Scratches of Past Wounds

Guilt

Doni pegs his phone screen with a shrunken forehead. For the first time he received a notification of the use of a gold card in the Light. A month they were married and during that time Light never used his card.

But what concerns Doni is not the amount of money, but for what. Nadya's Soul Clinic, that's what's on Doni's phone screen. After searching the internet about the clinic profile, Doni got one name in charge of the place.

The sound of knocking on the door forced Doni to take his eyes off his phone. Aryo appeared with his grin.

" What's that phone more interesting than the paper on your desk. If so, I will give thanks. Because you are no longer crazy. " Aryo chattered as she pleased.

" I'm not the one who likes to wander during work hours. " Doni's Sark.

" Work can be relaxing which is important a lot of money ." Seloroh Aryo's.

Aryo won instead of office workers like Randi and Doni. He has a service provider company such as personal bodyguards, eye, and surveillance and others. So Aryo works only on mobile phones. Not behind the table like Doni.

" So what's interesting on your phone. Don't tell me you're a pervert online ." Aryo tries to peek at Doni's phone. Doni let Aryo look until satisfied.

" Do you know the doctor ? " Tanya Doni as Aryo puts Doni's phone back on.

" No, maybe Rose knows her. Who is he ? Are you now turning into a middle-aged female lover ? " Doni could only massage the base of his nose. Aryo just added his head.

" Stop talking nonsense, I'm getting dizzy because of you. " Ketus Doni's.

" It's been a month of marriage, still dizzy. Are your faucets rusty already ? Don't tell me you haven't...

" Stop !! Shut up "

" Sorry... " Aryo smiled stiffly. " What's up ? You seem to be in serious trouble? " Looking at Doni in a bad mood, Aryo finally spoke in a serious tone.

" Find out about the Doctor. And what Light did in his clinic. If possible I'd like to fill out a medical record or anything related to Light. " Obviously Doni.

" All right, wait a minute. " Aryo typed in a few messages and looked back at Doni. " Did the Light make a mistake ? " Search Aryo.

" no. It's been a month I gave you a gold card, only today used it. That was at the clinic. You know, Light was a psychiatrist patient. And now he's back to visiting the psychiatrist. What do you think I'm not worried about. What's more is he's getting thinner and his eyes are like a sleep-deprived person. Though every time I went to the room he always fell asleep, even a little undisturbed when I came home. Isn't that weird ? "

" You're sure he's sleeping, not fainting ? I think you're outrageous. Go home late every night and spend time at the club and have a drink anyway. Do you think a wife can accept being treated like that, even if there is no love ? If it was Rose she would have dumped me on the second day of the wedding. " Aryo's words disturbed Doni's heart.

" But Light did not object, the proof was that he did not protest at all. " Reply Doni.

" Because she knows in your heart there's only a Tiara and she's just a show wife. Light needs protection for its children. So he knows himself not to demand much. That's all you don't understand. " Aryo was irritated by the insensitive Doni.

" Is that what you think ? "

" You are the fool, the beautiful wife is wasted. Throw this away.You have a real wife don't keep living in the fairy tales of the past. " Aryo pushed a small figura towards Doni. Figura contains photos of Tiara and Doni during their honeymoon. Photos are always on Doni's desk.

" You and I are the same. You will never understand. " Said Doni lirih.

" I have to what if Tiara is always in my mind and heart. " Doni is restoring her hair in frustration.

" That's because you didn't want to let go from the beginning. The guilt you feel is devastating. Eh.. listen ! You are not God who can choose who and when to die. " Aryo looks exasperated by Doni's stubborn nature.

" If I had let Tiara cancel that flight, she would still be here with me. " Donis still propped up his head with both hands while bowing. He hid his eyes that were starting to redden holding back tears.

" If you hadn't been forced to meet your client who canceled the contract, you would have died that day. Until here do you still not understand ? " Aryo began to lower his tone that had risen.

The successive notifications from Aryo's phone disconnected the two friends' conversation. Seen a slanted smile that is bland out of the corner of Aryo's lips. His eyes were still staring at the phone while scrolling his smart screen like reading some messages.

" Corange light, thirty-three years with anxiety disorder due to KDRT. Early symptoms, excessive fear, sadness arrives, nightmares, difficulty sleeping. Triggers, knocking on doors at night and the smell of alcoholic beverages. Reactions to trauma, tremors, trouble sleeping, panic attack, nausea/vomiting. Advanced effects, loss of consciousness and depression. Wow.. bravo ! You've become the second Fakhrul, Bro. He created the anxiety disorder and you aggravated it. Congratulations... congratulations... ! "

Aryo smiled mockingly while clapping his hands. Like a happy little boy getting a gift. While Doni was still glued with a stiffened face. The empty thoughts that ringed were just Aryo's words about the Light.

" Doctor Nadya is a Psychiatrist who handles Light since du'a last year. But Cahaya quit after six months because it had no cost and she put her son Binar who suffered from the same disorder and more severe. Now do you know why she wants to marry you ? Because child. What a noble mother her heart is. " Aryo added salt to the regret painted on Doni's face.

" Safe again, Bro. Happy regrets for the rest of your life. I hope Light soon realizes that you can't protect him because you're just a loser who failed to move on. " Aryo just left without saying goodbye. His heart was upset to see Doni's stupidity.

Don't know what Doni's feeling right now. Doni just wants to go home fast. Doni wants to meet Jingga . Somehow Doni looked at the woman who had actually been teasing her heart from the beginning. But Doni was too busy with a period of actual practice no longer need to think about .

Doni walked out of his room, leaving the office just like that. It's still an hour away but Doni doesn't care. Doni drove his car home. But when he arrived at the gate Doni stopped and was silent for a while like thinking of something.

Doni pulled out his phone and typed in a few messages.

" Assalamu'alaikum Orange. I've been transferring money monthly. Go shopping monthly for home and everyone."

The first message that Doni sent to the Light since one month ago. Unheard-of... Aryo's right, Doni is a loser. And Doni is aware of it at this moment. After waiting for a while Doni's phone vibrated.

" Waalaikumsalam Bang. I'm shopping tomorrow. Thank you for the transfer. Is there anything needed ? Let Aya buy them later. " Light typed messages with lips full of smiles. I don't know why he was so happy to get a message from Doni.

The same thing happened to Doni. Reading the Light message is like running out winning a big tender.

" How about we go this afternoon. Coincidentally Brother again relaxed, and can go home quickly ? " Doni is still pecking at the Light message room typing.

" Of Ashar, huh ? Aya wait at home. "

Doni wants to cry. His wife remained polite even though Doni ignored her all this time. Her height has made her mother look happy for some time recently. And take care of the whole house including Doni.

Doni is a true loser...

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