The Short Poetry Collection

Wearied

I want to disappear from this world for a moment

I'm tired of facing

Want to go somewhere lonely

So that I can be alone

Wanted to disappear in the dark

Then fall asleep soundly

So that I can dream for a moment

Leaving a lost world

This fatigue is back melting

After a long time not engraved

Until the eyes shed water

Never stop rolling

Silent, empty, without time

Not hungry, not thirsty

Stationery and book paper

Just sit still, dumbstruck

There is such a space

I want to get out of life

But I don't want to die first

I want to be happy with my life

No more happy intake

The one I thought I could, is gone

Pretending to have forgotten to recognize

Assume I've lost swallowed up the earth

It didn't turn out like I thought

Just pretend to be tough and stoic

My heart is often broken

Friends instantly disappear instantly

When I started telling stories

Ends with silence

Then, choose to replace

It doesn't matter, though,

It's useless, though,

It will not be appreciated, though,

It's worth it like this

I'm tired of being a good person

Wanted to be evil, but the heart could not

I can't hurt anyone else

Maybe it was his destiny

It's exhausting. Really am. I'm tired, tired, tired. Sad, but unable to cry. Angry, but can't scream. But that's not difficult. An actor can do it easily. Oh, of course you are. He is trained, unlike me who is amateur.

Actually, what am I less than everyone else? It feels like you guys are not friends with me. I am kind, smart, ready to help, like a friend and a good person. Or maybe you don't look at me the way I look at myself. Then, say! What do you see in me? What are my shortcomings that you cannot accept?

Alright, alright. Maybe I don't deserve to be compared to you. But, why are you just using me? Came when need and vanished without use when self is need. Oi! I'm a human, not a criminal let alone a ghost who's gonna hurt you. Every time I ask, it is always answered. "Not knowing", "I'm busy", "Try him", "Wait" (you don't get answered), "Just read". Every time they ask, I try to answer. "I searched the internet, like gini-", "It's like-so-blabla", and other answers that fit the question. Even if I don't know, I'll try to find out. Not like you guys.

I'm proud of myself, aren't I? Yes, it's me. I like to be proud of myself. Yes, this is the most likely reason. The reason why they are reluctant to make friends, reluctant to help, reluctant to do something for me. But forget about that. If I had helped, shouldn't you have helped back? Okay, that's not his name. But, I'm sincere. Indeed you are not upset if you have helped, but when you ask for help even ignored?

Even if I am sincere, the pain remains. Okay, maybe not really sincere. But at least I helped, didn't I? It's sometimes forced to help, but it's more useful for him than I'm just silent. Holy hooch! I'm weary. Weary. Dingy.

Fighting with yourself is exhausting. When you feel sad, it makes you sad. Not helping at all. Totally parasitic. Parasites are sometimes good and sometimes evil.

For you, who are feeling tired of life, stress because of something, heartbreak because of breaking up, and all the sadness, anger, disappointment that you are experiencing. Know, you are not alone! I will never be alone!

The spirit of living life because I am too! Take a break if you can't continue. However, that does not mean you have to die so that you can rest. I'm sure you're strong, very strong. I love you all, from author❤