The Single Parent

The Past Part 1

Tonight, suddenly the events of 4 years ago danced in my memory.

were it not for that event there could not have been Vano nor could I have married the man, these tears must have fallen if they remembered the event.

Four years ago...

I don't really know Vano's father

it was after work rainy weather I happened not to take a motorcycle I went home on public transportation when waiting for public transportation suddenly there was a man riding his motorcycle towards me, heading towards me, I don't know who he is because he's wearing a helmet

"Wanna go home?" sapana.

"Yes" I replied in a tweet.

"I'm taking ya?" reply

I know he's a guy who often hangs out at a coffee shop near my workplace that often teases me but I never respond, because the old transportation I finally realized.

On the way home, we talked lightly.

"You're often alone.

singles huh?" ask the man.

"Oh no" I answered accordingly.

"If I like you how?" ask the man.

Ish. nggombal this guy I thought.

"What are you talking about?" ketus.

"Where is this going, not where is my house going, where are you taking me?"my many.

"There's something I'm going to take" he replied.

I was silent but my feelings were bad, the motorbike went into a small alley and stopped at a house I also did not know the area here, we went down and he unlocked the door of the house.

I asked him.

"Is this your home?" he nodded slowly.

"Oh yeah we haven't been acquaintances" he said.

"Whose name?" ask her.

"I am Arinda" I replied.

"I'm Ardi" he said.

"For a while I made you drink sit first" he said as he walked to the back of his house while I sat in the living room, the clothes I was wearing were a little wet in the rain, shortly thereafter Mas Ardi came to me and gave me a glass of warm tea.

Then I drank a warm tea made by Ardi quite able to warm my body after the rain I thought.

"Thank you" I said.

"Oh, that's okay" he replied.

Not long after drinking the tea, I want to go home soon but why my head feels so dizzy and my eyes feel so heavy want to sleep it feels.

I don't know what happened after this

When I woke up.

I looked around, my clothes, I was in a room with Mas Ardi without a single shirt and there was blood around my shame and still pain.

"Astaghfirullah, what are you doing? how insolent of you, where am I" I asked.

My crying broke instantly.

As if the world was destroyed all over me I kept crying, Mas Ardi just kept quiet near me, when he wanted to hug me I shouted let go I dodged from him while looking for anything that could cover my body, I sat glued.

"I'm sorry. "that was the first word that came out of Mas Ardi's mouth.

I don't care if I keep crying regretting why I wanted to be hugged until this happened.

"You know I don't like you almost every day I watch you but you never respond, I want to marry you" she said

"What....?" ask me to be surprised

"What in this way can you get my love

so insolent where is your heart why are you breaking me, what is my fault with you?

is it because I never cared about your calling and you thought I didn't like it and you raped me in this way to make me love? so crafty your mind

I never loved you

where are my clothes, I want to go home, don't bother me anymore" I said in tears.

I kept crying, I just wanted to end my life.

"Whatever happens to you I'm responsible" he said.

I'm silent not to rub him.

"Where are my clothes" I asked in annoyance, he walked up to my clothes and left me alone.

When it shows at 11pm I don't know what to do or how, my parents aren't looking for me? my mind and I took the bag, I saw my phone, my parents actually called me many times and there was an incoming message asking for my whereabouts, wanting to stab his heart with a knife to die this man.

After that incident I chose to lock myself and be more quiet I feel my body is dirty even though I shower many times I feel still dirty, and continue to hate him.

When leaving and coming home from work always meet Ardi I hate him so much that to avoid him I intend to resign from my job.

One afternoon after work as usual Ardi was around my work like a lack of work when I saw him only my hatred deepened.

Some days my body is not good but anyway I have to go to work because the report must be completed that day

coming home from work as usual I was on foot waiting for the transport a thousand times Ardi offered to take me home I did not pengubrisnya I still remember and hate the events a month ago

I walked out why my eyes were twitching so badly that I fainted

aware of the fainting I was in the clinic not far from where I work next to me there is Ardi, I was silent my heart still hurt once to remember the event

a nurse came to see us,

"Mom is conscious? can I go to the bathroom?" ask the nurse to me and I will obey her.

I followed the nurse, on the way to follow the nurse, asking when I had my last period, and the nurse gave me a small container for a quiz with my water, and handed it to the nurse, soon I was on my way back to where I was waiting for the next one, and the nurse who had met me came back again.

"Your mother survived your wife pregnant your wife is 4 weeks pregnant" said the nurse.

My eyes opened without saying anything

I'm pregnant my inner self.

At that moment these tears could not be contained anymore, how shameful I was also my family

after I finished my administration out of the clinic Ardi walked behind me I never cared about him

because my condition is not healthy I was escorted Ardi home.

When I arrived at the house I went straight to my room

while Ardi met both of my parents intending to propose to marry me.

"I'm sorry, I'm not rejecting Ardi's good intentions but please both of your parents come here" my father said.

Soon Ardi announced his promise to come back here again with his parents.

I'm still in the room stroking my belly this fetus is not wrong nothing not feel tears fall on my cheeks, why life is not fair at all why I have to marry in this way, why, why don't I marry someone I really love.

After I passed out the next day I resigned from the company I worked for, two weeks later I married Ardi, I didn't know how to love someone I never loved, I love the father of the child I bear.

Some day...

"Rinda.... You've become my wife am I someone you can't forgive?" said Mas Ardi.

I just kept silent a thousand languages, my heart still hurts so much, I know now he is my husband and it is my destiny I must try to be his good wife.

"I'm sorry, I'm going to learn to accept you" I said.

The day of the moon changed the month came when I gave birth with all the struggles of a mother giving birth to a tiny baby boy that we named Vano Arif Firmansyah.