Scratches of Past Wounds

Fakhrul surrendered

The happy couple is now in the Obstetrician's waiting room. Doni did not release his hand for a moment from the Light. A smile full of pride did not escape his lips. Doni is so happy now.

The light was embarrassed because Doni occasionally threw a sinless sweet smile after tasting the back of his hand. How not, what Doni did attracted the attention of other couples who were the same in line with them.

Various reactions caught by the Light eyes. Some are amused smiles, some are staring envy and some are difficult and unclear nyinyir. Many times the Light pulled his hand but never released Doni. Finally the Light gave up and let Doni want what he wanted.

" So, I am not ashamed to see people. Later people think Abang is not normal smile his own smile. " The Light half whispered.

" It's okay, it's important that you're normal and happy. Brother again does not want to think of nitizen. " Reply Doni whispered while stealing one kiss on the cheek of Light.

" Sister...!!! Choke of restrained Light.

" He..

The light could only shake her head to see her husband's absurd behavior. All those romantic scenes are scratching a heart in the corner of the hospital hallway.

Fakhrul who was guarding Farel post-surgery accidentally saw the two married couples. Fakhrul's curiosity led him to that place . What Fakhrul believes is now the Light is pregnant. The happy look on Doni's face answered everything.

Fakhrul pulled a step back into Farel's room. His heart was not strong enough to see the romantic scene any longer. Fakhrul's soul fought between wanting to reclaim the Light or relinquish it. Seeing the fear of Light and Binar made Fakhrul want to retreat. But his heart could not control Fakhrul.

The move was stuck right in front of Farel's nursery. Fakhrul saw a woman staring into the room through a small glass at the door. The woman who stared longingly and tearfully. The very woman Fakhrul knew and now most Fakhrul hated.

Amelia was still staring at Farel from the glass. Without realizing if Fakhrul had been exactly a few steps behind him. Until it was enough, Amelia intended to leave the place before Fakhrul saw her.

But his hope was dashed already, Fakhrul had caught him first. Amelia paled while rubbing the rest of her tears. Mutuki himself who dissolves in longing without remembering if Fakhrul can appear at any time.

" Sorry, I'm looking for you. I miss Farel. " Say Amelia was terrified.

Fakhrul flinched without speaking. Staring at Amelia who looked thinner and duller than usual. Seemed sleep deprived and may be under-eating. There was pity tucked in the corner of Fakhrul's heart. Amelia is the mother of her child. And Fakhrul always lied to Farel saying that his mother was at work.

For a moment Fakhrul's mind was filled with a shadow between Light and Amelia. Thinking about which steps Fakhrul should take for the happiness of all. And finally Fakhrul took a deep breath and let go of it violently.

" Come on, I want to talk. " Fakhrul walked quickly to a small cafe near the hospital. But Fakhrul had previously left Farel to the caretaker. And this is where Fakhrul and Amelia sat facing each other.

Amelia was misbehaved when Fakhrul just kept quiet while staring deeply at her. A view that Amelia can't figure out what it means. But honestly Amelia was really nervous at the moment. Like someone who is dealing with a killer lecturer . Or an employee is faced with the leadership of the company after making a mistake.

" What do you want now Amel. " The voice was calm but cold, Amelia could feel Fakhrul's resolute aura.

"I...? " Tanya Amelia was confused.

" Yes.you. What is the purpose of your life or more clearly what do you want ? " Say Fakhrul while folding his hands on his chest.

" I want to live quietly with Farel. That'sthat's all. I want to start a new life of peace without fear and danger. " Say Amelia said clearly.

" But I can't fulfill it. Farel I'm taking to Australia. I live there now. Can you let her go with me. Now I just have it. I can't reach the blue and the blue anymore. " Fakhrul's voice was weakened given his two children.

