Scratches of Past Wounds

Disarray

A car just stopped right in front of Light's house. After a moment of silence to monitor the state of the car driver finally came out. With a pounding heart he walked up to the door and knocked several times.

And a few moments later the door opened and a tiny figure appeared out of the house. It was Blue who looked at the gallant man in front of him with a meaningful gaze. Until the small voice broke the silence between the two men who were almost similar.

" Who are you looking for ? "

" oom... " Fakhrul murmured in his painful heart.

" Mother is there ? " Tanya Fakhrul's.

" Mother is out. Om what is necessary ? I will convey . " Say Blue with a flat face.

" Can I just wait inside until Mother comes home ? " Say Fakhrul negotiate.

" No ! " Answer Blue is short.

" Why ? You don't remember Dad, Blue. " Fakhrul could no longer bear the small explosion in his heart.

" remember. " Blue answered briefly.

" Why can't you come in ? " Fakhrul spoke softly while rubbing Blue's head. But Blue suddenly brushed Fakhrul's hand but not rough.

" Because Mommy and Kak Binar do not like. They will cry and tremble when they hear Dad. " Blue plain speech very Fakhrul understand the meaning.

Fakhrul could see the bodies of Light trembling when they met the other day. Look at the eyes that are shaking in fear. Fakhrul watched it himself. But Binar...Fakhrul has not met with Binar. The longing for her little daughter was back.

" Is his brother Binar there ? Try calling me, I want to see Kak Binar too. " Pinta Fakhrul's.

" No ! Brother Binar is sick, later he screams again. Blue can't see it. And Mother is also sad. " Fakhrul's heart was broken hearing Blue's words.

" That's how bad. " Fakhrul.

" Well if...

" Blue. who comes ... " Unexpectedly, the bar appeared from within. His gaze was locked on Fakhrul who was standing in the doorway . A moment of silence enveloped the atmosphere until Binar again voiced.

" Beer...Blueu... close the door !! " Shouted Binar while covering his ears. " Lid Blue...

" binar... Nak. It's Dad. " Say Fakhrul with a stiff smile. He stepped slowly trying to get close to Binar, but suddenly stopped hearing the screeches of his little daughter.

" No.. don't come any closer... don't... don't... !! Blue... Bi...

That sweet face paled instantly . Rarely retreat her slowly away from the person who was there confronted her. His fragile body trembled violently. Blue instantly approached Binar while Fakhrul was glued with tears watching the results of his actions. His daughter's mentality was damaged by it .

Fakhrul wants to get closer .His heart was completely shattered seeing the princess' terrified gaze. Fakhrul wanted to hug the tiny body to calm her down, but was again stopped by the sound of Binar.

" Blue.. that's his monster..Excuse the monster Blue ... The Mother.... " Binar's screaming voice weakened as his eyes dimmed and finally the small, fragile body collapsed.

Fortunately Fakhrul had been on standby before, until Binar survived the impact because his sturdy hand had held him first. But before Fakhrul got up to ride Binar, Blue stopped him.

" But Brother Binar must be taken to the Doctor, son." Fakhrul's raucous voice represents his heart . The grown man was already shedding tears. His heart was torn apart by the reality that was in front of him.

" Blue just call Mother. " Strong Blue.

" Let Daddy, Blue. Poor Brother, I want to heal Brother Binar. I want to make up for all of Dad's mistakes. " Fakhrul's plea sounded bitter almost like lamentation.

Blue became doubtful, and was eventually only able to nod his head in agreement. Without waiting for long Fakhrul lifted the tiny body and stepped out of the living room.

But his steps stopped when the Light was standing upright blocking his steps. Looking at the unconscious Binar Light could already guess what was happening. Late light. He should have been able to avoid all of this but fate said otherwise. It turned out that Fakhrul had found her sooner than he expected.

Without saying a word the Light immediately took over the body of Binar from Fakhrul's hand. Rania who was behind the Light had already read the situation. Rania quickly opened the back door of her car .

" Blue.. lock the door ! " Light Command.

Blue immediately moved swiftly following the word Mother. While Fakhrul moves all wrong and restless .There was nothing Fakhrul could do just staring at the Light from outside the windshield . His tongue was stiff and his body stiff. The look of the eyes of hatred of Light shattered his hopes. Even though my eyes Light moistened tears but implied pent-up anger.

After Blue got into the car, Rania drove her car through the road to the hospital. Seen behind Fakhrul following Rania's car. Fakhrul did not want to miss and lose a second. Whatever the Light says later Fakhrul will not dampen his desire to join his small family.

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" The current condition is fine, we will see later after being aware. If he is hysterical then it is necessary to eat further. But if he just cries it means still in the normal category. I'd better accompany Binar when he wakes up, so he feels safe. " The Doctor's explanation made the Light was was.

" What if she's hysterical, Doc ? What does it mean that our efforts have been in vain ? And what is the worst effect ? " Task the Light.

" we have to wait for Binar to wake up, ma'am. I wouldn't want to say if. But if we talk about the worst effects, it means we start again from the beginning, Mom. But I hope it doesn't get that bad. For that I ask to stay away from the trigger thing Trauma first. " The Doctor looked at the three adults in front of him. And it ends with Fakhrul who now can only be bowed.

Binar to be transferred from ER to the ward . While waiting for the transfer process , Light ventured to approach Fakhrul who had previously considered between there and nothing.

" Go away. don't make things worse. Your presence will only ruin what I have repaired. Don't mess up our lives again... " At the end he said the tears of Light were freefall. His trembling voice restrained anger and anxiety.

" All right. I'll go for now. But I'll be back later. I promise I won't show up. Let me see it even from a distance. " Fakhrul's eyes are no less red. The doctor's words were a huge blow to him. " Trauma trigger" , that's what it's called. Yes, he is the devil.

For the time being he had to succumb to the Light. I don't want any commotion between them. Give the Light a little time to win himself, so does he.

" Once, don't look. We don't want to see you. " Glow Speech is soft but full of pressure. His eyes stared at the tiny body of his daughter who was lying weakly.

" I'm leaving... " Said Fakhrul lirih. After two steps, Fakhrul turned back. " Whether you believe it or not, Aya ! Mas is very sorry and right now Mas is just as devastated as you are. Mas sorry... " Didn't get a response from the Light after a while Fakhrul finally resumed his steps with lunglai.

After Fakhrul was lost behind the door, the Light wept in terror. There was a pain that again scratched his heart . The presence of Fakhrul who broke the fabric of his life order began to calm. Which left his daughter lying helpless. It also made his heart mess up because of it.

" Sorry... ? Can't I be sorry it brought everything back to how it was. If I could I would have given a lot of apologies. But it's all ruined. My heart ... my life.my son. " The light speaks alone.

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