The Short Poetry Collection

Transparent

If only I had left this world, would there have been someone crying over that departure? Many times that question has crossed my head. It has appeared hundreds of times and gone hundreds of times without an answer. It's as hard to answer, or it might actually be easy, but I don't want to accept that answer and go back looking for a new answer.

By ourselves. I often feel alone here, even though the earth is crowded by an ever-increasing sea of people. Getting used to being abandoned, getting used to being the last option for people, getting used to being ignored. Maybe it's not entirely their fault, maybe it's my fault too. I was too cool to shut up and listen when everyone chose to tell a story. I'm too cool with my own world when everyone's having fun together. So, I was always alone and they were flocking.

Maybe that will make me find the answer. If only I had left this world, would there have been someone crying over that departure? There aren't. Wasn't I always alone? How can anyone cry if no one remembers me? Every day, I'm transparent. Unseen and unfeelable. So, there's nothing more I need to worry about, right? I don't have to feel guilty if I'm really gone. Nor do they need to waste their precious tears on someone as transparent as me.

"If so, I can go now. Goodbye, the world! Next, I hope we can be good friends." I dropped myself in while closing my eyes, ready to accept my new destiny down there.

Dark, lonely, empty

Running without chasing anything

Trying without knowing what he is doing

No more passionate desire

Still alive, but numb

I want to feel like closing my eyes

Forgetting everything

Then, just disappear

But, I don't want to go

Don't want to be alone anymore

So, I'm ending up here enough

My promise is no regret

Maybe you think I'm a fool

Also shallow minded

Throw those words

Calm down

My departure will not be felt

You can live as usual

I will be happy too

I am tired of the world

Something strange happened. I dropped my body forward, but I fell backwards. Is gravity not working properly? It's okay, I can do it again.

"What do you think, anyway?" shouted a man.

He seemed to be close to me because his voice was so loud. I opened my eyes and found someone I knew very well. "Oh, hi! It was you who broke the gravity of the earth" I said casually, then got up from his body.

He stood up and we stood face to face. I smiled, waiting for him to speak because he seemed to want to say something.

"You're crazy, huh? If I hadn't come, you would have...." He did not continue his words.

"I'm not crazy, Farel. And, I don't need you coming. I am glad I left this world. And, you should be, too" I said calmly.

I turned around, ready to jump for the second time. But that man is holding me back. He hugged me from behind, very tight.

"Why should I be happy if you leave?" lirih.

"Because no one would cry if I left."

"Who said? I cry when you leave. I'm sad that you're gone. So don't go!"

I'm stunned. "Are you crying?" I just can't believe it.

"What do you think I am doing now? A laugh? A smile? I cry again," he said in a bitter tone. Then, there was a voice that was sucking its own snot.

"Okay, I'm not leaving. Don't cry anymore! The world will be more evil to me for making others cry" I said, stroking her thick hair.