Secretly Loving You's

Ch 44 - The Saka

"Boncel, how are you? You remember me?" ask her with a dikulum smile and eyes shining ignorantly.

I'm stunned. Don't know what to react to. I remember those eyes and that smile. Like I've seen, but I don't know where. I'm trying to dig up buried memories, maybe something's missing, but I can't find it. For the 22 years I lived, I had never had an acquaintance of a soldier. Then, who is this guy? Why call me with a "boncel" call that somehow also feels very familiar?

"W-who's who?" I surrendered. Digged like anything, no memory of him. Maybe this guy misrecognized people.

"Well, it looks like I've become more handsome, until a boncel doesn't recognize me." The man scratched his flap hair while smiling widely. His eyes shone and became more lively, like a child who was getting a coveted gift. He's very expressive.

"Look at me carefully. Look at this face. Don't you remember?" His voice became a little more. He put his index finger and thumb under his chin. One hand holds the other. Eyes squint with a smile. His behavior reminds me of the alay boy who tried to proclaim himself handsome and cool.

Little by little my lips began to widen. I refrained from spitting out the laughter that was already at the tip of my lips. Half-dead I tried to hold it, to make my body shake. Just imagine, his sturdy body and male uniform are in stark contrast to his behavior that is pretentious and cute.

"If you want to laugh, laugh. Why was detained. I'm that funny." This time he rolled his eyes while pursing his lips. I can't hold it anymore. My laughter exploded. I closed my mouth with my hands, to hold the sound of laughter out.

Who the hell is this guy? Why is he so slebor? Was he ashamed of his uniform? His tall and muscular body? Why are you acting like this?

The frightening and difficult to approach impression that was originally attached has now disappeared. The guy looks more friendly. I relax and am not afraid anymore.

She looked at me with a small smile. The sparkle in his eyes was still dancing. His face is very expressive. In one look, I can guess the contents of his head. He's happy to see me. It is easy to understand a man like this. Unlike someone, who is very rigid and ambiguous. Makes me think hard just to know his head.

"Have you remembered me?" ask with hope. I shook my head. That happy expression instantly turned sad. "Ckckck, whereas, I am the most meritorious person in your life," he lamented, returning in a frown.

"Who the hell?" tugutku.

"Need clue?" tanyakanya. I'm nodding. He brought his head closer. Her lips came to my ears. "Relatedly need a clue?"

"Yes. Who the hell?"

"Will not be ashamed?" I shook my head. "Related?"

"Knew!"

"It's not my fault that you force it like this." He paused for a moment, like giving a pause for a tense scene in the style of soap operas. "I ... was the one who saved you when your cawet* was washed away .... If it wasn't for me, you would have come home and be led by everyone. Remember?" (*cawet \= **********)

Those flashes of memory instantly came flashing. Come simultaneously. Fulfill brain. Shameful memories I wanted to forget but couldn't. Already tried to bury, but re-emerged to the surface once someone offended.

Unknowingly, my pupils dilated. Eyes widened with a gaping mouth. I stared at the astonished man in front of me. Seen countless times, this man had no resemblance to someone I knew when I was a child.

"You're b-not Saka's Item, right?" many doubt.

"You think?" The man raised an eyebrow. Putting both fingers on the chin and styled like a '90's coverboy. Squeezing eyes with flirtatiousness. The characteristic that Saka always shows when he feels himself handsome.

"E-eh?? N-no way. Saka's short. More items ...."

"Pull that word, Boncel."

"Truly Saka?!"

"Yep!" he answered while nodding his head.

"A-astaga!! Y-jeez!!" I closed my mouth with both hands. Wagged eyes. I don't feel like believing. People who are invisible are now in plain sight. My feelings are mixed. It is hard to express in words. Clearly, happy feelings dominate among other feelings. Unconsciously my eyes glazed over.

Saka smiled sweetly. His look that was full of ignorance turned soft and full of meaning. "How are you, Nay?"

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"I didn't expect to see you like this. Where have you been all this time? Do you know where I'm from here? Great, now you're a soldier." I can't control all the questions that are going through my head. I was so curious about the news.

We decided to move to the company cafeteria located at the back of the building. Of course I did it not to interfere with operational activities.

"Wait, wait. One-one nanyanya. Confused which one to answer." Saka raised both hands as if resigned, while the look in his eyes was very witty. Really, he has really changed. When I meet him on the street, I won't recognize him.

His name is Sang Saka Sadewa. He was a strange child who had suddenly moved to my village. Our first meeting was followed by a humiliating incident. As the story goes, he once saved me in a humiliating condition.

At that time, I was in 3rd grade. A tomboyish little girl whose hobby is exploring rivers and hills. Girls who do not like dolls, do not have friends so spend more time alone.

That afternoon, as usual, after school I always stopped by the river. The goal is one, just say hello to its residents by swimming. Like other little boys, I always swim without clothes. Enjoy the freshness of the river for hours.

After hours of soaking, my body started to get cold. I decided to end the ritual and sighed at the river. Unexpectedly, the clothes I put on the riverbank disappeared without a trace. I who am confused can only give up. I wish someone would come and borrow clothes.

That's when Saka came. The little man took off his clothes and pants. Told me to wear it. While he himself only uses ****** *****. I, who had no choice, ended up wearing that shirt. We went home with a lot of screams along the way. The older boys teased and set us up. Maybe it was their own entertainment. Despite having to bear the shame, since then Saka became my friend.

"You, so like a girl yeah, now," he murmured. One hand held his head. Staring at me with a lazy yet very intense gaze. The pupils of the eyes glow with slightly open lips. An innocent girl would think that this man in front of me was showing interest. But of course that doesn't apply to me. He is Saka. And in my eyes, Saka is not a man.

"You really think I've been that guy all along?!" grunt me.

"It seems so ...."

"What?!" My hands automatically hit her body. "Try repeating again. I'm the guy you said?!"

"Hahaha, geez, geez, Nay." Suddenly Saka held both of my hands in just one hand. "Your hands are small." He looked at my hands carefully. Both of my hands felt very small and contrasting within the grasp of his muscular hand.

"Flame. My hand used to be like this." I tried to pull out a hand, but Saka kept it. He cupped his other hand. Makes my hands more imprisoned.

"I miss you, Nay."

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