The Short Poetry Collection

See you around

I was in a secret relationship with no status, no one knew. No, not an affair. Only a pair of friends who like each other and not attached any status.

He and I are not dating, not even wanting to. But we're not kidding either. Let's just say, we both keep commitments. We wanted to keep everything secret about this unclear relationship. Absolutely everything, starting from the content of our conversation and the attitude of each other between us in the real world, everything no one knows. At least, until then.

It was a time when friends knew about our relationship. Then, one of them typed something in our class group, sending us a photo of the contents of our conversation. I don't know where he got it. I saw it, of course, surprised. So did he. He scolded me in a private chat. I tried to explain it, telling him I didn't know myself either. However, he did not believe me and immediately ended our relationship. Not by saying 'DISCONNECT', of course not. Wh why? Because from the beginning, we were never bound. He ended it in his own way, a way that hurt me.

Every time I chocked it, he just read the message, no reply. Every time I called her, it never picked up. Of course not because of busy or other things, but intentionally. It was intentionally not lifted. For a month I tried to contact him in any way, from chatting, to calling, to his home. But, it's all the same. No reply, no words for me from him.

I don't know what's wrong. I mean, what's wrong if people find out about this relationship? Why do you want this relationship to be so secretive? As of now, to the point where we've been separated for a long time, I still don't know the answer. I don't think I'll ever know either because I never understood you.

*I didn't mean anything

I don't know the cause

I don't even know what we are

Are we still together or is it the opposite?

I'm not demanding your certainty

I also keep my promise

Promise not to tell

But I still don't know

Don't know who the mastermind is

Don't know where it came from

Don't know what the motive is

Really, this is not what I meant

I just keep those memories

Keep it in my gallery

And who knows only me

Really, it's not my fault

Why you should hate me

Then, leave without helping

And threw everything at me

Maybe this is the time

A time where I should say

Saying with tears

Then, say 'See you*'

A month I tried to get a reply from him and I never got it. Until I finally found out, I knew this was how it ended. The end between me and him. The end of our relationship is never clear. Even after it ended, it remained equally unclear.

Maybe this is the time, the time I have to go with the word 'See you later' that is never avenged. I apologize to you for never being able to fully understand you. Never understand the reasons that are present in every event. Thank you for being such a special person to me, even if you're nobody. I hope you are happy where you are now. Happy with all the choices you make. I hope no regrets come from that choice.

See You~