SIN (Lecturer Dear)

Chapter 99: Only you ....

Realizing Darren had known everything, Valen's mother felt it was right not to cover anything from her son's husband. But according to the agreement of the mother and child, Karen plans to tell Darren about the disease today. Who would have thought, Darren even first knew from the doctor.

Mami Valen nodded helplessly. "Actually, a month ago Karen went to the gynecologist. From there she knew there was a tumor in her womb."

"Why doesn't he tell me the same story? Does she not consider me her husband?" darren asked as he massaged the temple, then rubbed his face violently. The reason he came out of the doctor room with a stiff face was not excited, because he was thinking about how to tell all this to Karen without making her shocked.

Mami Valen shook her head quickly. "He didn't mean to keep this a secret from you. He was confused and scared. He is afraid that you and your family may object and not be able to accept his condition. Because the same story mami, he found out a lot of information about this disease on the internet, he also read the experiences of women who can be similar verdicts. He thought the illness might be that severe and in the end you'll leave him like the people's story" he explained in a slow voice.

"Yes, there's no way I'm like that. If it's like gini, it means he doesn't trust me completely" Darren said.

"Mommy also doesn't understand why she has such a trust issue cake. Just so you know, for a month Karen tried to change herself for the better. He studied hard, practiced cooking, even tried to take your Oma heart. He does not protest even though you rarely call or just nanyain reportedly first. He swallowed his own vexation without vaping it at you. It was all because he wanted to look understanding in your eyes. She wants to be the ideal wife for you. At least, if the doctor's initial verdict is really real, your feelings for him will not change. She's just afraid of losing you" Valen said in a wavy tone of voice.

Darren. His eyes were opened with his mouth slightly open. For a while the man just pecked. Hearing what her in-laws had just revealed, her heart seemed to be pierced by dozens of daggers. His tongue was suddenly confused to make a sound. Now, he has been getting answers to his wife's recent changes.

"How are you doing now, Karen? What did the doctor say?" ask mami Valen.

"Doctor's word .. bleeding effect due to the size of the tumor that is getting bigger, if diibiarin longer. It is not impossible that the only thing is to undergo the procedure ..removal of the uterus," Darren replied with a sentence that sounded disjointed.

"That's what Karen was afraid of until she didn't want to fit in and take the consul to another doctor. Mami please, you have to convince her." Mami Valen holds Darren's arm with misty eyes.

Darren nodded, not wanting to say much.

"Let's see Karen!" take my mom Valen.

Just about to enter following her in-laws, Darren's steps were restrained when Nadya and Vera approached her while handing over the bag Karen had brought.

"Sir, this is Karen's bag. We'll take our leave, sir. You see, the nurse said, the patient should only be dibesuk two people for now. But in the afternoon we return again," said Nadya.

"Thank you, yeah!"

Darren opened Karen's bag to just look at the contents. The first ones in his vision were the books he had recommended to him. There was also a bottle of gum he had seen in the nightstand drawer. He hastily opened the bottle which turned out to contain a drug tablet.

He also picked up the phone in the bag. The wallpaper looks the same as the one on his phone. When the phone key is open, it immediately displays the chat message in the chat application that has not been closed. Karen seemed to be typing a message on him, but had not been sent.

Karen: Honey, someone wants me to talk to you.

When checking the gallery album, it turns out there are a lot of photos that capture her face secretly while they are together. Like when he was sleeping, cooking, and teaching him. Stupidly, he didn't realize it at all.

"Darren ...." Karen tried to get up and sit back. "Sorry, I'm worried about you. I just got my period this morning, don't know why it's flooding so much that my head's dizzy." Karen gave a stupid grin, revealing a row of her pure white teeth. He still acted as if nothing had happened to him.

"Can you stop pretending to look strong, right?" The firm voice accompanied by the flat face of the man made the smile that lingered on his lips gradually disappear.

As the man approached and sat down at the side of his bed, he lowered his head, without daring to look at him. Mami Valen went straight out of the room to let the couple talk.

The man who had married her took her hand and then taped it to the side of her face. "I'm sorry I didn't realize anything. Sorry, if busyness makes me think less or pay attention to trivial things that actually mean. And sorry again, there are still a lot of things I don't understand about you."

Karen shakes. "No, you don't have to apologize to me. I am not honest with you. You're not wrong, anything" said the woman. He bit his lower lip, trying to hold the water droplets that were about to flow from the corner of his eye.

Darren held him tightly. "Don't hide anything from me! Don't hold any trouble! Don't try too hard to look okay! Don't suffer alone, share with me .. just as we share pleasure."

Karen's cry broke out instantly. "I'm not supposed to be your wife. The doctor said there was a chance my uterus was removed. Though the womb of privilege that a woman has. How can I be called a woman if I don't have a uterus. I will not have menstruation again. Doesn't that mean I'm going to early menopause? I will also not be able to meet the expectations of Oma to give you descent. And maybe, the activity of our beds will not be the same as usual," he said accompanied by a clear liquid that flows profusely from the eyes of a waterfall tub. His back shook violently. He kept spewing out shivers of sadness. Removing the tightness that had long been restrained and lodged in his heart.

"Look at me!" pinta Darren cupped Karen in the face, "Everything will be fine. We're dealing with this together. If necessary, seek a second opinion from another doctor. Although the operation will be the only path we have to take, nothing will change. You remain a woman I love. You're still my wife."

"Since hearing the doctor's explanation, each time you fall asleep becomes a frightening specter for me. I was too afraid to close my eyes and when I woke up having to face the reality you might be tired and bored and decide to stay with me."

For Karen, every drop of love Darren gives her is too expensive, because it has to be paid for with fear of losing the man. The fear seemed to control himself, so busy imagining bad things happening in their relationship. Possibility of abandonment.

Darren's hand touched Karen's head again, pulling gently to her side, until the two's foreheads intersected. While the next hand again, inserted in between the fingers Karen. Form a firm and warm grip.

"Our union in marriage is part of God's great plan. Therefore, we must strengthen the soles of the feet to cross the thorns that God spread as a test of the household. We better fight together. Hold my hand tightly. As long as we trust each other, everything will be fine. I still want company to spend a cup of tea on our porch. I still want to be accompanied to taste street food and fight for a seat with other buyers. I still want to go through every night together without anyone knowing. I still want you. Only thou. Whether it's now, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and forever. So please, don't ever think I'll let you go let alone leave you. I've been left too often, where maybe I'll do the same to the people I love" Darren said, looking at his wife's bead.

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Author notes ⁇ ️️

As always, I have a song that represents the story in each of my novels. And for this novel, I think the right song describes the story of Karen and Darren lauv whose title is Paris in the rain. You see, there is one of the lyrics that I think is very appropriate to describe the situation of their feelings, "Cause anything with you feels right. Anywhere with you feels like Paris in the rain." Romantic, no, anyway? Okay, who wants to hear firsthand just look at bang Yusup, lauv-paris in the rain.