Scratches of Past Wounds

Light Fragility

As usual Light rode his motor matic around to the stalls and shop where he left his cake. After quoting the Light merchandise money also stopped at the cake ingredient store to buy materials that have been thinned.

Tired of whack that skinny body. Until arriving at the rented Light directly sat in the living room chair. Just unwind and relax his body. A moment the closed eyes were now open when, feeling a gentle massage on his feet.

Binar looked at him with a smile while punching Light's feet. The little girl has been forced to grow up. For ten years old, Binar should play with children his age. But not with a twinkle.

Binar does not like to get together with his peers. He only has one or two friends. It's just in school. Psychic disorder that he experienced two years ago turned this cheerful girl into a quiet and not talkative. He only talks important. It's only for certain people.

But one positive thing from that fateful night, Binar had a high sense of empathy towards Light. He could not see the tears of light. Binar was also unable to see the Light of distress. But his small hands have not been able to reduce the busyness of his mother. That's why he's so sensitive to seeing a sleeping light or looking exhausted.

" Mother why rest here, why not just in the room. " Tanya Binar's.

" Mother just rest for a while, already want magrib too. Later when in the room. " The light rubbed the long hair of Binar.

" Mother is tired, right ? Holiday first the sale. " Binar's speech published a smile on the lips of Light. As usual the small attention of Binar arouses his spirit .

" No, Honey. Don't worry, Mommy's fine. Later brought to sleep also fresh again. Never mind... Mother wants to take a shower first. Binar invite Blue ready to pray Maghrib, yes !? " The Light spoke stopped the hand of Binar who was still massaging his leg.

A loud smile is always visible to the children. Light does not want to make them sad or burdened with the shortcomings that Light has. Although it does not always work because Binar is a very sensitive child.

This magrib, the three children were praying Maghrib together and then eating together. That is their daily routine. Light always tries to be there at every moment for his children.

" It seems like Mommy really has to take a holiday tomorrow. " The Light suddenly attracted the existence of his two children.

" Why, Mother is sick ? " Tanya Binar was worried.

" Aah, no, it's just that Mother wants to rest . " Reply to the Light with a soothing smile. Light actually feels less well. It's just that she doesn't want her son to worry too much about her .

" Mother must be tired of working, right ? Try us to have a Father, Mother must not be tired of looking for money. Like his mother Zidan Blue's friend. Zidan said his father worked as a pilot to make a lot of money for him and his mother. " The Blue Word made Light speechless while Binar stared at Blue furiously .

" Blue want to see that red-eye monster again ? Wanna see Mommy bleed again because it was eaten by the monster. " Shouted the light with glassy eyes.

The light gasped at Binar's question about the red-eye monster. Of course Light knows who Binar means. In that night Binar and Blue saw his father hurting the Mother with red eyes due to drunkenness and overflowing anger.

Only what makes the Light surprised turned out that Binar had not forgotten all that. It is still visible if Binar has not recovered. And Tonight the Light saw that all this time the Binar was just covering himself.

Without thinking any longer the Light immediately rose and hugged Binar tightly. And he could feel the heartbreaking sobs of his little daughter.

" Stranquil, Honey. No one will hurt Mother. Her monsters have gone and she will not return. Don't remember it anymore, huh ? . " The light was unable to hold the clear liquid in his eyes.

" I'm sorry, Blue Mother. Blue just wants Daddy like his Papa Zidan . Zidan said his father was good, not a monster. " Pain blue speech . The seven-year-old boy was terrified and felt guilty to see his two beloved women crying together.

" It's okay, son. Blue is not wrong, not all fathers in this world are evil. Papa Zidan and Abinya Arman . " Binar who was still hiccupping looked up at the Light.

" Binar doesn't want Dad. Binar doesn't like it." Binar.

" Let's find a good new father then." The naive boy had not given up on his wishes.

" Already... already . Stop talking about Dad. Let's be ready soon Isya. After the prayer stacking books and school needs. That's why we sleep. " The light also disconnected the discussion that greatly disturbed his mind.

There is a feeling of guilt in the heart of Light. She feels like she failed to be a parent. Maybe she is capable of being a good mother, but as the back of the family...?? It is too difficult to take on two roles at once .

Not to mention the loss of grief in the heart of Light, suddenly there was a notification of incoming messages to his phone.

"Assalamu'alaikum Light... Sorry ! Brother Doni wants to see you, acquaintance he said. Are you ready. Sorry if you are disturbed. I'm not forcing but please consider. I'm waiting for news from you, aren't I. ?"

The light sat back in his chair. It was just too eager for him to get out of this excessive fear. It all feels torture. The light also wants to give the figure of a father to his son. In addition to financial problems they also need a figure pengayom that.

The Blue Statement of his desire to have a Father made the Light full. While Binar was still faithful to his fears . It took a little effort to convince Binar .

When his body feels tired like this, sometimes the light feels the need for a place to lean. Reliable, and responsible for him and his son. Human, right ? Not many women can be both Mom and Dad . Especially with all the limitations that exist such as natural Light.

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A veiled woman, sitting in an outdoor Cafe while enjoying a glass of Macha Latte Ice in front of her. His eyes were always looking towards the driveway hoping that someone he was waiting for would appear there .

A few minutes later the person who was waiting finally came. A woman of that age immediately smiled broadly as she walked up to the veiled woman.

" I'm sorry, Aya I'm late. Last time I stopped by Bang Adnan's office, there was an important file left at home. I had to take you first. " The new Rania came straight to explain the reason for her delay.

" It's okay, I haven't been too long. " Reply the Light with a smile behind his veil. " Message the drink, I was alone. " Connect Light.

After calling Waiters, Rania ordered the same drink as Light. " Always follow me. " Light Seloroh.

" He. he..for stomach matters your choice is always right. " Say Rania while giving her thumbs up. " Eh... koq by the way you can be sure as soon as this, Light ? Don't tell me because it doesn't taste good to me. " Tanya Rania was full of questions.

The light slightly snapped with Rania's question arriving. Honest Light struggled to neutralize his heartbeat from earlier. Since this afternoon she had ventured to contact Rania to agree to her meeting with Rania's cousin.

" I want to try to open up, Nia . That's the main reason. I also don't want to be selfish because children need other figures besides me. Especially Blue. He has been critical of his ideal father figure lately. " The light says what it is.

" I'm glad that's the reason. You made the right decision. " Say Rania while rubbing the back of the Light hand that was on the table.

" But I don't want to see you two, do I ? I'll be awkward later. " Pinta Light.

" I'll be waiting for you at the table over there, so you can talk to my brother freely. No way, am I the mosquito repellent here ? " Reply to Rania Diplomatic.

" all right... " Light can only pass.

Unbeknownst to them, a forty-year-old man who was still very gallant approached them. Until a baritone voice shook them.

" Assalaamu'alaikum, sorry I'm late....

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