The Pain of being Betrayed

Pain Betrayed 'Again'

One week after the storm because Hp for the umpteenth time.

All of her keep going as usual, I am easy to forgive Mas Angga with sweet words that come out of his mouth.

But one thing that has not changed until now, especially if not the habits of Mas Angga who hobby of playing online games that I do not understand at all.

Lately I have noticed that Mas Angga has changed a lot.

No longer caring about us, the example has been this one week I and the children sleep in the living room in front of his television right, he said, because accompanying the children watch finally fall asleep there until the morning before.

But he was funny, usually must have woken up and told to move to the room or he who slept outside with us.

But this one week he changed, likes to be alone while smiling alone. For example, if he sleeps in the room, I follow him there must always avoid the reason to want to smoke do not want children exposed to cigarette smoke in his suction, and blah bla others. At the end of his sleep outside alone and that certainly accompanied his HP.

Once also when he wanted to sleep outside, I also joined the fall beside him, uh he instead sat down and moved to the room.

Oh my God, what's wrong with her? Why always avoid when approached and also like to smile yourself.

And precisely on this day God may want to show me about the behavior of Mas Angga who is said to have diverged. And this behavior has also been the umpteenth time he did and with ease also I always forgive him.

Because there is something I want to check using Mas Angga's HP, something about the application in question by his ustadz Alif. There is no real intention to check the contents of Mas Angga's HP, because before this to borrow his HP is very difficult.

"Mas, borrow some of his dong Hp."

"For what? I'm playing."

"This is Alif's Ustadz asked about setting how to change the writing in the chat, he said good to make an announcement or information, because I've given tutorials through Hp Ku, I'm sure, but he said not in his cellphone, I just want a check on your phone whether the same or how." obviously I was long enough for Mas Angga to borrow his HP.

After waiting for a few minutes, I was finally loaned by Mas Angga.

Without hesitation and suspicion of anything else, soon I might check what the original purpose of I borrowed Mas Angga's HP.

Directly click the application with the logo of a green phone that is used by a million people to communicate.

When you enter this application.

DEGH!!

My heart immediately rumbled violently, My feelings breaking for the umpteenth time.

There is one chat-an from a number that I do not know at all, because indeed the number is deliberately not in the same name Mas Angga.

" Dear, how long is it?" chat Mas Angga to the man I believe to be a woman.

"Yes what's the matter dear," replied the message from the owner of the anonymous number.

"Not in reply."

"Darling, how the hell is that?"

My mind immediately did not calm down, thinking about the contents of the chat before this, because I was sure before this chat-an must have had a connection. Because after replying whatsapp always seems to be deleted the same Mas Angga so that I do not know it and deliberately do not save the number.

But God seems to be on my side again, showing his misdeeds Mas Angga.

What was my initial goal earlier, so be distracted by the contents of Mas Angga's chat with the woman. Immediately I came out of the application that had made my feelings and heart broken.

"It turns out that you haven't changed yet, Mas." said I tried as calmly as possible so that my tears would not spill in front of him.

"What do you mean, baby, hasn't changed?"

"This, you must know what I mean, Mas." said Ku while thrusting his HP.

"It turns out it's true well, if someone has been lying, it will be like that, it's very difficult to change."

"What a shame, I don't understand. What lies do you mean?"

"You just check whatsapp content you Mas, surely you know what lies I mean."

"You reason what else you are now, Mas!" I said again with a voice that had shaken to hold back the cry.

"Ah that, you don't misunderstand me dear. It's just a joke, not serious."

"The reason is stale, because this is the umpteenth time you chat with other women with unnatural words said by a married man, Mas."

"And you say for the umpteenth time this is just a joke or a joke, you should think! is it worth joking around with the word 'Darling' like that with other women."

"If you think it's natural, then I'd like to find a friend to joke with each other like you're doing right now."

"Can't you think about how I feel if I know all this, Mom?, if I'm honest, my heart is hurting right now, devastated and disappointed in what you have done behind my back. I'm just an ordinary woman with a fragile heart, whose feelings can't be toyed with as you please."

"I am not the owner of a heart as fresh and as patient as the wife of the Prophet Muhammad, who can accept with sincerity her husband share his love and body with other women."

"If you don't want me anymore, how many times have I told you. Please give Me back to my parents, for they have never thrown Me away."

"And for the affairs of the child, you need not think. Because they will I bring with Me, because from birth until now only I accompany him whether it is playing or learning."

"Please be with that woman, if that's what you want. I'm honestly tired of all this, because this incident is not the first, but the umpteenth time, I still forgive whenever you apologize and promise never to repeat it again. But in fact until this moment is still repeated and continues."

"I'm self-aware, right now I'm no longer what I was before we got married. Now there have been many changes of My body both from the outside and inside, and I personally have never regretted the changes I am experiencing at this time, for this is my struggle to be a wife and mother."

"And if you're tempted by the women out there who have the title 'Belakor' which may be much clearer and fresher than I am. That's not an excuse!! Because in fact a man who has the status of 'Suami' who understands religion, will not be tempted by the stupidity of other women, and will certainly be able to appreciate the feelings of his wife." I said to take out all my heart that is not okay at the moment.

"And I told you, I'm just kidding. All my gaming friends know that I'm married and have children." replied Mas Angga trying to explain to me to understand.

"Ck! Already Mas, if indeed all of them already know you already have a wife and children, it is impossible for you to still chat like that until it continues to whatsapp, whatsapp, if it doesn't involve heart and feelings."

"If at this time I give you a choice, between Me or your online game, surely you will prefer your online game. No matter what please continue." said Ku again as he got up and moved to the family room accompanying the children who were watching television.