" What ? "

" For seven years we shared a bed and spent more time with your wife and children. Sharing the hard pleasure of building your dreams. Was as long as there wasn't a little taste for me. I am not going into your heart. Every time we make love you always say love me and you always call me friendly. Is it just desire. Not love...? "

Amelia's question made Fakhrul replay their shared memory. How crazy Fakhrul touched Amelia. Without remembering the place or time. Take advantage of out-of-town excursions to try new ambience, new styles and new sensations. Fakhrul himself asked his heart what he was feeling.

But Fakhrul found no answer . And Fakhrul believes it's just desire. Because Fakhrul did not want to defend Amelia if told to choose between Light or Amelia. But during those seven years Fakhrul was only bound in the name of a napsu which he could not channel freely and freely to the Light due to conditions and situations.

While with Amelia she can be as she pleases . Without caring Amelia was tired or bad mood. All she knows is Amelia has to be ready with her when she wants to be. Fakhrul can freely fantasize with Amelia . Even they were desperate to do it in the rooftop, in the parking lot and lobby of Fakhrul's office. And all of that happened with Amelia.

" No. I'm sure there's no love. To me you are just an object. The satisfaction I get when my fantasy in imagination can be realized with you. But with the Light I always wanted to take care of her . With him, I only think about his comfort. I don't want to hurt her. The light fulfilled all my life goals. But you.. for me only limited to body relations no more. " Fakhrul said honesty.

Painful indeed but in reality that is what Fakhrul felt. Blame Amelia, for drawing Fakhrul into the pit of sin that destroyed them both.

" Amelia, I admit my faith is weak. But from the beginning there wasn't the slightest intention of me cheating even when we worked together late into the night. For a year you worked have I ever teased you ? Answer no, because I'm not a s*x-hungry guy. But I'm a normal man who is weak in faith. I realized you were always looking for my attention, making me focus on you. You tried several times to tempt me. I'm right, aren't I ? "

Amelia was flabbergasted at Fakhrul's question. He could only squeeze his fingers channeling his nervousness. Fakhrul smiled obliquely to his weakness.

" You have indeed intended to draw me to drown in that sin. Until I drowned so far I couldn't get out even though I realized it was wrong. I'm sure I'm the first one for you but it looks like you learned a lot to satisfy the guy who made it hard for me to get out of your snare, isn't it so Amelia ? " again, Amelia could only be silent.

"What is your goal to win my money, until when I let my guard down you immediately take advantage and run away with all my property ? "

" No, that's not my original goal. I love you in silence. Every time I'm with you I always want to get close to you. But I'm trying to emphasize that sense because I know you belong to the Light. But the more days it feels the harder I can resist. I'm more often with you. And I feel like I have a lot of opportunities to get into your life. That's really because I love you. " Amelia took a breath for a moment.

";I give up my body and my time is only for you. All purely for love. If I finally choose to leave it's because I'm disappointed. I was pregnant when I asked to marry you. But you refused. And I'm afraid you're gonna tell me to throw my baby away . So I decided to go with your treasure. " Amelia ended her complaints.

" Now we're just as wasted as Amelia. The light I can no longer reach. Her husband has everything. Everything I never gave her. Pay attention, loyalty, honesty and time. Now I can see the twinkle of happiness in his clear eyes. I chose to stand down to fight for her back. Because I'm sure it won't work. So I'm going back to Australia with Farel. So let's let each other go."

Fakhrul convinced himself with the decision he made. Let the Light be happy, now is the time for Light and her children to come out of the dark clouds that Fakhrul created. Now Fakhrul solidified his heart.

" Don't you open your heart to me. I still love you so much. Let's live together for Farel. " Pinta Amelia with a clear puddle in her eyes.

" I want to heal Amel's wounds. I don't want to hurt anyone else including you. I don't want you to be the outlet of my disappointment. Stay away from me. I'm really hurt right now. And all because of the game you started. So let us enjoy our banishment. Farel has been in surgery, hopefully in the future he can be better. And I won't shut down access for you to get in touch with him. "

" Well...

" I want to be alone

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