The Pain of being Betrayed

Muhammad Alif Permana

As expected Mas Angga all this time, I gave birth to a son who was so Masyay Allah, handsome no less anything.

After the midwife finished cleaning me and also my son. The whole family can enter the delivery room. Mas Angga immediately accused our son after ablution, it was happy that my heart saw such a scene.

I hope, after this son Kami born mas Angga can change, his mind is open to trying more to find a job, because the needs that will come will certainly be more and more.

"Congratulations Ara, I am a mother now" said my mother-in-law while taking over my Son from the hands of Angga.

"Yes Mah, thank you." I replied with a smile.

"Well, how handsome your son is, his nose is also sharp" said my father-in-law who came to see my son who was in my mother-in-law's arms.

"Yes dong, who was his Papa" cocky mas Angga raised his collar shirt, which can instantly toyolan in his head by my brother-in-law.

"Ih, what the fuck..!! handsome where are you, huh. There's a kid you're grateful not to look like you know."

"Yee biarin..!! why be a big sister."

"Have..!! already, you guys even fuss over the unimportant thing here, Ara out of the body needs rest. It's even noisy." scolded my father-in-law who made the sister immediately speechless.

"Yes, is there a name, Ara..??" ask my mother-in-law.

"Already Mah, his name is 'Muhammad Alif Permana' "I answered smiling happily.

"Well, what a good name" said my father-in-law

Well, since I didn't do the USG test, there are two names that I prepared for both men and women.

Because it was getting late, so I, mas Angga, mama-in-law and also her aunt mas Angga nginap at the house of Bu midwife, while the others went home.

At midnight, my son Alif often woke up and cried, because my ASI at that time had not come out at all, finally Bu midwife nyaranin gave advice for a while.

Honestly, that night I was very sleepy. Want to sleep because from the fifth date I felt the pain was not sleeping all night, the afternoon was not able to rest until now was not able to sleep because Alif was fussy.

Mas Angga do not ask him instead sleep well, not disturbed in the slightest by the cry of his son. I don't know if I want to cry wake up Mas Angga, but it's not good because there is my mother-in-law.

When the dawn of Adhan reverberated Alif could calm down, I could finally sleep.

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The next morning after the midwife bathed my son, we were allowed to go home.

I got home straight into the bathroom, to clean the body, because it was already sultry it felt like yesterday night was bathed in sweat during labor.

After taking a shower, everything turned out to be in my room. Well, my mother-in-law has prepared breakfast for me, not to forget also hot tea water and vegetables, so that my Asi will come out soon.

"In the end of all that is Ara, let Asi you quickly get out. Kasian Alif if you continue to drink milk." said my mother-in-law who was changing my child's diaper at the time.

"Yes Mah, sorry to bother Mama." I replied unkindly.

"No, Mama doesn't feel bothered."

Well, from the beginning I lived here everything looks ordinary, there has been no meaningful change. Because indeed I myself was not open with it, for me what my duties and obligations in the house that I will do without being told.

And during pregnancy I was often alone in the room after doing all my duties and obligations, rarely gathering with my mother-in-law and also my sister-in-law even if just telling stories.

As my mother-in-law said, everything that has been served to me the toilet is not left, because my stomach is very hungry because from yesterday it has not been filled.

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Mas Angga was still the same as usual, when I was busy with Alif at midnight, he was even engrossed with his PS, he said, there was no intention in his heart to take turns to keep Alif who often woke up in the middle of the night.

I am sometimes envious to see her other bridal couple, who while pregnant in love and pampered, when the husband has helped take care of his children.

While I have nothing at all to be proud of from the Angga mas, which should have been exhausted when we should not work too hard, we should not work too hard, I even do it myself after one day after giving birth, like washing clothes and others.

Although my parents often call and always remember me not to do heavy-western work after breaking it. I always lie to my mama, I always say that all the work Angga mas do, it's all I do to keep the good name of Mas Angga in the eyes of my parents. There is no intention in this heart to complain about the Angga mas in the slightest, all the badness of Angga mas I always keep myself.

"Mas, it's midnight. As good as sleep." said I approached the Angga mas who was fun playing games.

"In a moment, you will sleep first I will follow" said Mas Angga, his hands are still busy moving on his PS stick.

"Mas, why don't you understand and understand!! Me and your son need you..!! This is all you have in mind, huh!! "

"I think after our son is born, you will change. But it turns out everything I thought and hoped was wrong." continued me again with a voice that had vibrated.

"Darling, please don't be so dong, I'm just sorry if you stay at home without any activity."

"The reason is you Mas, your child also needs your attention you know!! Since our son was born not once did you come to help me to keep him, to change his diapers you never mas, the reason can not..!! And also all my homework that I do, which I shouldn't be able to do, I do Mas..!! I've never asked for much of the same thing as you. But please spare your time for me and also our child, that's all I ask." said me and passed away to go to the room and hug Alif my son.