The Secret With Bad Boy

Deal

“So you want to go abroad?” asked Kinanti who looked at Kala in disbelief. The two teenagers were talking in the back garden. The cheerful atmosphere was suddenly tense after Kala admitted that he intended to study abroad.

“Yes, I thought I'd do it.” Kala looked at Kinanti who was looking at him with a turbulent taste.

Kinanti walked towards the swing and sat there. Staring at the flame of the garden lamp is round and yellowish in color. The girl did not look angry, but her face was also not a face that showed she was happy to hear the news. He was still surprised because Kala had never said anything about his college plans. He didn't even talk about the college scholarship he got.

"Nan," Kala approached the girl, staring at the pretty face that had no response whatsoever. "I promise, I won't leave you. You will still get attention from me and be my priority.” Kala rested before Kinanti, making the swing stop moving. He held the girl's hand and held her tightly.

“What goes abroad instead of leaving me?” kinanti's question sounds simple, but stifling.

When he did not answer immediately, he looked at Kinanti a few moments later bowed lethargic. He sought to gather strength not only to explain Kinanti, but also to strengthen her heart.

Kinanti fell silent. He looked at Kala who seemed to be at a loss for words. Just a moment ago Kinanti clearly saw the spark in Kala's eyes as she spoke with Bertha about her education plans and her future. Then, now the blaze of spirit seemed to start dimming. I don't know why Kinanti felt so unwilling. Just this time Kinanti saw the fierce spirit of Kala and it felt like she did not want to lose that spirit. And he realized, the simple question that he had asked, needed the right answer from Kala so that Kinanti did not misunderstand.

“You should have told me this the same Kal. Far-away. So that I can be prepared and not feel abandoned suddenly again.” Kinanti's heart softened by itself. He could not bear to see Kala lose his spirit just because of him. He knows exactly how that passionate feeling is present and does not appear all the time. It's just that, for a while, Kinanti felt that circumstances would steal Kala from her side.

“I'm sorry, I know I was wrong. I just haven't found the right time to tell you everything. I don't want my happiness to make you sad, Kinan.” Kala tightened his hand. The difference, he currently dared to look at a pair of clear netra belonging to Kinanti, to affirm his sentence.

“What is the exact time like? What kind of time are you waiting for? When you were suddenly at the airport or suddenly called me from abroad? The right time it should be created, not just in waiting, which in the end we just waste my time and make us start not believing in each other.” Kinanti's sentence sounded long with a disappointed tone. He had been faced with the conditions of waiting for the right time, but it made him feel so devastated. If you had known earlier, maybe all regret would never have existed.

When he nodded slowly, he admitted Kinanti's words correctly. This girl just lost someone in her life. Someone who means a lot and makes it worse. Kala did not have the heart to add to the burden of Kinanti's sadness.

“I'm sorry Nan, I'm really sorry. You are right, every opportunity should be created, not just in wait.” Kala chimed again with a sad face.

Kinanti exhaled violently, not having the heart to also see this sad Kala. “Why go abroad? What are you looking for there?” Kinanti gave a question that she thought was important to Kala.

Kala moved to sit next to Kinanti while holding her soft hand. “To take revenge on my mamahku husband.” Kala smiled bitterly at the end of her short sentence. He faced Kinanti and stared fixedly at the pair of eyes that always made him shady.

“The man always threatened me by saying that he would send me out of the country if I did not comply with his request or if I did not meet his expectations. According to him, he knows best what is best for me. Studying business and fulfilling his pride with many titles that I hold, like his stepdaughter's dream. He always wanted to separate me from mamah and make my life unsettled.”

“This time I want to fight all those intimidated feelings. I want to show that even if I have to go abroad, it's not because of her intimidation. But because I am indeed able to be a Kala that can be proud of, not only can be pressed at will.”

“I want to show that I am responsible for my own life, because I am able to take responsibility not because he forced me to be responsible. I wanted to tell her that her arrogance didn't apply to me. I know how to be the best version of myself, not according to him.”

This time, Kala spoke very long. It's not about Kinanti, it's not about their relationship. But about Kala who has a desire to improve his future. He wanted to avenge his beautiful revenge on Yudhishthira. He wanted to dismiss Yudhishthira who always said that he had a child who failed and could not be proud. Yes, as painful as that sentence that Yudhistira had said accompanied a slap that made the cavity of Kala's head rumble and his heart was broken.

Kinanti exhaled heavily. Although imagining Kala away from his life is very heavy, but imagining himself to be someone who breaks the dreams of people he loves, it feels much heavier. He realized that all this time Kala had done a lot for himself and Lukman, then what's wrong if Kala wants to do something for himself?

“Which country did you choose?” Kinanti's mind opened and it made Kala suddenly hug her tightly. She knew her heart wasn't that hard. Kinanti understood his desires.

“As I said, I left but not to leave you, Kinan. We'll meet again when we're both adults. You as a doctor and I will set up a game company according to my ideals.”

“In his journey, I will desperately need your presence. Because you are my inspiration and someone who makes me dare to dream even realize that dream.” Kala said with spirit. He broke his embrace from Kinanti and looked at the girl closely.

“Can you wait for me, Kinan?” Kala's gaze so locked onto Kinanti's pair of eyes.

Kinanti stared back at Kala, looking at her hand held tightly by the man who made her fall in love so deeply. Where could he possibly release the warmth and affection that Kala had been giving all this time.

“I want us to fight together, not only for our ideals but also for our relationship. If in the middle of the road you feel your feelings are changing and we are no longer in line, then say good to me. I don't want to tie someone up and force him to be next to me while he's unhappy.” Kinanti was so firm with her words.

Kala smiled slightly, then kissed Kinanti's hand without taking her eyes off the girl. “You should know, there is one secret I made with my father,” Kala paused his sentence for a while. His memory repeated the moment when Lukman told him a lot. One of them when Lukman asked what kind of relationship with Kinanti.

“Daddy was once the same me, how serious our relationship and I said, when I grow up I want to marry you.” Kala smiled proudly considering the moment.

“Daddy directly slapped my face softly. He said my dreams were too grandiose. Maybe one day I'll meet a woman who's prettier, smarter, better than her daughter. I was advised to withdraw my words.”

“Then I said to my father, I will definitely meet the women. But unfortunately, they are not my kinantai. So, I made it a secret with dad that I would secretly try to do better than that."

"I said that only Mr. Lukman's daughter who I will bet on, I love with all my heart, I take care, I love attention. Not a beautiful woman, a smart one and a good one. Except for a Kinanti who is in front of me right now. That's the secret I made with Dad. The secret and promise I made before Dad left. And I, will make that promise, Nan.”

Kala looked at Kinanti with great earnestness. He rubbed the cheeks of the girl who blushed reddish with his eyes that held haru. The girl did not chimed but instead chose to hug Kala.

“Prints you know are also stubborn and stiff. You can't say romantic things like you. Not good at making the atmosphere fun. You wanna bet on a girl like that?” Kinanti whispered in Kala's arms.

Kala smiled a little and then tightened his embrace on Kinanti. “What is important, Kinantai it is you and not others,” said Kala really. He rubbed Kinanti's head before then he kissed the girl's forehead feelingly.

They looked at each other for a while and smiled at each other.

“I love you, Nan.” Kala said from the bottom of his heart.

“I love you too, Kal.” Kinanti fulfilled it with complete confidence.

They throw each other a smile and make someone in there smile. “Jeez, Mom's son is an adult. I can promise you a woman,” murmured Bertha while wiping her tears. He patted his own chest, feeling the seething feeling that filled his chest. In his heart he promised that he would take good care of Kinanti.

****