The Short Poetry Collection

Dilemmas

I like a woman. I liked him so much that I wanted to have him. However, there was one problem that continued to debate my wishes. The woman had a lover.

Now, as usual, I'm in a coffee shop with a friend of mine. He immediately shook his head repeatedly when he finished hearing my story about the woman.

"Tama, Tama, until when do you want to complain it's a girl? You know the situation yourself, right? She has a boyfriend, what else do you want to expect?"

"Lo, mah, always do! There is no support at all. Tie the cake suggestion, what cake."

"I'm just asking for advice that the end is not done." He sneered.

"That's why we're getting constructive advice, don't drop it."

"You want to get excited about calling her boyfriend? Perverted my dong! The only advice that is most constructive is to lose your feelings as much as possible! He won't like you either."

"Who said? He likes me, proof he wants me to take the road tomorrow."

"Emang fit means, equally not really. Huh, ah! I'll pull it off, go the same way." He just left by holding his motor key.

I took a deep breath, feeling more and more dizzy with my own feelings. I have told Genta many times about the woman. The reaction is more or less the same. I'm also sure he must be tired of hearing my story that's still stuck there. But I need support. The support for my heart's decision that I know is clearly wrong. Genta was right, but doing so was certainly not as easy as the words that came out of his mouth.

This feeling just keeps expanding without me being able to control it. It hurt to see him with his girlfriend. However it seems, my heart is already immune enough to withstand the scratches of the wound.

It often comes to mind to stop expecting himself, but the results are free. In fact, my heart still wants it more. No matter what the pain.

Torn in the flow of heart and logic

The heart says yes

But logic opposes it

Confusing its owner

Which one should follow

Love is heartwarming

Blinded senses

Blurring logic

Hearts continue to grow

Although, he knew the pain

Logic is silent

He knew he wouldn't win

Even though his love is dark

Winning a match of feelings

I walked out of the coffee shop and accidentally passed by Hera, the woman I liked. He was with his girlfriend.

"Hi, Tam! You want to go home?" ask Hera friendly.

I had to stop my steps and try to answer normally, "Yes! Why?"

"Nothing. If so, let's go in first, okay? See you tomorrow!"

Only a forced smile could I give, then go back to continue my steps that had stopped. Another thing that makes me feel guilty. The way I approached Hera was quite blatant and strangely her boyfriend was not at all disturbed by it. This dilemma is becoming.

***

The sky looks lonely tonight. There are no moons, stars, or clouds. I was standing facing the window with my phone in my hand. Reflecting on the message I just received. I kept rereading the last message from Hera that canceled the appointment. He said that tomorrow he would go with his girlfriend. I object, I'm jealous. But who am I? Just a friend to him.

Unknowingly, tears trickled down and I immediately guessed. This is not the first or second time, but the pain is still the same. It hurts so much, my heart still wants to have it. My logic knew that would never happen.

Let the pain

Just enjoy it

Because in the end

It's gonna end, too

Tired will feel

That moment arrived

Your heart will lose

Now the task of logic

Wrongly

Slowly too

You will get used to it

Back to being

Hi, people! I'm back, hehe. This chapter is a request from one of you. Hopefully it can be fulfilled and satisfied with the story, yes! Keep your health in check because it is important. I'm waiting for the theme of the story from all of you. See you!

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