The Pain of being Betrayed
Destroyed as Destroyed
When Alif and Aisyah fell asleep, I again felt tight in the chest when I remembered the incident a few hours ago.
Until midnight My eyes will not be closed in the least, My heart and feelings are still not calm.
When I was about to take a blanket in the room, it turned out that Angga was asleep, and I saw that his HP was still on and was in an online game that was often played.
I tried to reach the HP so as not to disturb the sleep mas Angga.
When the HP has been successfully achieved, as soon as possible I check the chat room in the group, I open one by one the messages that are still stored there.
Daaaan, again!!
I found a piece of chatan mas Angga with another woman, whether it's with the same woman as whatsapp or not I don't know.
What is clear is that my heart is like being pierced by thousands of needles.
"Sorry, my stomach hurt until it was so hot."
"Sorry yah yang, I overslept so ngak had time to nemani you play."
"Later if you want to play, directly WA aja I'm well, which, let me directly On."
"I'm permission to sleep first well, sleepy maybe tomorrow I wake up a little luck around 11."
"Ihh I love so much you dot😍😘."
That is the contents of their chat fragment, because there is only an incoming message from the woman, can I make sure the message before it has been deleted by Angga mas.
This time it has been very, very outrageous according to Me, really My heart is getting no better at this time. It's ruined!!
Immediately I put her HP back and went outside with the blanket I took earlier.
I got my HP, I set the 'play music'. Tears that I could no longer bear flowed so swiftly without being told.
......*Where is your heart......
...Where are your feelings...
...I love you...
...You love yourself...
...Not enough taste...
...Until you split it...
...Faithful as I wish...
...The double you gave...
...I really don't believe ...
...You are so hearty...
...I've done ...
...Everything is for you...
...How could you cheat...
...As if I didn't know...
...What do you string words for...
...If you are unfaithful...
...No need to promise anymore...
...If you betray yourself...
......______________________________________......
...I used to be in love...
...A heart that never gets hurt...
...karna LOVE...
...Now there is no more story between US...
...Far away is far removed...
...You're the one I used to love...
...No more spoiled words you give...
...I don't know why, you changed...
...It's like playing in the love we build...
...You're the one I used to love...
...You're the one I used to worship...
...You're the one I used to expect to be loyal to...
...It's all over now, the story between us...
...There is no reason because you are TWO...
...________________________________________...
...I must hate this in my heart...
...For all your attitude towards me...
...Oh beloved...
...Make a pledge of loyalty with me...
...Sharing the love behind me...
...So much pain in my heart...
...Crushed to pieces as if meaningless...
...I admit I'm hurt I'm really disappointed...
...For you there's no reason...
...Years of love stories we built...
...Sharing of joy and sorrow...
...Just because of a semousin...
...You're lulled...
...Just for pleasure...
...You BETRAY the dream of love...
...As if I didn't know your play...
...___________________________________________...
...I know I'm in KHIANATI...
...Betrayed you...
...I know I'm in TEST...
...In my heart test...
...Honestly, just tell me what you want...
...Why do you always betray me...
...My Father is FAITHFUL to you...
...But you disavowed me...
...You lied to me...
...I have always been honest with you...
...Until you have shredded my heart...
..._____________________________________________...
...Stop loving you to listen to me...
...Stop loving you talking LOVE...
...What are you here for...
...When your heart is with her...
...For what, for what, for what...
...When my lips cannot speak...
...Only tears can shed...
...The more I love...
...The more sick you are...
...Baby, this is your reply...
...My heartache for your love...
...You gave me the wound on the WOUND...
...Perfect the way you hurt you...
...______________________________________________...
...Survive with me duhai lover...
...I'll leave without you asking...
...I'm willing...
...My heart is as sincere as I love you...
...But you never appreciated...
...I plant LOVE...
...You're scratchING LUKA...
...I'm powerless...
...I wish you would be the last one in my life...
...In the moment of hope I wait...
...You're looking for a reason to stay away...
...When you are no longer IN LOVE...
...When you're no longer darling...
...Just tell her the truth to me...
...If it doesn't mean I'm in the bottom of your heart...
...I will accept even though my mind is struggling...
...Tell me what love means to you...
...__________________________________________...
...Tired of trying...
...But hold on with you...
...What power I love you don't appreciate...
...My dear darling...
...You I love...
...But I am for you meaningless...
...My heart can no longer...
...You think I'm a dry leaf...
...Fooled the wind somewhere...
...What less I am, to you love...
...Sacrifice for you...
...Bet the life I want...
...My patience has its limits...
...There's no way I'm always giving up...
...Because of what I did...
...It's never right for you...
...You really have no heart...
...You tortured me in your own way...
...Tell me what you mean...
...So that I know what your love means...
...__________________________________________...
...I realize I'm always hurt...
...Because I love too much...
...I realize I've always been hurt...
...Because I love you too much...
...Make it as you please...
...I'm sure you always have...
...No matter what you realize...
...You are too ego to me...
...I want you to change your attitude...
...Because it hurts too much to treat me...
...Try to appreciate me a little ...
...Look at my feelings that are always there for you...
...I hope you understand me, understand me...
...I hope you change...
...Because it's not easy for me to give up...
...___________________________________________...
...Baby I accept you...
...With what you are...
...I never complained...
...A little about you...
...I'll accept it as a sign of you I love...
...Baby I'm still you...
...Never appreciated me...
...Though I am your lover...
...You consider him an enemy...
...What I want Love...
...But you're disappointed...
...I'm there for you oh sweetheart...
...Not for you to hurt...
...But to take care and love...
...Until my body is lifeless again...
...I can always give up...
...Not I'm not hurt...
...But the love I have is greater than the PAIN I feel...
...One request, Love Me...
...____________________________________________...
...I finally couldn't take it anymore...
...Undergoing all this...
...We have lived for years...
...Life together is full of drama...
...I am tired of hiding it...
...Behind my smile I have tears...
...You never appreciated me...
...Always do what you want...
...Enough is...
...Enough of all this...
...Let it all end here...
...Go, get out of my life...
...Satisfy all your wishes...
...I'm finally sincere about you...
...I really can't keep going...
...Let me now live without you*...
...____________________________________________...
Cause tired of living the lyrics of the song that represents how I feel right now, and also tired of crying I finally fell asleep.
