The Heart Of The Wife On Honey

Chapter 36 Fear

I woke up in my sleep with hunting breath. My chest rose and fell with cold sweat flooding me.

I rubbed my face, I gasped for any tears. I fell silent in confusion, my mind drifting away.

It felt like the torture was so real that it burned my body. Whether this is a dream or real, why the torture is so real scares me.

"Your.., "

Degs...

I was surprised to see that there was Asthma beside me. I was confused why Asthma was crying even her eyes were so swollen as if she had been crying for a long time.

I was still confused by the situation as to why I was in the room wasn't I just in the dark and hot room.

**Allahuakbar Allahuakbar...

Yourahailallah**....

I gasped at the final sound of Adzan. His voice was exactly the same in that awful room.

My heart suddenly thumped so fast that I even felt terrified. I quickly grabbed the blanket and jumped out of bed. I'm looking for a bathroom to get some water.

A drop of clear liquid came out as I raised both of my hands with a heart that was pounding violently.

Allahuahbar...

I said takbir with trembling lips even it felt like this was my first prayer from the dozen years I left it first.

My body shook violently with tears that kept coming out in my bow.

O Rohman, O Rohim, O Gafur, O Gofur. I beg your forgiveness, for everything. I do not know how many sins and mistakes I have committed. forgive me..

I cried out for forgiveness for all my sins. It felt like the torture was so real that burning my body made me fear so much for the torture.

I don't know how much I shed tears with my body so intensely shaking from fear of the torment.

The feeling of heat was like still shackling me who was still crying on a bed that I don't know who had just stretched out.

I was still filled with tears that would not stop. I remember the sins I have committed in the past. What are my sins to Sindi and Anjani, the two women I made suffer. Even with a stand I wanted to separate Anjani from her own husband and I almost took away Sindi's honor because of my heartache.

"Yes Rohma, Rohim. Not even I know how many sins I have committed. I have heard that if a child sins, my parents will feel the torment of my actions. Servant please do not torture mamah for what I did. Mamah is not wrong servant who is wrong over everything. My dear servant is a great woman, love her and place her by Your side. Forgive the mistakes and mistakes of the servant. Don't you get angry at Mama because everything is wrong servant. Forgive me, for the wrong and deliberate sins that I committed. The servant knows that You are forgiving, and to whom the servant asks forgiveness if it is not for You. Do not leave the servant in a time when the servant is fragile and in this direction. Forgive and forgive the servant"

My cry ceases to beg for forgiveness for all my actions. I don't know why I'm afraid the darkness is holding me back. Even my body still felt the torment of the fire.

My chest felt so tight with my head so dizzy. Maybe because they cry and prostrate for too long.

I puffed up as my crying began to subside. I stared straight ahead making my forehead shrivel feeling that I was in a different place. This isn't my room, so whose room is this? this question suddenly popped into my head.

I remember what really happened why with me this is so dazed over everything. Until as bright as the shadow I remember made me look around the room painted blue pink which makes the atmosphere of the room so lively.

Degs...

I was shocked to hear the sound that I was so familiar with. It made me turn around and be surprised to see who was sitting behind me.

I rubbed my eyes and even rubbed them. Is this a dream or is it real, why Asthma is behind me. Even Asma was seen crying, her eyes were puffy with her tiny red nose.

My narrowed eyes bulged when I realized something and pulled my consciousness completely. This is not a dream anymore, yes I remember now that Asma my wife yesterday I had been waiting for her.

Suddenly there was doubt and unworthiness in me. I'm a sinner how could I possibly get a wife like Asthma.

I was speechless with eyes that kept staring at Asma as if I was reassuring the rest of my consciousness that this was real.

Bruck...

It felt like my heart almost jumped out of place with its eyes bulging as Asthma hugged my body.

Crying out!

Why Asthma is crying, what is really happening. Even Asma hugged me tightly as if she didn't want to lose me.

"Hiks.., ja. don't go..,"

I'm confused as to why Asthma talks like that. It's not that I didn't leave even I was here in his arms.

Instead I was afraid that Asma would leave me even now I remember that Asthma kicked me because I slept next to her and maybe Asma had made me faint because I didn't remember anything.

"Aspie? "

I tried to dare to call my wife.

"What really happened why are you crying? "

I'm confused really confused in a situation like this.

"Ak. I'm scared very much. Ta. That brother said he died, "

"I'm afraid that you're really gone, when I'll be a widow again. Don't go hyks.. Asthma is very afraid of hyx.., "

"Excuse Asthma, all wrong Asthma hiks.. Asthma is really scared.. "

I was very surprised by what Asthma said. I said I died! how could it be, was the torture really real and I came back to life. Allow God to hear my cry, He is there and hear it, I thought trembling.

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