The Heart Of The Wife On Honey

Chapter 51 Surrender!

I don't know where I'm going to take this pain.

I don't want to go back to Al-Blue's house under these circumstances. I was afraid to make my whole family sad. I promised I would always be happy, I did not want to see the tears of my two aunts come out because I thought of myself who again had to be mired in anxiety.

What other test is this! really if only I could choose I wanted to avoid this pain. Why should I, not God's creatures so many in this world why should I feel this painful thing.

But as for power, again I must be tested by the same pain maybe this hurts more than before.

The wound that had dried back wet with the reality I saw. The new happiness I feel is now crashing back into the valley of distress.

This is my unrelenting journey of destiny with a test of successive turns.

This pain made me forget where I was going. Whether Pak ojol's wife has been buried or not I don't know. I was confused where I should go. Coming home to a new house, I don't think I'm ready to meet with Andrian bang exactly not ready if facing the reality.

May I give up on all this, why it feels so painful and painful.

"Where are we going? I was confused! "

I was silent while holding my breath so tight because I was crying incessantly. I don't know where to go either, whether I go to Vienna or Amira's house but I can't go to their house in this situation I'm sure my two best friends must be wondering and I'm not ready to explain it and will definitely be getting more and more a new problem arises.

"I don't know what makes Nenk cry like this, no matter what my advice is, solve the problem of nenk with a cold head do not be with lust or run away from the house is not good and will not solve the problem even will arise new things that trigger the increasing of quarrels. Life is a place of testing but whatever and how great the test is, be assured that God is lifting our degrees at his side. I even feel jealous..."

My heart gasped at the taxi driver's words but I was a little confused at the envy of the driver. How the driver envied me when I was sad.

"Iri because nenk is much higher than his level at Allah's side. Is not Allah not going to test a servant in his limits. The greater the test of a servant, the higher the degree with Allah for the patient and sincere. Nenk at the mercy of great trials until weeping like this know that God is longing to face him. Then come to the owner of the exam and the arsenal of solutions insyaallah heart will be calm and can solve the problem, "

My heart trembled at the words of the driver who was so broad and wise. He is like a man of faith who solves the problems of his life. Evidently the driver always smiles and is polite in driving. There was no look of tired and moody on his face even his face was always radiant even though some of his face was consumed by age. Maybe if you look around his age is not far from Pak ojol.

"Thank you sir for dropping off Laila, sorry if Laila takes up your time, "

"That's my job, serving passengers wherever they go. Because safety is the main thing. "

I smiled and gave the fare to the driver.

"It's mostly nenk? "

"Take it, maybe get it today from God for you. May God always keep you safe!"

"Jazakallah Khoeron cashier Allahuma jaza, may nenk also be given convenience in his affairs! "

My heart was much calmer after hearing the taxi driver's words.

I decided to go home and solve my problems with my husband. I will listen to his explanation, even though I do not know if his explanation makes my heart calm or vice versa. I can only prepare my heart if the possibility of what happened makes my heart ache.

Right said the driver! That this world is a testing ground. May I pass this test, though I do not know how much my heart will endure this pain and distress.

My tears flowed again as the shadow of the little boy cried calling the names of papa and mama. Even Andrian's bang until this second wasn't looking for me at all. Did I not matter to him anymore, or did he deliberately marry me because his first wife was sick until if his wife went bang Andrian made me a mother continued from his son. Oh really sick this bang is so sick.

I wept complaining to God over my peace. I don't know what secret God has prepared behind this painful thing. I only wish I could be strong in the face of a storm that shakes a new heart upright.

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