The Pain of being Betrayed

Miscomprehension

I tried to calm myself down in the room, the tears I held back from earlier spilling over my cheeks. I'm sad, I'm disappointed and it all feels so tight on my chest.

Crying, this is what I can do right now.

I don't know, then this heart feels happy to get news from Angga mas, if he works in XX city means that our distance is getting closer, anytime you want to meet it is definitely possible, if you can, and it was also finished calling his intention if there was time to go along.But now what..!!

I put my face on the pillow so that my crying voice does not come out, I do not want my family to know, which will make the image worse in the eyes of my family, I do not want my family, let this be my own business.

My phone rang, as soon as possible I got up and grabbed my phone located on the study table. I saw on the screen the name was written Mas Angga, but I did not lift it immediately, I just kept quiet until several times the call, until one text came in.

"Darling, please pick up the phone for a moment, I want to talk" it was the message of Angga

Because this disappointment still exists, still I did not pick up a phone call from him, sms I did not reply at all, at this time I want to calm my heart and mind.

I put my phone back on the study table, I step back to the bed and lay my body there, I close my eyes trying to forget the moment that happened, I hope to wake up and everything will be okay.

GECK! GECK! GECK!

I woke up to the sound of a knock, as soon as I could get up and open the door of my room, it turned out that behind the door was my mother.

"What's up, Mah?" ask me when the door is open.

"What time is it, son?"

"Jam.., don't know." answered me accordingly.

"God, this child, so if sleep is not to kebablasan, this is almost want magrib know." babble my mother who makes me surprised.

"Serious Mah, gosh that means I took a good nap dong mah. The tired effect may be mah, the holiday is only one day a week." the reason I want to make my mother not suspicious of what happened with me and also the Angga mas.

"Yes already, there's the shower gone it's eating. The feeling from this afternoon you have not eaten at all" said my mother as she passed from before me.

I went back into the room, I grabbed my phone when I opened the lock, how surprised I saw many missed calls from Angga mas, as well as sms.

"Darling, don't be so angry, please pick up the phone from me"

"I have no intention to accuse you, dear"

"Honey, please.!!, pick up my phone just once"

Such is the content of several sms mas Angga, and many more. There is even a text that sms 'part of the text is lost', it is usual that old-fashioned phone effects yes.

But still I do not reply, let me be selfish this time.

I put my phone back on the study table. I grabbed a towel hanging behind my bedroom door. Immediately I went to the bathroom and did the ritual shower as fast as lightning, because it was almost magrib so ngak can be long.

*******

In the evening, my sister and I relaxed on the porch, talking about things that are not important to me. Suddenly my phone rang, I saw the name of the Angga mas calling.

"So don't go in first well, you're here let the mbak kunti aja nemenin" I said as I entered the house

"Yahh kakaaaaaak!! if you want to go in, do not have to use the event nakut-nakutin people as well" upset my sister and come running into the house.

Which makes my mom and my dad who again enjoy watching television surprised because my sister accidentally slammed the door.

"Sorry Mah, I didn't deliberately slam the door, the end of my sister's nakutin me" explained my sister as she pointed at me who was then again standing in the doorway of my room.

"Eh, why is it that you're wrong" I said in self-defense.

"Otherwise if not brother, who else should I be wrong, what mbak kunti who mbak said earlier ha" shouted my sister did not accept with what I said earlier.

Suddenly my father made a sound

"Have it!! Already!!, the two of you are always like this, no getting along, wonder papa"

"That's the first brother who started Pah"

"Have not been extended again, you entered the room there to study" said my father who was followed by my sister, my mother can only shake her head to see our behavior.

I also without a sound again also entered the room, the intention of the heart was to answer the phone from Mas Angga, eh because the debate was his phone missed by me.

Long time I wait for a phone call from Angga mas, but it's almost ten o'clock in the evening, no more mas Angga repeat to call or mms, now I'm made pacing back and forth like ironing.

Because there was no phone call from Angga mas, I finally threw my body on the bed. Now I deeply regret what I have done to Angga mas, ignoring all day, whether I am very selfish.

When I was about to close my eyes, suddenly the sound of my phone rang, as soon as I could lift it, but to the selfishness still controlled me, this time I was silent without a word.

"Hallo, dear." said Mas Angga across the street.

"Darling..."

"Hallo, baby. "call Angga again, but I keep my mouth shut tight.

"Darling, I'm sorry. Sorry for making you hurt, disappointed with my attitude. But it's all because I love you so much, I don't want to lose you, so I'm sorry for me." said Mas Angga again explained at length.

"Well, this time I'm sorry, next time don't ever think again if I have another man. I don't like your unwarranted jealous ways" I replied.

"Dear, I promise I won't be like that again. You know baby, all day long no news from you, ngak hear your voice it feels like there is something lacking in my life"

"I'm sorry... " This time I'm sorry.

"No. No, you're not wrong. So don't apologize, I'm wrong here. Like I wasn't jealous and didn't accuse you of being a nope, surely this won't happen."

"Yes, the phone was cut off I fell asleep because tired of crying, woke up already almost magrib was mama who woke up."

"I'm sorry I made you cry baby, I promise I won't make you cry again."

"Yes, what else are you, Mas, eating?"

"No longer do anything, baby, from now on I think the same you continue. I thought you'd leave me, until this hour I haven't had a bath."

"Gosh, up to that much anyway Mas, yes already if that's Mas shower there, it's out to eat right rest tomorrow the first day Mas work"

"Well, now my feelings are relieved. Thank you for forgiving me, my dear"

"Yes, you're welcome"