The Single Parent

Bickering

When I got home I opened the turnstile put the bike in the garage and then closed the turnstile back and into the house, Vano engrossed in playing on the family room carpet, it looks like he got a new toy, it looks like he got a new toy, I don't see Mas Arif there.

I opened the bedroom door to meet my husband who was smiling to welcome me I was smiling, yes a smile could be said so, then I sat on the chair unbuttoned my hijab. There is still no talk between us.

I stood up from the chair and intending to put my veil on the hanger, my husband hugged me from behind and whispered.

"Rin.. don't be angry anymore, my husband if you make it like this is also not good, how long have you been quieting me, I miss your smile?"

I just shut up and let go of his embrace and sat down on the chair after putting my hood on the hanger.

"You miss me, do you miss him?" my answer is still irritated, yes between annoyance and jealousy.

"Rin, why are you bringing up my past?' ask Mas Arif.

"Because your past is secretive, full of twists and turns" I said with annoyance.

"How should I do this?" ask Arif again.

"It's up to Mas" I replied and passed away leaving my husband for the bathroom.

My husband's hand pulled my wrist and again I fell in his arms.

"Don't avoid trouble" said Mas Arif.

"Not shy but lazy to talk about it" I said again.

"You want to know how far my past is, I'm ready to tell it" said Mas Arif slowly.

"There's no need, Mas, just keep reminiscing about your beautiful past, it's worth ten years you've forgotten me and it was during that time that you were having fun with other women" I said still angry.

"After you've been disappointed or maybe you've been abandoned, your women are looking for me" I said.

Mas Arif did not answer my words immediately, but still hugged my body in his lap.

"Have released this hand, if Mas wants to go back with him please, I'm used to myself, I'm used to being disappointed, I've also been commonly hurt, don't seduce me" I said.

Mas Arif hugged me harder and resuscitated his head on my shoulder, kissed my cheek, I was quietly treated like that without any recompense for him.

"Rin... I'm out of touch with my past, I've left everything behind, why are you taking issue with it?" whispered Mas Arif.

"Have you ever felt like you lost me for as long as you didn't find me for ten years like you lost that woman you slept with" I said.

"Rinda, you don't know what I felt back then, you love me, you really fought until today" he said.

"Don't need your seduction, I'm going home tomorrow to my parents, if Mas wants to find your love please" I said again.

"I don't allow you" Mas Arif replied firmly.

"Why?" my many.

"Because you are my wife and forever you are my wife" replied Mas Arif.

"Continue?" askaku.

"I just want you now and forever" he replied.

"Rin... How many times have I told you, I have no contact with him, how many times have I told you? you are my only wife in my life" she replied.

I just kept quiet, my heart was still very angry, she married me but her heart still thought of another woman.

"Yes in the marriage book I am your wife, not in your heart, in your heart there is still another woman who is always on your mind" I said again after a long sigh.

I stood up from my husband's lap and headed for the bathroom, where I sobbed in tears, if last night I didn't wake up and find him smoking in the back of the house and he's not talking about that woman maybe I don't know how Mas Arif was so reminded of that woman.

I live long distance whether I also know what he's like out there, do I know if he still likes to contact the woman, while I myself rarely see the contents of the phone, he said, am I too stupid and too trusting of my husband, so I can easily believe his words, even when I was a school with me he was often sent breakfast with his friend who liked it so much I did not know.

Shower faucet I turn on I cry as much as I am in the shower, I don't know how long I've been in this bathroom, I've been feeling cold but I'm reluctant to go out the bathroom, I don't know how long I've been in this bathroom, I took the towel I wrapped around my body, I sat in the seat I had closed, I stayed there glued, was I too jealous, my mind.

The bathroom door was knocked from the outside, I knew it was my husband, I let it go.

"Rinda.

I didn't answer.

Worrying about what you are with me, only in your mouth, while in your heart still thinking about other women, my mind.

"Rinda, I broke down this door" said Mas Arif.

Rather than being discovered by Vano and my mother-in-law, I would rather go out and open the door, my mind.

I put my feet in a towel because my clothes were wet.

I opened the bathroom door, and looked at my husband who looked worried at the door, I didn't talk even once, I walked to the closet to change clothes, it was nice in the wife's house, my mind, so the man is the real one, the mouth likes it here, the heart still thinks there.

Mas Arif approached me as I put on a bra, then hugged me from the front.

"Rin, until when are you like me, I'm sorry, your attitude like this really hurt me" said Mas Arif slowly.

"You think your attitude like that doesn't hurt me, either?" my answer.

The tighter my husband hugged me then kissed my lips gently and let go.

"Rin.. have not been angry again, you ask me to follow" he said again.

"I ask to return to my parents' house now" I asked with teary eyes.

"No, I won't return you to your parents' house, you're my wife, I love you so much" replied Mas Arif.

"The love you forced" I said again.

"Rin, how else do I have to let you trust me?" ask Mas Arif.

"Leave me, and come back to the woman you've been a virgin to, pity her life, her honor has been lost because of you, surely you've loved so much until that happened, I know you still think of her" I answered and then I let go of my husband's embrace and put on my shirt.

After wearing clothes I went out of the bedroom to the garden behind the house sitting there while looking at the foliage that was illuminated by the lights of the garden.

Long enough I was there, my husband did not come to me, the house was lonely, I did not know how long I was here, the feeling of the Adhan is a long time ago, Vano also did not look for me, let it be.

I just want to calm my heart down here until late at night.