The First Night of Cana (Angel Without Wings)

Just go!

"Where!"

Kana almost dropped the glasses she had just lifted on the tray as a man greeted her with a loud voice.

"Sorry, sorry to be surprised, honey?"

Kana grieves and then says the word amit-amit in the heart. If he does not remember the child in his stomach he has cursed the man in front of him.

"Mas Evan! I am aduin to Mbak Nadi. Godain Ma'am Kana continues!" exclaim Ratih took over the tray that was in Kana's hands.

"Aduin aja, weeeekkkk!!" reply Evan the boy who was a dozen years old difference with Kana was sneering at Ratih who glared at him before he went to bring the tray to the kitchen.

Kana shook her head to see the behavior of her late husband's cousin.

"Kanaaa," said Evan in a spoiled voice.

"Wear Evan's 'take', I'm older than you, '" said Kana and sat on an empty chair that had not been lifted to the table.

"Yes, it's not polite lhoo," added Ratih who came again carrying a washcloth and began wiping tables that had not been cleaned.

"Don't want to call Ma'am, he wants to call you darling, dong!"Evan blinked one eye then sat in front of Kana staring at the woman with sparkling eyes.

Kana just laughs to think that what Evan said is only the joke of a big new boy who is still unstable. Evan knows what happened to her, including her getting pregnant out of wedlock. But who and why it happened he doesn't know.

"Kana, play yuk! To the zoo, Ken's tomorrow?" invite Evan his eyes flickering expectantly.

"We're the only Kana Ma'am invited, we-we're not?" ask Ratih.

"No!" sahut Evan firmly.

Kana smiled thinly. "What is this about dating?" kana Goda, I think it's funny as well as this kid's seduction.

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Evan blushed in shame. " Want ya?Promise me, if Ken's fussy I'm the fat one."

"If your schoolmates see, aren't you ashamed?"

"Well, why should I be ashamed? Anyway, they're not going there. Because only high school kids go to the zoo!" evan exclaimed then smiled clumsyly after realizing his own words. He forgot that he was still in school.

Kana. Not because of Evan's words, but he remembered something. A zoo? A gembiraloka? Is that the same place? The place where she received Joddy's love statement? Ah, of course! It is the only zoo in the world.

Jesus, Kana! Why are you still thinking about people's husbands? Forget her! Remember all the insults of her parents that have hurt your parents.

"Where? Want huh?" Kana's attention returned to Evan who was still waiting for his answer. Kana smiled but her smile faded as she looked at the figure behind Evan.

"Can... Dear." Even Evan's call was unable to take Kana's eyes off the figure standing in front of the entrance of the cafe.

Their views meet. Straight, straight. There was a feeling of longing that impudently crept just like that in Cana's heart.

She wishes she had been dreaming or hallucinating. But it felt no, the figure walked towards him.

"Where, will we go out with Ken tomorrow?" invite Evan who was somehow unable to make him take his eyes off the glasses man who was now standing right behind Evan to look at Kana with his shady gaze.

"Sorry, our cafe is closed. Please come back tomorrow!" Ratih said politely as he looked at the man.

"I'm here to pick up my wife and child" the man replied without taking his eyes off Cana. Kana frowned at the man's words.

"I'm sorry, which wife and child do you mean? Who was it with before?" It is not the intention of Ratih kepo just be vigilant, because it is late at night there are rarely cafe guests at closing hours like this and what was the reason earlier? Bringing wife and child?

"Joddy, Joddy Pradana."

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Kana opened her bedroom window. His eyes narrowed as he looked at the unusual sight. It's still six in the morning but he's already heard Ken's cheerful laughter in the courtyard of his homestay home. Kana is shocked when she sees Joddy playing ball with Ken in the yard. Mbok Darmi who is still sleepy occasionally clapped his hands when Ken's tiny foot managed to kick the ball thrown at him.

"Mother!!" Her tiny hand waved telling Kana to come closer.

"Ken, this hour has been playing. Haven't had a bath yet to eat," reprimanded Kana lifting Ken's body still in pajamas pictured with Ken's favorite cartoon car.

"Ken playing with Om!" sahut Ken appointed Joddy.

Joddy who saw Kana lifting Ken's body was a little panicked, because Kana was pregnant young and Ken's body was too heavy to carry.

"Na, don't be carried here let me be the fat one." Joddy attempts to retrieve Ken from Kana's sling but Kana rewinds her body so that Joddy's hand can't reach Ken.

Joddy took a breath. Again he got a rejection. Kana didn't want to talk to him last night. Kana chose to go home delivered by the snot child in order to avoid it.

Though Joddy painstakingly persuaded his superiors to allow him to take leave early, and immediately flew from Jakarta to Jogja just to meet and thankfully he wanted to go home with him. But unfortunately, it's not easy. Kana. Kana's really building a wall so Joddy can't get to it.

"Ken, go in first. Keep showering we'll make breakfast."

"Wouldn't. Ken wants to be the same Om later!" reject Ken. Kana sighed then called Mbok Dar and asked him to bring Ken into the house. Ignoring Ken's little whimper asking to be taken down.

" What are you here for?" ketus Kana as soon as Ken and Mbok Dar enter the house.

"Sir, I'm here to pick you up with Ken back."

Kana laughed sarcastically at Joddy's reply. "Pick me up with Ken? Not wrong? What would your pregnant wife say if she heard this?" sindir Kana ketus's.

Instead of being angry or upset, Joddy smiled at Kana's question. "Yes, try to answer, my wife is you!" sahut Joddy with eyebrows raised

"Don't be so reckless! Better now that you're gone, before Mom and your wife accuse me of snatching people's husbands!" drive Kana.

Joddy was silent for a moment, he knew Kana was still heartbroken by what her mother said. Joddy knows how Kana feels now. Humiliated in public by Laras and reviled in front of his papa mama, so it's only natural that Kana gets angry at him.

"Sir, I'm sorry for what my mother and I did to you. I know you're hurt but please give me a chance to make amends for what I've done to you and your family."

"No need to apologize! Take care of your wife and child! " cute Kana, still clinging firmly to her memory of how Laras humiliated her in public and Jihan's insults at her. Then Joddy could easily ask her to forgive him? Nah! It won't be that easy.

"The way you make amends is to stop ruining my life and Ken's. Let me and Ken be happy with our new life! Go ye! Go!!" Kana pushes Joddy away from her.

"Na, don't be like this. Listen to my explanation, Kana. It's not all like what you think, me and Laras don't-"

"Go! Go now, brother!" push Kana with teary eyes.

"Where, listen to me first you can't be like this."

"I don't want to hear anything from you. Now go! Go!"

"I'm not leaving! I'll take you and our children back to Jakarta" Joddy said firmly.

Kana was silent for a moment then looked at Joddy and laughed discordantly. "Your children? You mean what? Ken and the kid that's in this belly?" Kana put her hand on her stomach.

"Ken is not your son, he is the son of Adrian Hanafi Rusman your friend! And this baby, he'll never know his father. So, just take care of your son with that woman!" Seeing Joddy who did not move even a little from where he stood, Kana finally decided to leave Joddy who was just silently staring straight at him.

"I'm not married, Kana!"

joddy's shout stopped Kana's new steps halfway through. Inevitably Kana was quite disturbed by Joddy's words just now.

"Laras is pregnant. But not pregnant with my son, she's pregnant with my sister."

Kana turned her back to look at Joddy bangtung.

"What?"

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