The Short Poetry Collection

Status Awaiting

I'm Dea. I hope you don't forget this name. If you forget, please go back to reading "Waiting for Love" to remember again. In short, I was a friend of Gea who was hanging by the gebetan. Habin.

It's been months since Habin approached me for the first time. Even now, we are close. Close in the sense of friends, but it feels too close if only friends. However, Habin certainly wasn't my girlfriend because he never shot me directly. This is where I'm stuck right now, relationship without status. Friends are too close, boyfriends are not yet. Sometimes the question of the status of my relationship with Habin is enough to make me confused myself, sometimes even to the point of being unclear.

"Kok Habin won't shoot me either, will he?" whining for my two best friends.

"If he does not shoot, you will shoot" said Gea lightly.

"Gue, right, not lo, Ge. Besides, when's the girl who shot the guy?" dumelku.

"Watch a girlfriend, anyway. Why why?" Vinda's turn of opinion.

"Engga. What if she doesn't think I'm a boyfriend? I'm ashamed of dong?"

"Old lo! I asked Habin." Gea prepared to shout her name, but I was better prepared to cover her mouth with my hands.

"Shhh! Huff up and yell, Ge! Aye, yes. I'll ask myself, "my final. Although not yet certain I will actually ask Habin.

You guys must understand the risk I'd get if I suddenly asked that? If you don't change your status, you change the situation. Habin could have just walked away and I wouldn't have been able to do anything. However, if I do not ask, I too will be confused and hurt by my own thoughts. Thought something was bad, didn't it?

On Sunday night, Habin took me out to eat and walk for a while. We ate at a restaurant that was not too crowded. After eating, we went to the park. He said there was live music and food stalls.

"You go there often?" ask me while on the way. I deliberately raised my voice so that Habin could hear in between the noise of the streets.

"Engga. It's the first time. My friend's recommendation, suitable for malmingan he said. So, I'm taking you, "he replied who was also a little yelling.

"What are we really, anyway?" my question is not very connected, this time with a normal volume.

Honestly, after that sentence came out of my mouth, I was surprised too. It could be important sentences as soon as I say it, in the middle of the road too. If Habin hears, it's awkward for tonight's activities this week.

"What's? What are you talking about?" his yell.

"Nothing to say. You hear what?" reply shouted. I had to lie because I wasn't ready to hear an answer from him.

He shook. Then, the atmosphere was quiet between the two of us. Only the sound of a vehicle horn fills our sense of hearing. Luckily Habin didn't hear my spontaneous words.

Ten minutes later, we arrived at the park. Habin clasped my hand and walked towards a place already filled with many people. I always liked the sweet treatment. Even if it's just a hand or something small, it can make me calm and feel special in life. For a moment I could stop wondering about the status of the two of us.

Question mark in the head

Disappear as they please

Surprisingly, I speak a thousand languages

Swallowing my wild bitterness

Compared to asking you

I don't want to stretch

Don't want you to disappear

We have to keep having fun

Together, they create the seeds of romance

Though long, I waited for him

I'd better hang on

Than being tormented by regrets

After all, with you I am happy

Building boundaries, not to be crossed

If you hear

If you read

If you feel more

I won't be upset

Waiting for the endless

Sometimes it makes me almost crazy

We sat on one of the benches provided by the food booth there. Waiting for a burger with fries is done cooking.

"You still hungry?" I asked Habin. He ordered a burger and it was no ordinary burger. He ordered a double barbeque beef which was quite high. We also ate at the restaurant.

He chuckled for a while and replied, "That's it, but it's not full yet."

I can only shake my head. "Relax, I'll pay for everything. Not accepting rejection" he continued.

The condition of the Habin family is quite located, even fairly rich. However, he remains humble and behaves as a high school boy. That's what I like about him. My point is I like his humble attitude, even though he comes from a family that is. It's not that I like her rich self because I'm not a woman who's crazy about possessions.

After getting our order, Habin suddenly discussed the last conversation on the bike. About my question regarding the status of both of us. He asked me what I was asking at the time. I immediately stopped feeding the fries into my mouth.

"You come here often or not, right? You answered," I said pretending not to know.

"Masa, anyway? I think I heard you had another one, huh. After you ask that." Habin doesn't believe it.

"Engga. You may have heard it wrong" I argue.

Habin surrender. He went back to eating his burger, and so did I who returned to bribe the fries while trying to calm down. Then, I doubted the fact about Habin not hearing my question because not long after, he asked again like this.

"Anyway, what do you think I am?" the sudden question that almost choked me. He hooked up again, "Suddenly think, anyway. So then?"

I didn't answer because I was still chewing. Besides, I was also confused as to what to answer. So I decided to ask back. "What do you think of me yourself?" I said after swallowing my food, trying to stay calm.

Habin seemed to think and look up into the sky. But I waited anxiously. Afraid the answer did not match my expectations or my assumptions all this time.

"If I consider you a girlfriend, will you?" tanyakanya. His face seemed to tease me so much that I doubted the truth. So, I just kept quiet so as not to be ashamed of myself.

"By engga? We've been together a long time, but there's no clarity, right? I want to be clear now. You want me to consider you my girlfriend?" Now, Habin looks more serious. He had also put his burger back on a paper plate and leaned his body towards me.

I'm silent. My brain is frozen. All of my body stiffened and seemed unable to move. Finally, I could only nod once in response. It was also with great difficulty because my tongue was still confused to say "Yes" directly.

Habin clenched his hands while muttering "Yes!" before returning to say, "Now have you answered the question, Princess? Our status now is courtship."

"You heard it?" I was surprised, even though I thought so. Habin's response was to laugh.

I can feel my face warm. The color may also turn red. My heart was pounding faster too. As it turns out, the result of my waiting was not bad.

**Hi, all! How are you doing? Time goes fast, huh? It's March now. How's February? Fun or even sad? Anyway, hopefully this month there are a lot of good things coming to you.

Sorry for the new**update**new chapter again. You must be tired of hearing my apologies, so thank you to those who keep waiting and reading.

Among you, has anyone ever experienced the same thing as Dea? Live a relationship without status and always ask for certainty. Certainly not all stories end happily like Dea because the happy ones are only in the story. You can tell your HTS experience in the comments or **request the next theme. I'm waiting for your story and request. Bye bye!

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