The Pain of being Betrayed

Everything Changed

Really it's very hard for me to live, stay one roof with in-laws and also in-laws very tight right. Not according to what I imagined, it took me a long time to adapt and get to know the character of the Angga family.

Not to mention the Angga mas who act, on the first day I was here already in living alone. Though he himself knows that I am not too comfortable to be on one roof with his family, but what..!! Mas Angga did not care about all that, he still went out with his friends on appeal accompanied me here, pregnant anyway.

Honestly, my heart was very sad at that time, added his mama mas Angga forbid me to interfere in the affairs of Angga mas, let alone the affairs of him with his friends. It is very painful to hear all that from mama mas Angga. But Angga is my husband. At least I also have the right to forbid him if what he does is wrong, deviating from religion.

Well, that night coincided with the fasting month, Mas Angga came out with his friends until he forgot the time, came home only four o'clock in the morning already drunk, Astagfirullah...!!, this is a surprise and a very hard blow for me.

How not, before marriage I ever asked him about this, whether he likes to drink 'Alcohol', he replied at the time 'No', I asked again if he had a tattoo on the body, I asked him again, the answer is also 'No'. Why in that moment did I ask like that..?? Because honestly I don't like that smelling thing, because my nuclear family never does anything deviant and banned in Religion.

But now it turns out what.!!, the other side of the new pride I know after marriage.which I have seen so far is caring, understanding, loving, talk a lot about this and that story, and that is, I have seen a lot of attention, but now everything has changed.

Sad, disappointed that's what I felt at the time. Just a few months married, and living one roof with her parents, who I myself restrained could not bring out the burden in my heart. All I could do was cry and cry.

When pregnant young, surely all women want her spoiled by her husband, but different from me. I was busy thinking about how later the birth because even the slightest cost for labor did not exist at all. Because mas Angga has not been able to get a job, work in his papa garden only once in a while. And while Angga was stupid with all that, he was even engrossed in playing games.

Well, at home his parents available PS, the time is only in the run out by playing PS, from morning until dawn just to sleep a while, wake up again playing PS again so bright.

"Mas, I'm pregnant again, please take your free time also for me" complained me while sitting next to her who is fun playing PS.

"Buck...!!" I shouted again while hitting his shoulder because my words were not ignored.

"Dear, I'm playing a game again. Wait a minute responsibility" mas Angga with his view remains the focus of the television screen connected to his PS.

"Ah, it is if it is not open again with me and also our prospective children" said I while moving away from there.

With tears in my eyes I walked out of the house, it was late at night about half an hour a night. I was sitting on the porch of his lamp house I accidentally died. Not to be seen by passers-by.

I contemplated all of them in the middle of the night blind, sometimes there was regret in my heart. Because he had chosen to marry Mas Angga, because his nature changed after marriage. Before marriage I adored her loving, understanding, caring nature.

At half-hour two nights, only Mas Angga approached me who was still loyal on the porch of the house with tears did not stop coming out.

"Honey, go in yuk. Why sit outside these nights." said mas Angga while sitting next to me without any guilt. I just kept quiet without any intention of answering her words in the slightest.

"Let's love, our future child, I'm also very sleepy" he said again, which makes my anger unstoppable again.

"Your father said, Mas! Whether during my pregnancy you have the slightest attention for me or our future child this haa!! There is no. You changed Mas, you are no longer the Angga mas that I know first, where the Angga mas who used to be considerate, understanding, and loving, where..!!! Ever since we moved into your parents' house, your nature has changed. After I you lied to your problem that likes to drink, now even you are busy playing games from morning to morning again. No time for me, I am your wife who is currently pregnant, need attention..!! Need support to do a delivery soon, do you think with what my labor costs later, no..!! Until now there is not a penny on hand for my labor costs later. Do not be for the cost of labor, to buy the equipment of our prospective children there is no Mas, but you are instead engrossed in your hobby that, until you forget time, forget your responsibilities as the head of the family." my anger exploded, and it was really painful for me.

"Yes sorry baby, I don't want to lie to you because I like to drink, I was afraid at that time if I was honest you would leave me. And the problem of work is that there is no rezki at this time."

"Heh, it's Mas if you lie once, there will be another lie, and the problem of your work that does not want effort, surely there will be another lie, your job is just playing games all day there is no effort to find a job out."

"Now you have a responsibility to support me and our child-to-be, not when he or she is choosing a job. But you yourself if the rough work does not want, with a reason not strong, want it only work happy, I don't know what else to say."

"Yes, yes later I try to find a job out, hopefully someone will accept me who just graduated this Junior High. Once again sorry I'm well baby, I promise to change everything, won't repeat it again."

"I don't need a promise, but proof!!"

"Yes, I'm sorry yes, yuk entered our prospective child is cold" said Mas Angga again while stroking my stomach that has been rounded, well my content at that time has been seven months.

I just nodded, and went inside and rested, because honestly now I'm so tired, tired of heart and mind.