SIN (Lecturer Dear)

Chapter 94: Talks between Karen and Chalvin

Oma Belle's words made her feel like she was a selfish person. Indeed, the decision not to want to have children came from himself, not from Darren. During this time Darren also often defended him from Oma's compelling demands. However, would he continue to rely on the defense of the man?

Still sitting leaning with a raging mind, Karen grabbed her phone and tried to contact Valen's mom. Even though he was married, he still needed a mother figure as the most comfortable place to complain.

"Hello, Karen my sweetie pie ...." Mami Vallen seemed happy to receive a call from her son.

"Mommy ...." Karen's voice shook with sadness.

"You why? Sick again? Your voice is not fit that." Although Vallen's mom looks relaxed, but she is still a mother who has a sharp intuition for her child. His hunch could guess if the child was just a puppet was being mired in grief.

"Have you returned to Indonesia yet?" he asked while swallowing bitter.

"Udah. Just yesterday. Nih, mami has brought souvenirs from Paris for you with Darren. The plan was to come to your house this morning, only suddenly there was a meeting at the branch office. You're in good health, right? How much lemes."

Just about to reply, suddenly there was a sound like footsteps. Thinking Darren had come home, he stood up and immediately disconnected the phone and turned to the door. It turns out that the one who came was Chalvin.

"Ren, where's Oma?" chalvin asked, trying to peer into the room.

"Home home. It was with Darren."

"Byeah, Oma! Forced to come here, uh he went home," grumbled Chalvin. Accidentally looking at Karen, he even noticed the lethargic face of his cousin's wife. "Your face is pale. It hurt?" tanyakanya.

"Yes. That's why I didn't go to college. Today is UAS." Karen was grinning stupidly while scratching her head that did not itch.

"What pain?" chalvin asked with a foot that stepped in.

"Just a fever."

"Fever? Fever is not a disease, but a symptom of a disease." Chalvin sat on the sofa crossing one leg. "Darren knows, doesn't he?"

"Know. That's why he didn't go to college today."

"I'm not talking about your pain right now. You went to the doctor a few weeks ago? What do I mean, Darren knows nothing about that?"

Karen was silent and confused as to why Chalvin was talking about it. Moreover, Chalvin's gaze full of question marks made him a little uncomfortable. It's like being in an interrogation room.

"I don't think you know." Chalvin can find the answer from his eyes and the look on his face.

"I just came by to check. Yesterday I thought I was pregnant, but I wasn't."

"Keep ... Why did you take anti-cancer drugs at that time?"

Karen's pupils dilated instantly. He was nervous and could only swallow. His gloomy face was beginning to look.

"Misunderlook your times. I just bought vitamin doang." Karen tried to make the tone of voice sound ordinary.

"Don't denial¹, deh!"

"Really!" Karen tried to convince.

"If that's what I think I should be like Darren!" Chalvin stood up and reached into his pocket to pick up the cell phone. This is just a trick to get Karen to confess.

Panicked Karen, immediately approached Chalvin trying to intercept him, "Ja–don't! I ... haven't told Darren."

Karen was helpless. "Not a disgrace," he repeated his frail laugh, "but what if that would be a source of trouble for both of us. What if Darren will not accept or Oma who does not accept his grandson turns out to marry a woman who—"

"You're a trust issue² gini?" cut off Chalvin who doesn't understand Karen's current panic.

Karen stared at Chalvin. "The doctor said there was a big lump in my uterus. He said it was a tumor that could develop into cancer. I don't know the language of medicine, but I'm scared. Even for Darren's story, I can't stand it! I don't know how to start." When saying this sentence, his eyes looked up to prevent the water droplets that began to pool in his eye fertilizers from falling onto his cheeks.

Chalvin gasped, but tried to shake off Karen's anger. "That's still the initial verdict. The doctor was wrong."

Karen nodded to saru. "Yes, the doctor told me to do a follow-up test."

"Continue, have you?"

Karen shook her head while staring in any direction.

"Loh .. Why not do it? A doctor's diagnosis can be missed."

"I'm scared! Fear of facing all the possibilities that happen in the future. I'm afraid the test results might be worse than the doctor's diagnosis. I can't imagine the series of treatments and therapies that I have to undergo. Didn't you ever tell me that Darren's father cheated on her and left Darren's mother while battling uterine cancer? How about ... what if it repeats itself at our wedding. How about ...." The sentence came to a halt when Karen's voice was hoarse and almost inaudible. It felt hard to compose a sentence among the tightness that felt in his heart.

Yes, the circumstances that he is experiencing at this time make him worried that he will repeat the story of Darren's parents. From childhood to adolescence his life is fairly happy, luxurious and abundant in love from his parents. He almost never thinks of complicated things or life problems as many people experience. His life was almost perfect when married to a beautiful lecturer idol friends. However, who would have thought, nothing is perfect in this world except song titles.

"Karen, beat me up! You are too overthinking! Did you forget that I also said Darren's nature followed his late mother. Darren is different from his father. I think, the pain that you are currently not because of the symptoms of the disease that you are experiencing. But the effects of the negative prejudices you're craving."

"Yes, you're right! Lately I've been thinking ... I'm very lucky to have a husband like Darren, but ..why is Darren unlucky to have my kayak wife?" Karen's voice shook violently with a clear melt flowing in the corner of her eye. He turned his back to Chalvin, trying to control himself to keep looking strong while wiping away the tears that were coming out.

Chalvin stared at Karen's back with an empathetic face. His hand reflexively stretched forward, as if to calm him down. When he almost touched the woman's hair, Chalvin clasped her empty hand tightly and dropped it down.

"That chalvin?" Darren's voice coming from the direction of the door shocked the two.

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Denial is the denial of a person as self-defense so as not to get more depressed or stressed. People who often do this action are usually faced with a big problem. For example, the cake of artists who are scandalized, people who are involved in financial problems, or receive a sentence of severe illness like Karen.

Trust issue is a situation when a person has difficulty believing in others. Usually this has to do with the past or events around them. For example, people who have been cheated on their partners will not easily believe again with their partners. Or like this Karen, she had a hard time trusting Darren, knowing that Darren's mother had been in the same situation she was in today, but had instead been abandoned.

Btw, this is psychology. Has anyone ever experienced the two things above?