Scratches of Past Wounds

Fakhrul

Light tidying blanket Blue sagging. Then sit down next to Binar's bed. The plain face of his sleeping son accompanied the Light in his light of night. Tired of staring at Binar, Light sat back to the empty single sofa .

Exactly at one in the morning the eyes of Light are still difficult to be closed. His head ached and his body felt tired but his eyes were still faithfully open because so much Light was thinking.

Should she marry Doni to seek refuge ? Honestly, the light is gambled by its state. Fighting alone is exhausting. And right now Light really needs a backrest. Not hypocritical, Light does need someone.

" Ting"

Notification of incoming messages on mobile Light breaks its silence the night.

I really want you to get married. Don't know why I'm so sure. Just make me a shield if it's too hard for you to accept me for yourself. At least for your child . I said tomorrow morning I can't wait anymore.

RD, aksa

After closing his phone, Light threw his back onto the sofa with his head held high. Closing his eyes tightly as a diversion of his mound. A moment later the Light rose towards the bathroom .

There is nothing the Light can do except plead with the owner of the heart. Light about ablution and prayer to ask for directions . May the morning of the day Light have an answer to Doni's question .

*****

Samar heard a roar and a sobbing sound accompanied by murmurs. On the verge of his consciousness the Light again heard a small screech. Until finally Light opened his eyes wide after successfully collecting his life.

The Light Eyes scanned his whereabouts, only then did he realize that last night they were staying at the hospital because ...

" Brandar... !! " The light rose from the prayer mat where he fell asleep. With a slight daze the Light approached Binar's bed.

" binar... Son. ! Awake baby... Binar. It's Mommy... " The light kept trying to resuscitate the delirious Binar in his sleep.

Until finally Binar woke up and continued to cry in the arms of the Light "Silent yes... Don't be afraid, huh !? " Wrapping the back of the Light Binar kept talking so that Binar really realized if he was safe with his mother.

" Mommy.the red-eye monster. " Binar said in his sobs.

" Sst. That's not a monster. That's Daddy baby. " The light kept rubbing gently.

" No Mother. It's a monster. Barin doesn't want to see you again. Blue... !! " A moment of Binar suffocating remembering something. " Blue is close to her monster Mother. Blue mana.. don't let the monster catch Blue, Mother... "

" Blue sleeps there. He's doing just fine. " The light shows towards the sofa.

" Thankfully... Binar was afraid, unable to protect Blue. " Binar was still sobbing with the rest of his tears.

" Binar and Blue are safe. Don't be afraid, yes. " Binar kept hugging the Light tightly and was reluctant to let go.

The light glanced at the wall clock which turned out to be still at four before dawn. The light has been asleep for two hours. Slowly the Light tried to release the Binar's hold.

" Binar... It's still dark, we sleep again, huh ? " Binar draws the Light's hand.

" Sleep with our Lady, Binar wants to sleep in the hug. " Pinta Binar's.

" Okay, we sleep together. " After helping Binar lie down, Light also follows lying next to Binar. While continuing to rub the back of the Binar, Light tried to close his eyes. After a while, they both fell asleep the same.

*****

" Excuse me, Mum. Sorry to disturb his sleep. I want to clean up, please permit. " A hospital janitor woke up the Light.

" I'm sorry my mother overslept. What time is it now ? Oh my goodness, I was bad luck. " The light flinched realizing the wall clock was at fifty-thirty.

Light rushed to the bathroom, he had to immediately perform the very late dawn prayer. When the prayer is over Light wakes Blue and tells her to pray as well. Not long after that, Binar also woke up .

" Mommy wants to buy breakfast for a while, Binar the same Blue Mother stay first, huh ? " Voke Light after completion helps the Binar and Blue cleanse the body.

" Don't be long Mother. " There was still an anxious look on Binar's face. With a smile the Light stroked the hair of Binar gently.

