The Pain of being Betrayed

Memories of Alif's Past

In the morning I was still silent a thousand languages, although Mas Angga had several times invited to chat

Although I marahan with Mas Angga, but still My obligation as a wife I do, ranging from providing clothes for his work, lunch, until the coffee did not forget I was available

"Honey, this is money for kitchen shopping later in the afternoon" said Mas Angga when I will step out of the room

I stopped, and turned my body to look at the money in the sodor Mas Angga to Ku

Without answering, I immediately took the money and passed away to go out with Alif

"Honey." cried Mas Angga calling me again, but I kept walking regardless of his call.

I don't know, I'm a very easy person to grieve, if My heart is already sad either because of speech or actions, then I will be silent without speaking a bit

I went out of the house, carrying a push bike for Alif, which I bought for Alif at the age of one year as his first birthday gift at that time

I took Alif for a walk on his push bike, looking happy Alif that morning. Because ever since my sister-in-law moved here my activities and Alif always in the room, rarely play out. Because if it comes out, it will always be a toy grab between my son and his sister-in-law's son, if for me it is not a problem. Because the name of the children must often struggle like that, later also better again. But unlike my sister-in-law, if her child cries will definitely be taken heart, the edges will be noisier

The streets look crowded by motorbikes that pass by, because this is already the time for children to go to school and enter work also for office employees

"Here you go, son, we go back to the house again, okay" said Ku when we were quite far from home

"Again.. Mah, again. "alif whinek asked to keep going, do not want to be brought home.

"Eh, if you continue to walk, later his mother's home tired loh" replied Ku with a look on the face made sad

"Tomorrow, again we go for a walk" I continued

"Yey, tomorrow ride the bike again" cried Alif girang, I immediately turned back the direction of his bike towards the house

In the middle of the road, I passed Mas Angga who was about to leave for work, but I just lowered my head, not wanting to see him at all

Mas Angga stopped his bike near Alif's bike

"Honey, I'm leaving well" said Mas Angga who I replied with a nod without a sound

"Papa's son don't be naughty well, take care of your mother. Okay" Mas Angga told Alif

"Okay, papa" replied Alif

"Yes, papa worked first well, papa's hotshot drug"

"Drug, papa" replied Alif as he waved his hand when the motorbike driven by Mas Angga passed away

Sometimes there is guilt also in my heart after silencing Mas Angga, because of trivial things

I pushed back Alif's bike, before long we got home. I went straight in while carrying Alif, not forgetting the bike as well I brought it in

"Okay, it's over" I told Alif

"Okay, mama. yey..!! bathing is calm well, mah" Alif girang when he heard the word bath

"God..!! this child is a ghost of water, never refuse when it is related to water, directly the spirit of four five only" murmured Ku

Without saying much more, I immediately take Alif to the bathroom, I live on water and accommodate him in a large bucket, which is used by Alif to soak, eh wrong with 'Swimming' alif. I don't know I'm confused too, but yes it's important that Alif is happy

I let Alif play water as much as possible

"Alif, wait here for a moment, well.Mama want to grab a towel first, do not climb up, can not jump up and down, listen..??" my Decree

"Yes, with Mama" replied Alif who was busy with his duck toys

I rushed to the room to get a towel, because honestly I was very worried that Alif died alone in the bathroom, because the bathroom was a little slippery. And there's trauma in this bathroom

Alif once fell in this bathroom when he was eight months old. When I want to cut her down after defecating, I stand Alif between my legs facing back, I don't know what to take her behind Me at that time, finally her grip on my leg was released, which made her fall down, I did not have time to hold her because one hand was soapy and the other one held a dipper

For a moment, there was no sound of his crying. Before long there was a loud cry, because it was very painful.The place fell was still rough, dear not what kind of pain

Without a second thought, I immediately lifted his body, which at that time his position on his stomach, do not ask my heart at that time, my body shivered, shadowing his head will bleed, Ku's body shivered, I turned her over, checked if there were any injuries or not. It turned out that no one was injured, just that his forehead was quite large in purplish red

My mother-in-law ran to the bathroom, hearing Alif's cry

"Aliff, why..??" said my mother-in-law when I was on the doorstep of the bathroom with Alif still crying

"Satoh, Mah" I replied briefly, because honestly my heart is still unstable, the body shivers especially after seeing a lump on Alif's forehead, making my heart sad to want it to feel crying too

"Here, for nothing, the sign of the strong boy is well, son" said my mother-in-law while taking over Alif from my sling, which made me immediately sit limp in the chair

"It's okay, already" said my mother-in-law, took her shirt in the inflatable and then pasted it on Alif's bumpy forehead, he said so that the lump would disappear. Either I just pay attention to it, because indeed in my village still believe in such things, whether it is a myth or not

Before long, Alif's cries began to stop, and leaning his body towards Ku asked in a cradle, I immediately got up and carried him, directly giving his Asi

"Well, I have" said Alif who gave my daydreams

"Okay, here mama loves soap first, let it smell" I immediately soaped Alif, soon after the bath ritual was completed, I rushed to the room to makai kan clothes Alif

"Use the telon oil first, let's not catch a cold" said Ku as he rinsed Alif's entire body with telon oil

"Well, it's just now fragrant" said Ku kissing Alif's cheek

"Well, mamam" said Alif pointing towards the mejikom

"Well, wait here first, mama wants to take the plate first" said I got up, and passed out to take the plate. Well, Alif is now no longer breastfeeding, so now more often eat, Alhamdulillah Alif was not picky eating problems, so it is not difficult to think about the side dish for her, so it is not difficult to think about it, because of what side dishes we eat, Alif can eat

"This, eat a lot, let's be big fast" said Ku thrust a plate filled with rice and side dishes in front of Alif. Yes Alif is no longer in bribe if eating, he prefers to eat alone