Scratches of Past Wounds

Owner of Doni's heart ?

In the morning the Light had prepared Doni's work clothes in bed, while Doni was still bathing in the bathroom. Meanwhile Light heads to the child's room to help them prepare for school. This new activity Cahaya did for the first time as the wife of Ramadhoni aksa.

They had breakfast together like family. Light serves her husband and children and her parents-in-law upon arrival at the dinner table. Everything looks so perfect. But from earlier there was something that looked strange from Ratih's mother. Although he showed smiles to his two grandchildren but it looks something is wrong. Ratih's mother doesn't talk as much as she usually does.

" The same Blue Dinar delivered by Mr. Ed, yes ! Papa will return home to pick him up. " Say Doni. They did agree that Doni was called Papa.

The two children nodded their heads. Their communication is still very rigid. Especially Binar, it is very difficult to accept Doni even though he does not refuse.

After eating, Light delivered both of his children to the car. Driver Doni's been waiting there. Stay Doni and Ibu Ratih both at the dining table . And Light upon his return into the house of Light heard the conversation between Mother Ratih and Doni . It seems they are arguing.

" Donis gonna move her, Buk. "

" It's too late ! Even the light has seen it. And you know how she felt when the photo was plastered in front of her eyes ? Doni.. although this marriage you are forced to live but you can not do as you please. " Sounds the answer from Ratih's mother .

" But Doni was not intentional, Buk. " Answer Doni.

" Not intentionally ? If only I had listened to Ibuk to get rid of all about Tiara before Light came into this house. But you're stubborn, and always put Tiara above everything else. Haven't ten years to ruin your life in memory of Tiara, Don ? Even Ibuk you just ignored during that time, did Ibuk complain ? No !! But now that you have decided to bring someone to accompany you for life, please do not be disappointed. "

Ratih's mother was carried away with emotion causing the usual gentle old voice to tremble withstanding the emotional turmoil. He was so sorry for Doni's stubborn attitude. Remembering someone who's gone is no harm. It's just that what Doni did was excessive and unconsciously hurt the people around him.

The light is still leaning behind the wall of the central space. He hesitated to step. Among want to hear but are afraid of being caught eavesdropping.

" Don't apologize, Buk. But Doni has not been able to forget even throwing anything away about Tiara. Doni needs time ! " Sounds Doni's voice weakening.

" Time... !! Yes..just enjoy your time, do not regret if time erodes the patience of Light . Perhaps regret is no longer useful. I just want you to wake up, Doni. Death is a fate you cannot stop. And it was Tiara's fate that had to go that way. Stop blaming yourself. Life has to go on, if you choose to stay where you are, whatever... "

There was the sound of shifting chairs followed by a slow step leaving the dining table. Looks like Ratih's mom did it. After taking a deep breath the Light stepped back to the dining table. While releasing her veil, Light approached towards Doni.

" But you're not leaving yet ? " Nervous, Light is very nervous. But he tried to look calm. Tidying up the rest of the breakfast at the table.

" A little while. Here ! " Say Doni while patting the chair beside her the place where Light was sitting earlier. The light also according.

" What's up, Bang. " Task Light a little worriedly. The light sat comfortably and tilted slightly towards Doni.

" This is. use it for home needs. Now you are all taking over. " Say Doni handed me a silver card. " This is for your personal needs. Buy whatever you need with this "Doni hand back a card, this time gold.

The light just stared at the two cards located on the table in front of him . Confused what to say and hesitant to accept it.

" You should buy some clothes for important events or meet important people later. Remember you are my wife now. " Without Doni continuing his speech Light knows its meaning. It's like Doni said don't embarrass himself.

" Okay, Bang. " The light takes both cards.

" Eat a lot, you are very thin. Buy healthy foods so that children can also grow better. " Doni's voice was quite soft but hearing the word "very thin" was like something was piercing his heart.

The light was indeed thin unlike the densely filled Tiara. Light's height almost reached Doni's ears. High enough for an adult woman. While Tiara when viewed from the photo only se neck Doni. The light was losing its confidence. The words of Doni that night were also still echoed by the Light.

" Light on the photo...

" It doesn't matter. " Cut the Light before Doni talks about wedding photos in Doni's workspace.

" I don't mind that. If you want to put it on display in every corner of the house I also do not matter. A person's heart can't be forced, right ? Do whatever you want, I will accept whatever it is. " I don't know why the Light gets carried away by emotions. Maybe now Light feels unwanted and his sense of inferiority has dumped him to the bottom.

" I don't know if it was installed by a job that helped move the workspace. " Say Doni defended himself.

" What's the difference, want in the workspace or in the room. Or maybe in the living room. And I'm sure there's also in my office. There is also a car. What difference... ? I'm aware of the position, Brother don't worry. As long as I'm your wife I promise I won't bother Tiara even in your hearts. " The light rose and walked quickly towards his room.

Her tears had welled up, and Light did not want to spill them in front of Doni. The light was at the lowest point of his confidence. All of Doni's words since they got married were like tiny needle sticks. Sweet words Doni early married yawned somewhere.

The light returns to reality if he is not who he is. What the Light expects. Doni and his entire family including Rania are among those beyond the reach of the Light. And if the Light goes into it it's still a different level. And from now on Light must be good at putting himself and his heart.

Doni was fixated on staring at the back of the Light away . There was a sense of entanglement in his heart. Realize that the Light is hurting right now. Everything Light said was true, both in the car and in the office there was indeed a photo of Tiara. So what difference does it make if he gets rid of the one in the study, in fact Tiara has taken over his whole heart.

And Light. The light was just to please her mother. Is it enough to protect Light and her child in return.

Then what does his speech mean shortly after his marriage contract. It was really when Doni spoke from his heart. From the very beginning of knowing anything about the Light there was a belief in marrying that woman. There is a special interest that Doni feels. Isn't that a good thing, at least Doni can feel back the taste that was once lost.

But why is it so difficult to get rid of Tiara. Why is Doni so shackled by all the memories of Tiara. Doni could not get the Light by remaining a Tiara in his heart.

With a step gontai Doni left the house to his office.

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