The Diary Ecca

Part 43's

...The love...

"I like you" the words that shocked me and looked at Fikri's brother who was looking at me sharply, in shame I turned my eyes away.

"Ooh like, thank God I like a lot of.hhhh" I said.

"Hem..I not only like, but I love you Ca" I just kept staring at him, not knowing what to respond to his words.

It is not the story of Romeo and Juliet that is well written and not of Rama and Shinta.

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"I don't know, when this feeling came, which I know I felt this from the first time I saw you, yes since I ospek you, without you knowing I diem-diem always pay attention to you, you know, I'm jealous when you talk to another guy, but I never had the courage to talk this feeling to you I always busy myself so I could forget about my feelings but I even liked you more, it was only recently that I realized I didn't want to be tormented because of this feeling, I know you're shocked, I didn't ask for more decisions than you, I just want to express what I'm feeling so I don't have any more burden.I'm sorry for my stupidity" he said at length.

I was still pensive not being able to say anything more, I was confused as to what God help me, I sighed and turned my face towards Brother Fikri with a smile.

Then I told him...

"No, brother, I understand...Thanks for the taste, but sorry sis I can not give more hope for brother Fikri, brother, but I salute you that you can try to be honest with your own feelings and we can still be your friend" I replied casually, and reached out my hand.

"But Ca, even if I can't have your heart now, I will wait until you can accept me!" Exclaims.

"Sister, don't do that, don't love someone too much, which must be Fikri's brother love excess is just Him" while showing my finger to the sky.

"I know Ca, but I can't go that fast taking this taste away" he said.

"Brothers believe in God?" ask me and then he nodded.

"If Brother Fikri believes in Him, pray and ask him for guidance, we all do not know what God is planning for us, but you must be sure whatever path we are going through now it comes from God and will go because of God too, for now I cannot accept the feeling of brother" I said.

He just looked at me dumbfounded with an empty look.

"Yes I know, maybe someone else already has your heart" she replied with a smile.

"Hem, it's not like that" I replied evasively.

"We believe in Him, brother, match is in His hands, if He has predestined us to match we can not dodge, right?" connect me while smiling.

"Yes Ca, thank you for my feelings, my heart was not wrong to choose you to fill the emptiness" he said.

I looked back at him timidly.

"Eh, it's time we gather, brother, to stand again yok" asked me not to dissolve in this very uncomfortable atmosphere.

While walking we just kept quiet, sometimes looking at each other. I feel awkward as if Brother Fikri feels the same way.

Ever since that incident, Brother Fikri has been acting strangely, like avoiding me. I feel guilty but I have to, I can't pretend to like him, and I can't possibly lie to my own feelings. In my daydream I saw David's shadow that was always on my mind.

"O God, what exactly are you planning for me?" I asked while looking up at the sky.

"O Allah, show me the best way to live my servant, O Allah forgive me for hurting your Servant, but what I have to do, O Allah, show me the way for my servant, do not let him hate the servant because the servant knows that you hate it so much, O Allah help the servant."

With tears in my eyes, I remained in the mosque until midnight. I heard an acoustic sound that David often played, I ran around looking for the source of his voice, hoping David was here.

I want to see it, I really hope to see it. I kept running looking for the voice, ran and ran with tears, quietly calling out David's name.

Until I got tired and stopped sitting weakly in front of the guesthouse where I was staying. And the voice slowly disappeared.

"Ca, what's wrong with you?" the voice of brother Fikri, who ran towards me and thrust his jacket at me, and closed the jacket to my body, he was worried to see me teary-eyed.

"Let's go in!" Excited Brother Fikri.

Then Brother Fikri asked me to go into the guesthouse to take me to my room.

"Ca where are you?!, why, Ca?!" greet Deva.

Then she cried and hugged me, I was silenced I could only shut up and say a word when they asked me.

"Ca you why?, why so gini si?, brother Fikri, Ecca why?!" added Devi.

Devi's out with brother Fikri might want to talk something. I don't know what was going through my body and my mind, I was so eager to meet David.

I want to hug her, I want to tell her everything I'm going through right now. I was confused as to what was happening to me, Deva was still hugging me and I was crying, I looked at her and smiled faintly.

"You why Ca?" he asked while holding back the tears.

"I'm not pa-pa Va, I'm tired of going to sleep" Deva helped and nodded her head to lie down, she slept beside me while hugging me.

Then Devi entered she also lay down near me and hugged me.

"Ca. I know what you're feeling, cry as much as you can if it calms you down" she said.

Hearing Devi's words I shed tears again and held Deva Devi's hand tightly.

"I'm confused as to why love makes me this sick!" Excruciate.

"Maybe now love makes you sick, but believe me if the destiny of love comes from God then you will feel happy" added Devi.

I just kept silent to allow Devi's words.

"Tomorrow we go home, tomorrow straight to your house Ca, I miss your mother's cup cake" said Deva.

Which turns our sad mood into a collapse because of our laughter, thank God you give friends who always understand me.

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