Scratches of Past Wounds

Light Request

" The chance to restore your happiness that I once plundered. Because I believe Marinda manipulated the real situation. " Answer Amelia. " I want to regret it, but I can't do it. Because there is a fruit of our love that grows out of that relationship. " Continue Amelia.

" You have a son from Mas Arul ? " Tanya Light made sure, even though she already knew.

" I'm sorry, but that's the truth. Mas Fakhrul didn't know I was pregnant. When he refused to marry me, I decided to leave with the baby and all his wealth. I hurt, he always said he didn't want to hurt you but he always used my body. " Amelia raised her head so her tears wouldn't fall. He doesn't want to look heartbreaking.

" You love her ? " From the questions the Light always wanted to ask, this is one of them.

" Very well. but he didn't reply. " Amelia answered without hesitation. The light slightly felt pinched hearing Amelia's confession.

" Even though you know that Mas Arul is married ? Not just because he's rich and royal ? " The light confirmed his curiosity.

" A year working with him nearly fifteen hours a day, often even twenty-four hours. Her charm I can't resist, her love for you makes me want to feel it. He always says softly when calling you, his attention even though he is busy and can't go home . I want all that. "

" I gave up at first because I realized he was hard for me to achieve. I lost to my ego. Therefore I willingly work like a burden horse, tirelessly and time to attract his attention. And I made it. That night he did not come home for two days. With a little courage to open a little of my clothes finally Mas Fakhrul entangled in desire. I gave up my crown on him. Since then he has not stopped. "

" You're proud of it ? I needed him at that moment. The difficult pregnancy made me often ignore her biological needs. And you came at the right time. It took away all my love and trust. You ruined my life. I guess you guys are just a momentary lust. I always hoped Mas Arul would come back to me once I was healthy. But in fact, he can't escape your entanglement. "

The light smiled. Although the incident was very long ago, but remember it feels scraping scratches old wounds. Still sore.

" So you knew from the beginning ? " Amelia realized the meaning of the Light's words that slightly shocked her.

" I'm a wife, we love each other. There's an invisible thread between husband and wife, Amelia. Every time I look into my husband's eyes, I can see a lot of lies in them. The scent of his body, the stains on his underwear, the safety wrap in his briefcase, his diminished attention, forgetting the date of our important day. And there are many more. Of course I realize all that. "

" I'm sorry Light, even though this is no longer necessary for you . But I'm sorry. " The light did not answer could only throw away her gaze because it did not want to see Amelia's eyes that looked sincere.

" Even our seventh anniversary gift, she bought me a mansion as a gift. But the main room you used first made love to my husband. " The light shed her tears. The wound still hurts.

" Ba... how... ka... you know that ? " Amelia didn't expect the Light to know that much.

" Mas Arul forgot a lot of things when he was with you. That house you chose, right ? When the marketing department gave the name transfer letter he was shocked when I came. She thinks I'm the messenger from the house buyer's wife. He told me that the hostess chose the house. And the first night there that night. Because Mas Arul asked for the key and said his wife wanted to try in her new home. You know what Amelia feels like. I'd love to burn that house down. " The Light Body looks violently vibrating. But he tried to take a deep breath to control himself .

" Light.. su. I don't feel worthy to apologize right now. But. don't remember that again . I know you're not in good shape right now. We've got this. " Amelia was terrified and also very guilty. The injured gaze of Light resuscitated her just how big the wound she had given this ayu woman in front of her was.

" I'm fine. I've been wanting to clear all this up for a long time. " The light calms down by taking a deep breath.

" I'm an orphan, a kara. I only have a husband and children. I'm afraid Mas Arul threw me away and kept me away from my son. I try to be his good wife. Not much behavior and not too much questioning. I'm afraid he's sick of me. As long as he doesn't hate me, that's enough for me. Because the land of my love for him eroded unceremoniously. I only consider it to be an obligation and responsibility. No more love. "

" I don't know what to say, but I think you're a Light fool. I'm sorry, but I don't think the way you think. " Amelia boldly let out her opinion. Without caring the sharp gaze of Light.

" It may be foolish to you, but to me it is a sacrifice. For the sake of my two children I would be a samsak of Mas Arul's life after you made it bankrupt. " Light Sarcas.

Amelia was silent and downcast. The Speech of Light is exactly the same as Arul's speech at that time. Light of the victims of violence from Fakhrul. And what Light experienced post-trauma was also Amelia knowing that.

How could the Light forgive him. If her position was reversed, Amelia might have already killed Light by now. But this gentle woman could still talk without a vein with him. Although his gaze looked angry and sharp.

Amelia did not expect the selfishness of the love she was adoring to not only hurt the Light in such a way. But both he and Fakhrul suffered as well. Although different portions and conditions. Even their children are also victims of the forbidden relationship. Binar, Blue, and Farel the fate of the three children was almost the same. Same thing with living without a full parent.

" Well, I've heard all that from Mas Fakhrul. Do I still deserve to live a normal life after this ? I don't think I deserve it. When I realized the mistake I made, I was always connected to the past. I'm the same as you, wanting to live without a shadow of the past. But I think this is my karma. People around me are not easy to believe my words. " Amelia felt tired, it was too hard to get out of the dark shadows of her past. Even Maxim himself was so frontal that he reminded him of his sin.

" I don't know, I don't think much of you. I was just traumatized when I realized you were around the people closest to me. I don't want to be cheated a second time. If possible, stay away from Amelia. Don't show yourself around me. I beg you ! I'm afraid, I've just been happy. Thank you for the help you gave me the other day. But it doesn't calm me down. Pleases... " The light even to the knees made Amelia flutter.

" Wake up Light, don't do this. All right, I'm gonna stay out of your life. But please stand up. " Amelia pulled the Light slowly to get up.

" Are you really going to comply with my request ? "

" That's right. so get up. " Amelia closed her eyes tightly. Although not sure where to go. But Amelia could not refuse the Light's request.

" Thank you. And sorry if I forced. I'm still traumatized, you, Fakhrul and all those memories still hurt if they were seen. Consider me selfish this time. " Light does want to be selfish for this one thing.

He used to be too resigned, until Fakhrul semena mena. Although Doni is a different person, but still the Light should be the heart . No one knows for sure the content of the human heart other than the Creator of man, not even himself. Until now, people have difficulty controlling themselves.

Perhaps the demand for Light is excessive for others. But for him it's a form of self-protection. The light wants to heal, for that he needs calmness. If he can make peace maybe one day he is ready if he comes face to face.

That is the hope of the light....

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