Scratches of Past Wounds

Wearied...

The light has been in the hospital. Infusion was placed in his right hand. The weak body still remained the same, staring blankly and unable to swallow anything . Finally, the doctor provides nutrients and medicines through infusion.

As the doctor said the pain was not his body but his heart. Which made his body refuse anything that came in. His subconscious refused to return. Light is in the phase of wanting to hide from pain. Protecting himself from excessive disappointment.

This condition is very dangerous for Light and the fetus in the womb. If left unchecked the Light can be trapped forever in its illusions. And of course conditions like this make the baby in the womb can lack nutrients.

Doni was not constantly cursing himself. His heroic attitude even sacrificed his wife and child. Regrets that Doni cannot bear alone. Seeing the Light does not respond to it, Doni's heart is broken.

Doni was still sitting on the side of the bed where Light collapsed half-lying. His eyes were open but there was no light. Doni grabbed the Light's cold hand and kissed it many times. Wishing warm his lips could seep into the heart of the Light that is now frozen.

" Dear, look at Brother. " Doni now rubbed the cheek Gentle Light, then continued to the lips of Light and lastly stroked the round eyes that were now dim but Light only winked a few times. There was no other response.

Doni couldn't hold back his chest tightness. He lost a lot of things because of his stupidity. Smile of Light, his powerful voice.as well as the adoring gaze that the Light always gave him. The light is like a living statue today. No sense, expression, or response.

" Don't punish you like this, honey. Just hit Abang maki as you please. Or if you will take all my treasures, but return to be my Orange Light. I'm sorry, but I swear I never betrayed you. It's all just a trap, honey. Come back... " Doni dissolved in his tears. His voice grew louder as fatigue wracked his body and heart.

The sound of knocking forced Doni to rise while rubbing his face and tidying his hair just like that.

" Doctor, please come in. I've been waiting for you since. " Said Doni when he saw Doctor Nadya who was behind the door.

" I'm sorry, Mr. Aksa. I have a patient at the clinic who was in the reservoir a few days ago. It doesn't feel like it's possible to just stay. "

" It's okay, Doctor. I've understood. It's just that the urgent conditions made me have to force you to come. " Reply Doni.

Doctor Nadya walks into the Light's ward. His eyes were immediately fixed on the fragile figure that was fixated on the bed. Doctor Nadya continued to approach the Light without any response from the Light.

" Light. I'm Doctor Nadya... The glow. " The light was not at all provoked by the voice of Doctor Nadya.

"' How long has he been like this, sir ? " Task the Doctor without taking his eyes off the Light.

"It's the second night, Doc. " Answer Doni.

" This is the condition I fear the most. I always advise the patient's family to liver with Anxiety Disorder . This is the last point of patient fatigue, sir. It's like they give up losing. And do not want to struggle, and choose to hide from hurt, pain and suffering. " Obsolutely Doctor Nadya.

" But Doctor, as I said. It's all just a misunderstanding. How the Light survived her ex-husband. Infidelity, DPRT and sexual violence. What made him survive. " She complains of Doni's despair.

" When the affair happened Light had not suffered from Anxiety Disorder . But when all was revealed, the Light had actually prepared itself in advance . So the effect is not so pronounced even though it has started to create wounds. " Light of Doctor Nadya.

" Oh, you probably don't know, sir. Actually Light had known the affair of her ex-husband long before the KDRT. Right after the Light gave birth to the Binar. Her husband's changed behavior, rarely going home, messages that were accidentally read . A dirty lipstick shirt. To the box k*nd*m and her husband are lying . The light knows all that . " Said Doctor Nadya who made Doni gaping in disbelief with the reality she just heard.

" And he lasted that long ? " Say Doni unconsciously.

" Children are the main reason Light survives. And the second because the Light depends entirely on the man. The light is orphaned, has no brothers or relatives. Making her gamang and choosing to survive and learn to accept, while her husband does not hate her is enough for her. That love and trust had already begun to erode and run out, until finally the Light became numb. When all is revealed the Light no longer feels pain or disappointment. " Doctor Nadya continued the explanation.

" Why with me he gave up too quickly without listening to explanations. " Say Doni rubbed his face rough. Doctor Nadya smiled as she grabbed Light's hand and stroked her gently .

" He has given up love and trust in you completely . And when he saw a reality that was hard to disprove with his own eyes, that's where the shaking happened, sir. He was shaken violently, his world was shattered and chose to be in his subconscious which he framed himself. To avoid feeling very sick. " Doctor Nadya stared at the Light lovingly.

" So now what can we do, Doctor. Give me back my light, Doctor. I beg you !! " Doni again sobbed shamelessly in front of Doctor Nadya.

Doni was really frustrated, he didn't want the Light to suffer like this. There are fetuses they have to fight for as well.

" Patience, Sir. We're gonna try to do that. The light is like a sister to me. I remember the last time he came. With a sparkling face told about her pregnancy. And about how considerate and protective you are. It's clearly a pseudo-face that can't lie if the Light loves you so much, sir. "

Doni stared at the now somber face of Light without a hue. The eyes that had been glued, now had closed indicating that the Light had fallen asleep. Gently Doni justifies the position of Light to sleep comfortably. And then pull the blanket up over the chest of Light.

All did not escape the attention of Doctor Nadya. A small smile rose from his lips convinced that this man beside him loved his wife very much.

" From tomorrow I'll be here every morning before practice, sir. We will do it step by step. Pray a lot, he said seduction in a third of the night is the most efficacious remedy. There is no harm in trying. " Said Doctor Nadya before resigning.

After a little talk about the counseling stage that will be Light through, finally Doctor Nadya said goodbye. Doni drove the doctor to the exit. Then pull back the chair and sit close to the light.

Lovingly, Doni opens the Light's instant hijab. Doni let the hair on his back unravel for the Light to be comfortable. Gently Doni stroked the hair many times and ended up with a kiss on the forehead of Light.

" Good night, honey. Have good night. Sleep well, brother will take care of you. Brother loves you, Orange. Loving you with crazy . It feels crazy without seeing your smile . My brother is sick to see you like this. Excuse me... Brother was wrong but brother did not betray. Brother is not betrayal. Brother will not be able to , even think of his only disgusted brother. Believe that... I love you... "

Doni whispered in the ear of Light in the hope that all his utterances would pass into the subconscious of Light and bring him back to his senses while opening his eyes.

HOPEFULLY....

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