The First Night of Cana (Angel Without Wings)

All right if that's what you want

Kana thought after she kicked Joddy out at Kanda's wedding, Joddy would leave and she would never dare to see him again. In fact, the man is now in front of his house, his clothes are still the same as the one he was wearing at the party sign, Joddy has not returned to his apartment.

Before approaching Joddy, Kana signals Mbok Dar who is holding a sleeping Ken to enter the house first. Mama and Papa are still at the hotel and staying there while Kana decides to go home because the house is empty.

"What are you doing here? Want to make sure Thomas is? He's fine." Kana siding gave a cold look at the man who until now still loved it.

"Sir, don't go to Canada with that guy."

Kana was a little shocked when she heard Joddy's words, so she came all night here just to say that? Prohibit him from going with another man.

"You have no right to forbid me. We have each other's lives."

"I don't like you going with any guy."

"It's none of your business."

Kana intends to leave but Joddy's hand pulls Kana's wrist. "Don't hurt me like this, Na. We both know who's in each other's hearts."

Joddy still hopes Kana will change her views on their relationship. Joddy still hopes Kana will fight together or at least let Joddy fight even alone.

Quietly Kana confirmed in her heart. Kana is hurting Joddy and maybe herself. He still harbors those feelings for Joddy, the angel without his wings. But now he had to break his angel wings to stop looking for him.

"It is precisely because I know who is in my heart that I am doing this. Nevermind, Brother. Please stop, stop bothering me and Ken. You can be happy without me, and vice versa without you me and Ken can be happy. I'm tired, brother. Your current attitude tormented me. Please get out of my life. Let me live my new life with Thomas." Good Kana, good! You did well, very well. Look at the visible wounds in those shady eyes. You've managed to hurt him.

Joddy was glued to where he stood. Trying to digest every word that just came out of Kana's lips. So, all this stunt he did was make Kana tormented?The struggle he was doing also made Kana tormented?Not that loving should make each other happy. If one of them feels tormented, it is not love.

Joddy was eager to deny it and thought everything Kana said was just nonsense. But what if it turns out to be true? Does he have to let Kana go and let her be with another man whose family can accept Kana for who she is?

"Well if it wants you." This is not from the heart when Joddy said it but saw the face of Kana who looks calm when she heard it then Joddy suspects this is what Kana wants.

"I will stop fighting according to your will."

She bit her lips hard, don't cry, don't cry.

"Remember Na, this is your will not my will."

Kana knows. This is all Kana wants, she's separated from Joddy, there's no Joddy name in her life and buries everything about Joddy. Then he must not cry, for it is the same as he regrets his own decision.

"I know." Kana says calmly so that Joddy knows if he will be okay and is sure that this is what Kana really wants. Even though his heart said something else.

" As you wish, I will marry Laras in charge of what I have done."

Kana clenched her hand firmly withstanding the pain entrenched in her heart.

"Goodoo. Be the man in charge." Kana smiled faintly, then blinked a few times holding back the tears that almost spilled.

"Have you? You can get out of here." Kana was only afraid that tears would drip down her cheeks, she did not want Joddy to see her.

"alright. Take care of yourself and Ken." It was the only message Joddy had told Kana before she stepped away leaving Kana still standing in her place.

As soon as Joddy's car leaves his yard, Kana's defense collapses as well. He sat down with tears already broken. Bite his tongue so that his sobs are not heard by the neighbors.

"I love you, sister," said Kana Lirih almost only herself who heard.

If there is a foolish woman. Kana is the one. He releases a near-perfect man like Joddy who willingly accepts him, loving him sincerely. Kana knows that. But Kana realizes she can't be selfish, and Jihan is more entitled to Joddy. Joddy deserves to be happy but not with him. He also had to make his mother happy with the mother's choice.

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In the morning, Kana goes to the office wearing glasses. Covering up the swelling in her eyes as a result of crying over Joddy all night. Now Kana's head is a little dizzy due to lack of sleep. Actually, Kana wanted permission not to enter the office but she was not good because she was often truant.

Kana nodded. " okay. Okay, even that." Kana is only lazy if she has to explain what happened to her. Telling Key would even aggravate the condition of his heart.

Last night he felt his world was destroyed. Now it's time for him to get up and try a new life without Joddy in it. God, it's only been a day - an attempt to forget Joddy - it feels like he's been sick. Pain resisted longing to meet.

"Keep why is it that the eyes are swollen like bitten wasps so?"

" Without the marathon watch drakor." Even as Kana last remembered she watched a Korean drama after the thesis hearing, it was because Adrian left her late at the office and she was lonely at home.

"Cirain from a broken heart."

Appropriately. Not just broken but almost smashed to pieces. Now it remains as Kana arranges the broken pieces back together and it will take time.

"By the way, how's the handsome Om doing?" Key raised his eyebrows when he asked. Kana knows what Key means is Joddy.

"It's fine." Kana wasn't entirely lying. Kana knew once Joddy would be fine after last night.

"But you're not okay. " Key stared fixedly at Kana who immediately threw away her face.

"It doesn't matter if you don't want a story yet." Key smiled he knew a drakor marathon was just Kana's excuse. He knows Kana is having problems that he does not want to share and Key is not someone who is too eager to enter into the personal lives of others.

"Thanks, Key." Kana is grateful to have a friend who understands her. Key never forced Kana to tell the story just like Moli and Nea, Key always waited for Kana to tell her own story.

"Yes, yuk's home!" Key patted Kana on the shoulder and guided her out of the office.

"Why not use a car, Na?"

"So good, likes to get stuck." Kana. His steps suddenly stopped when he saw a car that he very much memorized its owner. A woman then went out and approached Kana with her haughty steps. The owner of the car sitting in the steering wheel shows no signs of moving from his seat. He was still in the car sitting with a straight forward look.

"Whose car was Mr. Joddy?" whispered Key beside him. Kana did not have time to answer because the woman was already standing in front of her.

"Hi, Kana! You're finally out, too." It was not the kind of greeting to mamah Laras even said it with a lazy face.

"What are you doing?" kana asked her gaze straight towards Joddy past Laras who was standing in front of her.

"Ah, yes. Hush!" Barrel opened his expensive bag and took out something.

"It!" Laras offered an invitation to Kana. "My engagement to Joddy. Joddy asked to be accelerated," he added.

Kana was a little shocked and accepted it with a feeling of remorse.

"Joddy told me to let the courier just nganter, but it's not polite because after all you guys were close. So, I just forced Joddy to nemenin nganter. Uh, want him." The barrel looked back at Joddy who was still in the car.

"Come in a week. Anyway you should come, we wait. " Laras smiled towards Kana who was staring at the nanar of an invitation in her hand. An invitation with the names Joddy and Laras written in gold ink.

"Yes, I said it first. Want to have dinner with Joddy he really wants to say dinner together. " Finished talking Laras and went into Joddy's car.

Kana stared at Joddy when their gaze accidentally met a gentle and shady gaze that Kana did not find changed with a cold gaze.

"So this is what makes your eyes swollen?" key asked after Joddy's car passed away.

Kana was biting her deep lips firmly, the tears she had been holding back from earlier finally spilled out as well. Destroyed is his defense.

"I-I love him Key" whispered Kana between sobs. Key hugged Kana tightly, stroking her back gently trying to calm her best friend down.

"Prophey, Na."Key strengthened his embrace hoping it could strengthen Kana.

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