, later I call you, want to send thanks to your office" said Mas Arif while giving

paper from the Religious Office yesterday.

"Come on... Take me" I said.

"Let's go" said Mas Arif.

"Not a gini bath?" my many.

"He he he later took a shower, so your smell is still stuck in my body" he said grinning

Get out of the house to the car and leave us to the office, after Mas Arif drove Vano to school and then drove me to work, I got off in the car park.

"Rin.." said Mas Arif not yet I answered he had kissed me

"Don't work long, I miss" he said, smiling at my husband's behavior, kissing the back of his hand, opening the car and heading to the office, I turned my body to face Arif's car and I waved my hand at Arif's mas, I love you my inner hubby.