The Diary Ecca

Part 3

...The Canteen...

"Ach.. You don't trust the guy, I think if you're the same he's bloated" added Devi.

"Yap cucok B.G.T" Sahut Deva.

"Hust. don't make doch, perpus yuk I want to find a book for material tomorrow" I said to stop their imagination.

"Ach, you're Ca until when the guy wants to be single, the opportunity only comes once" said devi.

"Heh speaking what the fuck, you mother .. cepet pay "break me.

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Being who we are without a mask and a stale base does not always make us friends. But once we get it, then that's good news. Only true friends always understand us for who we are. They spoke less and less many times, protesting here and there. Benahi that is not his business, forget the main task is to take care of your own business.

We came out of the cafeteria and I silently looked at Fikri's brother who happened to be facing us and threw a smile at me. I returned his smile quickly turning to catch up with Deva and Devi. I looked at the books on the shelf. While Deva and Devi are engrossed in their laptops, with srius I search for the book I was looking for all of a sudden.

"Search for this book?!"

The voice that surprised me so much that it made me jump a little, I immediately turned my body and it turned out that brother Fikri was standing right behind me by thrusting the book I was looking for.

"Hem" reflexes startled "i-iya.kok know.tell nervous while receiving the book.

"Yes you know.. happens to be your search results on the computer have not come out and I also happen to see this book is still on the table, maybe someone just read it" explained brother Fikri by spreading his smile to me.

"Oow that, thanks brother if that's how I went first" I replied by pointing at the table where Deva and Devi were sitting.

"Oh, okay! Equally" I walked towards Deva and Devi

"Eee wait!" just a quarter of my steps

"Eee, turn my body back towards Brother Fikri

"Yes! Why sis?"

"No, there will be a seminar on systematic creation of scientific papers and I happen to be a role model if you and your friends are willing to participate in the activity to add a reference" with a smiling hope.

The thing that always makes the heart worry is when you choose to love someone, but never have more courage to express it. That feeling was like a pain that for years did not find a cure, if only you dared to say it maybe you were not killed dead by your own feelings. Indeed, as someone who first fell in love, that feeling of fear was always there. Make your heart worry not that day is not night always imagined, for me I prefer to love in silence, because I will not find the word fear in love.

"Oh yes brother insyaallah yes, Make the info" I replied with a gentle smile.

"OK! See you" Fikri replied with a smile and left where he was standing earlier.

To be a man, do I have to sacrifice my own feelings? Whether to be a man I had to leave my childhood only to listen to the voices of others; the grudges, swearing, scorn and reproofs that are often hurtful.

I've been drowning for a long time, probably since the last time I slept under my mother's tree. The tree where I used to be. The tree was still there, silent and alone. It feels far but close. I sometimes want to touch her, like I touched my mother's wall for the first time. But I know I'm not the old one anymore. And mother is like home who misses my presence. He wants me to go home to him. But I don't know, is tomorrow still enough time for me to be myself?

I continued my steps and thought, when did Brother Fikri walk towards me because I was too solemn looking for a book to not know if there was someone behind me. Hem was probably just a coincidence, I walked over with an indistinct smile.

"Hey! Ca, wah so sweet! So ngiri ni .. hahahaha sahut Deva and Devi who turned out that from then on they noticed me with brother Fikri with their pretentious facial expressions.

"Hem. what the fuck did not need to peres dech earlier was just a coincidence"

"it just so happened to be twice that" Deva denied teasing me.

"Two

"Two times?.. When's? kan recently "shall be curious while remembering "twice dong, who was in the cafeteria secretly stole a look at you and the second cook suddenly he was there when you needed help, he said, it's rich jin aja... hahaha" added Devi supporting Deva and they giggled with each other, making me sing my mouth.

"Suuuutttt.please calm down, don't make a scene here!" ketusus library staff, who suddenly stop the giggling event Deva and Devi who began clinguran change their expressions.

"Ach you guys... What time is it? I have to go to class late". Putting the book in my bag and walking ahead of Deva and Devi.

"Yuuukk, Deva followed the capcus." added my step.

"Ech Ca, what did Brother Fikri say?" Devi was still curious "want to know?, do you want to know so much?.. hem" I replied while grinning.

"Ach, I'm srius ca!" added Devi whining.

Because I was sure that what He really presented would be more beautiful without me looking for it, until I finally saw a perfect man in my eyes. He is polite, courteous, intelligent, active and understanding. He's my senior brother Fikri, close to him I feel comfortable and I think that comfort is love. It turned out that I misinterpreted it, until David finally came into my life.

"Can! Let's go now" Deva Devi replied in unison which made me confused and shocked to look at the two of them alternately. Which shows their twinkle faces.

"Hey! You guys we'll have class now, we'll have our class finished" I replied annoyed and continued my steps.

"Hem, if you run out of the show Ca!" pinta Deva whined while tugging at my left hand.

"Indeed why if it's finished.. is there still another event sometime not have to now right?" reply relax.

"But, if tomorrow-tomorrow is not necessarily Fikri's brother follow" denied Devi. Which stopped me and turned to look at them.

"Oh, my dear friends, would you like to attend a seminar to meet Brother Fikri or take his knowledge?"

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