The light left them after Binar calmed down. Just three steps outside the door of the Light's eye-care room caught a figure he didn't want to meet. But Light had no chance to dodge because that person was already aware of the existence of Light.

" Ayeah, how is Binar . Is he conscious ? " Task Fakhrul as he approaches.

" Yes, already. " The light went silent for a moment before speaking again. " I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kick you out. But please go . Stay away from us especially Binar. I'm begging... " Pinta Light on Fakhrul.

Disappointed look on Fakhrul's face. For a moment the Light felt unbearable, but what can be done, especially if Binar was not comfortable with Fakhrul.

" All right, for now I'm leaving but let me talk to you for a minute." Fakhrul spoke with a clear face.

" Ten minutes ! The kids haven't had breakfast. " Answer Light.

Finally here they are, in the hospital cafeteria waiting for orders . Sitting in a canteen chair in opposite position . After a while Fakhrul remained silent making the Light can not stand for long.

" Speak ! " Relucid Light.

" Yes, I just found out that we're divorced. He was exactly last month. For two more years I couldn't come because I was on medication. " Light only hears without interrupting.

" Well, can we go back. He is healthy, and now has a new business but very advanced. Let's start from a better start. " Fakhrul speaks with passion .

" Have you spoken ? " The light answers subdued the smile of hope on Fakhrul's lips .

" Light, give Mas a chance to correct the mistake. Let's go far away from here . We start a new life and forget everything. We'll find the best doctor for Binar. We go to Australia and we have a restaurant there. " Fakhrul has not given up.

" A promise as beautiful as when you proposed to me first. But it only takes one year you can share it with other women. Sorry, I'm not as naive as I used to be. " The light speaks calmly and remains with tenderness. But Fakhrul knew for sure the contents were firm and sarcastic.

" Yes, I'm sorry for all the betrayal that you committed. But believe me, since long ago until now I only love you not a bit changed. He doesn't mean anything." Fakhrul said really.

" But that insignificant woman was able to last seven years, and in the end that woman was able to make you break my body and my heart. More precisely able to destroy me and the children to dust. " Light chuckled incisively with eyes that contained a clear liquid.

" Sorry... !! " Could no longer speak Fakhrul chose to duck while squeezing his hair rough .

" There's nothing left, Mom ! " At last the clear liquid was shed.

" Kasi Masi last chance. " Pinta Fakhrul pleads.

" It's been hundreds of occasions in those two wound-filled years. I tried to ignore the wounds of betrayal. I also received every blow and torment from you. I also ignored my tiredness to support you and the child. Is not enough !! " The soft voice turned high.

" Sorry... . " Smooth and barely audible. Fakhrul's voice sank into the raucous voice that was holding tight.

" This body is already full of your tracks, Mas. It still feels painful now. Stitch marks, scratch bites, scratches and this... " The light pointed at his chest. " These two ribs were broken for up to two months I couldn't move. " While the light sounds but it feels sad and sad.

" Sorry.I'm sorry. Sorry, Aya... " Fakhrul felt hundreds or even thousands of apologies were not enough to say. But that's all Fakhrul can do.

" Is not enough now ? Just ignore the pain I have, now look at Binar. He is still ten years old, but his suffering has not been completed despite two years of therapy. Are you still imposing your will ! " The light is running out of words.

" all right.. My light will give you time to calm down. But I'm going back. I will pay for all your pain with the love I have. Wait for me. Take care of yourself. " Fakhrul stood up and stared at the Light within, then stepped away.

Two steps running, Fakhrul was stopped by the sound of Light.

" There is no other chance. I don't want to go back. !! "Light Speak confirms.

" Take your time, I'll be gone for a while. Just taking care of work. And. I send money to your account for a child. I love you Light... " Fakhrul continued his steps with certainty. He just needs to be patient. The light is still wounded and Fakhrul will heal the wound. So confident of himself Fakhrul. And he has already begun his first steps.

The Light that still sits languidly. This was what Fakhrul was afraid of. And look, he's not gonna give up.

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