The Secret With Bad Boy

Contrition

Regretfully, that feeling that Kala was currently feeling. The reason for Lukman, not only a hard blow for a Kinanti, but also for Kala. A good man who he had considered his own father, was at the crossroads of life that would either last a long time or not. A girl fell down and didn't know what to do.

From a distance Kala still noticed Kinanti who a moment ago threw him away and asked him to never come back. He was very sad to see Kinanti sitting alone with such an empty mind. It felt like he wanted to run and accompany Kinanti who was definitely lonely and frightened.

But what power. Currently Kala could only pay attention to Kinanti from a distance. He understood the true reason for Kinanti's anger. Disappointed to feel lied to and fooled by people he so loved and believed one of them was Kala himself.

Rubbing his face violently, Kala re-imagined what would happen if he told Kinanti sooner about her father's health condition. Will she not be as angry as she is now? Kala felt right that the anger of the patient who was disappointed was extraordinary. Murkanya Kinanti made the world of Kala feel like it was destroyed unceremoniously. It was only a few hours ago that he felt he had a full Kinanti, but now he felt so foreign. Does not recognize Kinanti who fortifies herself beyond anger.

Although he wanted to tell Kinanti about Lukman's true condition, but there are limits that he could never langar. Lukman's right to privacy and of course his promise to Lukman to keep all this a secret. Destroyed, of course. Disappointed, that's for sure, Kala could not deny that the feeling must have undergirded Kinanti's anger and the girl needed to come to terms with the situation especially at peace with herself who could not accept Lukman's condition of falling ill.

Feeling useless and stupid, two things that Kala had once felt. It was even still felt by Kala until now when he remembered the separation of his parents. If only Kala had been more accomplished and could have been more proud of his parents, would such a breakup not have happened?

When it hit, yes the teenager has started to slur. His mind swirled between his problem and the Kinanti problem. For now it is good Kala and Kinanti both calm themselves. He still has to prepare himself to be better prepared to face Kinanti if the condition of the girl is getting worse.

“I'm leaving, Nan. But I'm going back. The more often you refuse my presence, the more often I will come to see you.” It was Kala's promise in his heart.

He decided to go home first. He walked out of the hospital late in the night. He saw a sky so dark that it seemed like it was going to rain.

“Can't you wear a jacket?” Kala muttered to himself. He imagined that Kinanti might shiver. But, if he came back, would Kinanti accept it? Wouldn't the girl just reject him outright and make the girl run out of energy because her emotions are re-lured?

Eventually, Kala decided to leave. He could not force Kinanti to continue accepting it. Perhaps time will make Kinanti slowly accept it.

With Lukman's car, Kala leaves the hospital. He drove the old car to his house and returned it tomorrow. But only until the road, he remembered how the condition of the Kinanti house when abandoned. Maybe they didn't lock the door or the broken glass was still scattered on Lukman's floor.

Kala turned back the direction of the vehicle. He chose to go to Kinanti's house first. About fifteen minutes Kala had arrived at Kinanti's house. Sure enough, the door was unlocked, no lights were lit, the books from Kinanti's bag were scattered, including Kinanti's wallet and cell phone that were dead and scattered on the floor. It is also on the sofa. Kinanti really did not bring anything to the hospital other than her fragile self.

So Kala decided to clean it all up. He took a broom and a mop to clean things up. This is the first time Kala cleaned the house and not his own house, but the house of Kinanti. Maybe this does not help much, but Kala hopes this can reduce a little guilt for not being able to help much for her best friend and lover.

By midnight, it was all finished. Kala sat on the floor for a while, feeling tired in his new body felt. After his strength recovered, he decided to return home.

On the way home, Kala was still agitated. He misses someone who usually sits in his arms holding him. Then he chatted anything including occasionally singing songs up and up to the top of the mountain. He said it was the first song he had recorded in SD. Anxious, yes Kinanti is adorable. That is one of the reasons Kala misses Kinanti when only a few moments ago saw her.

The slow journey brought Kala to his home. The atmosphere was already very quiet. The people at home seem to have slept.

“Kal, just came home?” bertha's voice shocked the teenager.

“Iya, Mah. Mom hasn't slept?” Kala approached Bertha and kissed her forehead.

“Mamah has gone to sleep but woke up thirsty. Have you eaten?” Bertha looked at the face of her son who looked sad and tired.

“Udah Mah. When you want to enter first yes,” pamit Kala. He lied, he had no taste for food.

“Iya dear, rest yes...” Bertha's message with a small smile.

Kala just nodded, her lips were so hard to smile. He immediately went into his room and Bertha just looked at his son's shoulder with a feeling of uncertainty.

“Why are you, Kal?” Bertha asked the figure of Kala who had already entered her room. Only this time Bertha saw her son as sad as that.

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