The Single Parent

Misunderstand

In the family room, I sat on the sofa while watching a tv show, actually just looking at it but my mind to my husband's talk just now, just now, she used to want to have a child from me and then I got pregnant and miscarried, but now I don't seem to want it, even though I myself want to have a child with her immediately, she said, why every day make love many times if not to have children? married people are also intended to breed, does he make love every day just for fun? I don't know.

Questions one by one came to my mind.

When Mas Arif came to me and sat beside me.

“Rin, have any of my words offended you?” ask Mas

Arif slow.

“Nothing Mas” replied me.

“Don't lie to me Rin, I've known you for a long time

your character, there must be something that you pendam” asked Mas Arif back.

“No Why, let's eat” I said with a smile in front of Mas Arif trying to divert his question.

Mas Arif looked at me with a disappointed look and said.

“If you don't want to tell a story it's up to!” while standing at the dinner table, taking the plate and taking the rice and the side dish myself, but every time I take it, I know he wants me to be frank with my heart.

We ate without any sound or conversation at all, Vano was still engrossed in playing and watching tv shows.

I saw that Mas Arif had finished eating, he stood up from his chair and headed to the sink to wash his own dishes and then left the house.

Looking at his attitude that was so upset that I didn't know where he was going, I heard the sound of my motorcycle and slowly left the house, now this house feels empty.

Vano.

“Mother was Dad out where?” ask Vano.

I silently looked at Vano's face, as if he understood that his parents were fighting, and then I answered his question.

“Vano..Daddy out there is need, later also go home, you eat ya?”

“Iya Mommy, but Vano asks for a bribe yes!” vano Pinta.

I walked up to the plate rack and picked up the plate then the rice and side dishes that Vano wanted and then I started to feed it.

“Vano after this let's sleep yes, it's eight o'clock, Vano tomorrow will join the drawing race yes!” I said remind Vano.

“Iya Bunda” replied Vano.

Finished feeding Vano, I cleaned the dinner table and brought some dirty bowl dishes and washed them in the sink.

“Vano let's sleep” take me when approaching Vano, then Vano turn off the tv and walk to his room.

Vano slumped his body and embraced the bolts, before long his eyes were closed, I covered his body and I kissed his forehead, Vano, you are my spirit, my inner being.

Mas Arif has not come home, I took ablution and prayers of his own, my unhappiness caused my initial turmoil when my marriage was only five months running.

Oh Allah... What should I do? if I had been honest with him would it have solved the problem? I really wanted to get a child from her, whereas she didn't really want to because pity me for bothering to take care of two children, did she think I was that weak? my heart.

I don't feel my tears dripping, yes I'm crying sad.

I took my face off and tidied it up and put it in its place, I walked towards the front door to close the door, and I laid my body in the guest chair.

I was waiting for my husband to come home, I wanted to call him but I was afraid of the answer that would be bad to hear.

Time showed that at nine o'clock in the evening Mas Arif had not come home yet, I began to feel sleepy and I finally fell asleep in the guest chair.

I heard the door open, maybe my husband came home, but my eyes were heavy for me to open.

My husband took my body to the bedroom.

“Rin” whispered slowly.

“I'm home, wake up” whispered again.

I turned my body back to my husband and hugged a roll, my tears dripping.

“Rin speak” said Mas Arif while shaking my body.

“You're crying?” ask Arif again.

I just keep quiet.

“Honey let's talk, what's odd to you, don't shut up and cry like this” said Mas Arif while hugging my body from behind.

“I'm sorry my wife, I was out not anywhere just sitting around in the juice cafe, rather than at home seeing you like that and making me angry with you” he explained.

I was still silent, my mind, yes in the cafe while looking at the women whose clothes were open.

“Sayang speak” said Mas Arif again.

I sobbed more and more crying and hugging my husband's body, Mas Arif wiped my tears with his hands looking at me with a gentle look.

I opened my lips and said slowly.

“I want a child Mas”

“But Mas doesn't seem to want it” continued my words.

Mas Arif let out a long sigh and hugged my body even tighter then kissed my cheeks and these tiny lips.

“Rin” call him slowly.

“You misunderstood my words earlier” said Mas Arif.

I was still silent and speechless just waiting for Mas Arif's next words.

“Rin, I also want a child from you, married one of the goals is to get descent” said Mas Arif.

“Why do you have a thought that I don't want a child from you?” ask Mas Arif.

“Tadi afternoon that Mas talked about like that, as if Mas didn't want me to get pregnant” said I.

“Rin..I do so because I love you, you do not misunderstand” said Mas Arif.

“You know what I think? if you have children, obviously you are very busy even to take care of yourself maybe there is no time, while I am far from you” said Mas Arif.

“Rin.. I do not want a maid because I want the one who educates my son is my own wife, I don't want my son to be close to anyone else not to my wife or me as his father” said Mas Arif again.

“I don't want to trouble you Rin, if you get pregnant and give birth, I want you out of your workplace” said Mas Arif.

“If I can't keep working I just take care of the kids? Mas think I'm not bored at home continue not to meet the people” said I with annoyance

“Rin, I just saw there is a land that is sold quite widely also for business, there you can open Rin store or we make a boarding place, or later if the children are older you enter the place of Ibu” said Mas

“Mom only come home sometimes nights so how about the kids” I said.

“The mother came home late because as a psychiatrist, if the management is like your current activities, you can take assistant” said Mas Arif gave an idea.

Enter the idea of my husband, I have misunderstood him.

“Mas... forgive Rinda huh? because I misunderstood you” I said slowly.

"Yes my wife, I am also sorry, should not leave the house before we finish our problem" Mas Arif said while kissing my forehead.

"I'm sorry, too, but I was wrong not to tell you what was in Rinda's heart" I said.

"Other times we have to be more open and honest" said Mas Arif.

"Let's sleep, tomorrow you can work permit, you take Vano to the Square I want to find the land info that is sold" said Mas Arif.

"Yes Mas" I said as I entered my husband's arms and fell asleep.